Ben
I am dealing with other issues in my life but all pain is pain whether emotional, physical, or psychological. I am much like you where I am anti-social. I am too scared to even share anything with my immediate family.. Or so I was... Until my situation hit rock bottom in the last month. Let me tell you it was at this moment I finally opened up to my family- my brother and mother in particular and it has helped me so much. I have never spoken with them and always been to shy to show my emotions but crying in front of them and talking and breaking this 26 year old barrier between us has helped me cope a bit with my issues. Every small bit helps. I suggest you try to talk to your family. You are not alone. I am not alone. We have our family at least. I'm single too and love will come if it does. For now focus on talking to your family and learning to release your emotions and thoughts for them. Bottling it up and dealing with it on your own will only make it worse I promise. If you do not have good enough ties with your family you are welcome to private message me and I will give you my personal email. If that doesn't work for you I would say look for a support group maybe in your area. I'm sorry you broke up but don't give up... Someone always has it worse in the world is my motto. I know it doesn't fix anything but it gives sight and perspective. Good luck brother