Hi Joy,
I went to the National Jewish in Denver also! I was so impressed with the doctor there, dr iseman, he was wonderful and very reassuring. I had been told that it is usually 'end stage' patients who get these Mycobacterial infections, but he made me feel a lot better. I have a relatively mild case, and had been pretty healthy and working up until this infection, so it was very shocking to me to be told that usually only very sick people get this. But I did feel a lot better after going to Denver and now know that people can live with this for a good long time..... That was my biggest concern, I was so worried about my son/family.
I can completely relate to your low energy. It is so frustrating not be be able to keep up with everything! There are times when my house is a disaster and I am just able to look after myself, forget shopping, cleaning or volunteering. It is so aggravating to look around and see everything falling behind and not being able to keep up with it. I wish I had some good suggestions! My family is pretty helpful, but I feel the same way you do, I don't think it is my son or husband's job to pick up my slack. There are times when I am just not able to do everything I need to. They do pitch in for the short term sometimes, but both have responsabilities with work/school and it is hard for them to do my 'job' as well. I am very impressed that you are still working, your job must take an enormous amount of energy. I was a nurse and that was quite tiring as well. Now I can't imagine how I ever had the energy to work! Would you contemplate applying for SSDI? I realize this is quite a big decision and I really struggled with it. (Still do at times!) I know it isn't for everyone, but even if you were able to stop working for a bit until you are feeling better and get your energy back, it might help. If you have any questions about it, I would be glad to answer.
It is so hard when you look fine, people have no idea what you are going through. I also wish I looked sick sometimes, it can be frustrating when people say, "but you look fine!" when actually you are feeling really horrible. I know how hard the adjustment is after being diagnosed, I think it took me a few years to really come to terms with everthing. Try to give it time....And don't worry at all about venting, I am glad to listen. It is so nice to run into someone else with a similar situation. I find it hard being 'different' from my friends and even from a lot of other cf patients. It is so comforting to know there are other people out there who share similar problems. My email is knunnari@comcast.net if you would like to talk.... Take care! Kim