Thank you to all of you for your kind words, esp Amy and Piper. Thank you to Caroline for showing me a picture of your port scar. That is not bad at all, I think the more I hear and the more I read, I am more willing to get one. I feel better mentally today than I did yesterday. Got my picc line in today,and I think it's not as bad as it was last time, as I know what to expect this go around. I think the port sounds like a good idea, because I would be able to do IV's anytime, and get my numbers back up and feel better. So the port is sounding more attractive as time goes on. <br><Br>
It is hard to be motivated to do your medicine when you feel crappy. I think I probably needed to be on IV's all through my 20's, but I just didn't want to admit that CF got me down. I also didn't have to do my meds like I do now, so all of it combined made for some poor choices on my part. <br><br>
My family is more supportive these days than they were back then. Back then, in their defense, I was a rebellious teen who didn't want to admit that CF was a part of my life. At the same time, sometimes they didn't want to act like it was a part of mine/theirs, either. It was almost like they would only bring it up at their convenience.<br><br>
I'm taking control of my health now, instead of trying to pretend that CF doesn't exist. For the last few months, I've been keeping up with all of my meds every day on a spreadsheet and everything. I am so compliant, and now adding IV's to the mix should make me feel and breathe a lot better.<Br><br>
I talked to my boss yesterday afternoon about getting a lock on my door at work, that way I can do my IV's and no one will walk in on me.She seemed understanding of that. I try not to let the work a holics get to me, but sometimes it's hard. It seems like people in that department are either lazy or work themselves crazy. I seem like the only normal one in there. The work a holics make me look like I don't work hard, but because of the lazy ones, I end up working a lot harder than I need to. <br><br>
Well, I think that is the end of my rambling. I do appreciate everyone and I am very grateful for this board and everybody who is here for support. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">