mamaScarlett
Active member
Yes I am almost 8 weeks pregnant!!
Its been a long long road. For those who don't know-we have a 3 yr old daughter. About 2 yrs ago I got extremely sick from complications from a mold allergy-my pfts got so low my doc said I needed to forget about having more children-my anxiety about wanting another baby was hindering my physical health.
It was a time of uncertainty and very hard emotionally for me. I was never that sick my whole life. But eventually I recovered fully-with hard work as always.
For me the decision to have a 2nd baby was much harder than the 1st. That health scare left me with almost a post-traumatic stress type feeling. Plus I was less willing to take any type of risk now-I have my first child to be here for, to care for.
It took me a long time to think about it, talk about it with my care team and husband. As soon as I was ready emotionally, it was on to physically. I went to work on my body the same way I did with the first baby. My pfts had returned to my pre-preg #s, so now it was to be sure to hold them stable for a good long run.
Everything I do typically to care for my health, just my game upped. I got the ok to ttc from my doc-after months of checking and re-checking-full body 'work up'-tests, etc.
With my daughter I got preg the 2nd try. NEVER did I think it would take me a year to conceive!!!
That was the 2nd emotional battle. What a battle-for you women that know...yes it is so hard. All consuming. I can't put into words how hard it is/was. Months and months of tears.
Throw in having cf and its extremely stressful-avoiding colds, people, getting sick etc.
Finally us and our care team said its been too long and we had to see a fertility center.
We scheduled our first appt. I went for my first 'work up' of tests. Ultrasounds, blood. Our appt was set for Sept 14th. (our anniversary)
Hubby and I decided to take some alone time to prepare ourselves mentally for the road ahead (before the appt.)
We went away alone to Italy and just had fun again together.
And...a week after we got home I realized we had a little souvenir!!!! It was a MIRACLE. I was and am still in shock. (although the nausea and vomiting is setting in the reality!)
My first pregnancy was sooo easy breezy and perfect. When I popped her out-I was ready for the next one right away! Then it got tougher later on. There were lots of times I thought-no, I'll never do that again-with pain in my heart.
But now, I can see that it was a blessing that it took me over 3 years to have another baby. It took me that long to really be ready emotionally, not to mention physically.
I'm glad that my children will be 4 years apart. My oldest will be able to help out more. The 3 of us will have a year together at home-and then my oldest will go to school-giving me time with the baby. If I was like a non-cfer-and wanted 5 kids...then of course I couldn't afford the luxury of time like this. But for once its nice to have time on my side!
The biggest lesson I've learned so far from my experience is not to self sabotage. I had condemned myself healthwise. For me, it was having another baby. For you, it may be running a marathon, getting a job, going to school-whatever it is. Saying-no, I can't do this bc I'm in this category. When my health was down-I let myself feel like a failure and like I'd never recover. But the truth is, it really does come down to what you believe. Believe it with your soul and with your being-and you CAN get there. xoxox
...Just wanted to add...if anyone here sees this and knows me in my 'real' life...keep it quiet! We haven't told family yet! sshhhhh...
Its been a long long road. For those who don't know-we have a 3 yr old daughter. About 2 yrs ago I got extremely sick from complications from a mold allergy-my pfts got so low my doc said I needed to forget about having more children-my anxiety about wanting another baby was hindering my physical health.
It was a time of uncertainty and very hard emotionally for me. I was never that sick my whole life. But eventually I recovered fully-with hard work as always.
For me the decision to have a 2nd baby was much harder than the 1st. That health scare left me with almost a post-traumatic stress type feeling. Plus I was less willing to take any type of risk now-I have my first child to be here for, to care for.
It took me a long time to think about it, talk about it with my care team and husband. As soon as I was ready emotionally, it was on to physically. I went to work on my body the same way I did with the first baby. My pfts had returned to my pre-preg #s, so now it was to be sure to hold them stable for a good long run.
Everything I do typically to care for my health, just my game upped. I got the ok to ttc from my doc-after months of checking and re-checking-full body 'work up'-tests, etc.
With my daughter I got preg the 2nd try. NEVER did I think it would take me a year to conceive!!!
That was the 2nd emotional battle. What a battle-for you women that know...yes it is so hard. All consuming. I can't put into words how hard it is/was. Months and months of tears.
Throw in having cf and its extremely stressful-avoiding colds, people, getting sick etc.
Finally us and our care team said its been too long and we had to see a fertility center.
We scheduled our first appt. I went for my first 'work up' of tests. Ultrasounds, blood. Our appt was set for Sept 14th. (our anniversary)
Hubby and I decided to take some alone time to prepare ourselves mentally for the road ahead (before the appt.)
We went away alone to Italy and just had fun again together.
And...a week after we got home I realized we had a little souvenir!!!! It was a MIRACLE. I was and am still in shock. (although the nausea and vomiting is setting in the reality!)
My first pregnancy was sooo easy breezy and perfect. When I popped her out-I was ready for the next one right away! Then it got tougher later on. There were lots of times I thought-no, I'll never do that again-with pain in my heart.
But now, I can see that it was a blessing that it took me over 3 years to have another baby. It took me that long to really be ready emotionally, not to mention physically.
I'm glad that my children will be 4 years apart. My oldest will be able to help out more. The 3 of us will have a year together at home-and then my oldest will go to school-giving me time with the baby. If I was like a non-cfer-and wanted 5 kids...then of course I couldn't afford the luxury of time like this. But for once its nice to have time on my side!
The biggest lesson I've learned so far from my experience is not to self sabotage. I had condemned myself healthwise. For me, it was having another baby. For you, it may be running a marathon, getting a job, going to school-whatever it is. Saying-no, I can't do this bc I'm in this category. When my health was down-I let myself feel like a failure and like I'd never recover. But the truth is, it really does come down to what you believe. Believe it with your soul and with your being-and you CAN get there. xoxox
...Just wanted to add...if anyone here sees this and knows me in my 'real' life...keep it quiet! We haven't told family yet! sshhhhh...