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N O R M A L !!!!!
Yes, I was shocked. I never even saw my doctor, but he told Jake afterwards that it was as normal as normal can be! I have to go back in 3 weeks.
As you can imagine, the findings are bittersweet. Of course, I'm happy that I'm okay. Endometriosis is a long-term issue that I really don't need. However (on the flip-side of things), why can't I get pregnant? I will be off the pill 3 years June 19, 2008, without any success. Yet so many others get pregnant just by being looked at, as far as I'm concerned. It blows my mind... As far as the pain that I get, I intend to "deal with it" unless I just get too fed up with it. At that time, I will go on the birth control pill and just be done with the whole thing.
He didn't find anything. No PCOS. No endo. I guess he didn't even find adhesions or scar tissue from my previous surgeries either...If he did, it surely wasn't enough to prevent pregnancy.
I'm still glad that I had the surgery, though. Both fertility clinic wanted me to jump to IVF on a "guess" that I had scar tissue between my tubes and ovaries. That finally has been proved wrong. There isn't anything wrong with me...I just can't get pregnant...
Jake and I had a "talk" on the way home. We're thinking about me staying off the pill but still forgeting the whole baby thing, at least for awhile. I feel like the past 2.5 - 3 years have been nothing but disappointment, sadness, and madness. I really have had enough. I can't take anymore and have no desire to pursue anything else at this time either. I just want a break...
That also includes this area of the forum...All of you are my "friends". You have always been there for me, and for that I am so thankful. I just have to make a break for awhile. I need to. To all the new Moms, I wish you all the best! To all the Moms-to-be, I wish you all the best with your pregnancies and deliveries. With so many babies born recently and on-the-way, now is a good time for me to depart. I'll still be around but not on this area of the forum. I need to get my life back.
I intend to lurk for a few more days to hear if you have any thoughts. <img src="">
Yes, I was shocked. I never even saw my doctor, but he told Jake afterwards that it was as normal as normal can be! I have to go back in 3 weeks.
As you can imagine, the findings are bittersweet. Of course, I'm happy that I'm okay. Endometriosis is a long-term issue that I really don't need. However (on the flip-side of things), why can't I get pregnant? I will be off the pill 3 years June 19, 2008, without any success. Yet so many others get pregnant just by being looked at, as far as I'm concerned. It blows my mind... As far as the pain that I get, I intend to "deal with it" unless I just get too fed up with it. At that time, I will go on the birth control pill and just be done with the whole thing.
He didn't find anything. No PCOS. No endo. I guess he didn't even find adhesions or scar tissue from my previous surgeries either...If he did, it surely wasn't enough to prevent pregnancy.
I'm still glad that I had the surgery, though. Both fertility clinic wanted me to jump to IVF on a "guess" that I had scar tissue between my tubes and ovaries. That finally has been proved wrong. There isn't anything wrong with me...I just can't get pregnant...
Jake and I had a "talk" on the way home. We're thinking about me staying off the pill but still forgeting the whole baby thing, at least for awhile. I feel like the past 2.5 - 3 years have been nothing but disappointment, sadness, and madness. I really have had enough. I can't take anymore and have no desire to pursue anything else at this time either. I just want a break...
That also includes this area of the forum...All of you are my "friends". You have always been there for me, and for that I am so thankful. I just have to make a break for awhile. I need to. To all the new Moms, I wish you all the best! To all the Moms-to-be, I wish you all the best with your pregnancies and deliveries. With so many babies born recently and on-the-way, now is a good time for me to depart. I'll still be around but not on this area of the forum. I need to get my life back.
I intend to lurk for a few more days to hear if you have any thoughts. <img src="">