hi,i'm 16 yr old f w/cf.i have recently been in hospital for a course of antibiotics, i usually go in at most 3 times a year. despite this i still have chest pain, and feel breathless, i have never experianced this when i'm not "rly sick" and i'm a bit freaked out!! my fev1 is currently 39%,it has been like that for a long time, up until recently i thought that this was normal for people w/cf but i now know that it's not, especially since i thought i was really healthy!!i know that on average the fev1 drops about 4% a year and now i'm gettin scared because i always hoped that i would be able 2 live a long and happy life!! you see the thing is unlike a lot of people my age i love life, i appreciate every thing about it and although i know this sounds terrible but i feel very angry towards some people who constantly complain about every thing and who will have the chance to live until they are old and wrinkly!!i just don't know who to talk 2 because i know that my parents would really worry if i told them i was feeling like this and even thought my friends are really supportive about the c/f i don't think it would be right to burden them with my feelings,i don't know what response i'm looking for from anyone out there i just think that i need to let this out!! sorry if i bored anyone! bye Posted by scared on March 03, 2003 at 13:36:26NOTE: this message has been transfered from the old CysticFibrosis.com forums.