I can't believe one year already

mcbrash

New member
I wanted to share with all of you the following message that I wrote in Matt's carepages.



It is now one year since our dear Matt left us and I can't begin to tell you how much we miss Matt and what a void has been left in our lives. Our first Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving, Matt's birthday have all come and gone and now here we are, our first anniversary without Matt. Even though Matt left us on the 15th of May, it will always be the Sunday before the 15th that I will remember most.

There is such emptiness and silence in our house since last May, things like the compressor that delivered Matt's medications 2 to 3 times daily, the humming of his oxygen concentrator, sounds of his cough, music blaring, which many times I complained of but what I would not give to hear that loud music once again. Things seemed to have stood still here in many ways since last May. Matt's room is as it was when he left for the hospital, his pills still sit where he left them, his slippers next to his bed, his jacket still hung behind the door etc.

I have accomplished a few things that I am quite proud of this past year in memorializing Matt. Having his carepages compiled together into a book, putting his artwork together and having it on display on the CF Ward at St. Mikes, getting Matt's picture on the front cover of a CF book called "the Ultimate Teen Guide" and the list goes on. Of course these projects would never have been possible had it not been for Matt and the talent he had for art and photography, which he left so much of for me to work with. He also taught me so many things to do on my computer which enabled me to do these projects. I recently finished a video montage of Matt, if you haven't seen it and would like to, just click on the following link or copy and paste it:

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I have to thank each and everyone of my family and friends for helping us get through this past year. There has never been a lack of support from anyone and if a shoulder has been needed to cry on there has always been one there for me. I have met many other parents that have lost their sons and daughters to CF and knowing that this journey of grief is not traveled by us alone seems to help somewhat.


If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Loving you now and forever more Matt
 

julie

New member
Thank you for sharing this with us. I wish you the best today and pray for continued strength and healing for your family.
 

JennifersHope

New member
I just read your story and veiwed your montage. I cried so hard. He looked like such a fun loving guy. He was so cute and hansom.

He didn't look sick at all in any of those pictures which is what always gets me...we never look sick.


You are doing a good job getting through this, I am sure your son is proud. I hope you do something this week that your son always liked to do.. this way you can honor him more.


IN my prayers

Jennifer
 

momoftraci

New member
If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.


Sandy,
That is sooo true.......Thinking of you always ...got your e-mail and it sounds so nice what your doing tomorrow. im glad you have all the support you need. Im sure it helps knowing you can run to someone.Im working on getting yahoo up so we can chat more, cause i really need a friend.I will let you know and please know if you need to talk you know i am always here for you!!
Love your Friend Gail
TRACI ANN
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