Hi, my names Clarice, I'm 19 years old and I've had this forum for a while now, but this is my first write in it. My entire life my lungs have been incredibly healthy, always above the 100 percentile, but since I've gone to college, my lung function has significantly dropped because of my lack in doing treatments. A couple months ago I was hospitalized for having pnemonia and was put on antibiotics that brought my lung function back to about a 95 to 100. But since I left they dropped back down to a 70, and they found more bacteria, so now I'm back on antibiotics. My lungs hurt, I can't stop coughing and breathings becoming a challenge and has been for many months, and I just coughed up blood for the first time tonight. It wasn't a lot that came out, but it was enough to freak me out. I know I do a ***** job at taking care of myself, and I make very bad decissions that I don't understand why I do, but the fact that this just happened is terrifying me. I just want to be okay, and I need to know I can be okay, and the fact that I feel like I'm fighting this disease 100% on my own, is even worse. I just need to know what to do...