I can't say that I'm ever fond of CF, but today of all days in the last few years I'm just fed up with this d*mn disease.<br><br>For those of you familiar with M's story, he has not had a good progression and went through a lot early in life. However, things had been stable for some time.<br><br>Earlier this year we started to see signs of lung issues, and did several rounds of oral abx.<br><br>In May he started puking up blood, and turned out to be bleeding varices from his liver disease. At the same time we did an inpatient stay and started what would be the first of 2 rounds of IV's this summer.<br><br>It has been a long and difficult summer, the aggressive efforts to deal with the CF has sent M's autism into a tailspin, making life almost unbearable for everyone including him.<br><br>Today he was scheduled for a follow-up scope for the varicies and a bronch.<br><br>Liver doc ended up banding another varice and scheduled a repeat in another 2 months. Will be the 4th time since May they have had to deal with it--not good news.<br><br>Then CF doc came out, and was visibly disturbed. He informed us that despite all we have done that his lungs look the worst he has seen them all year (this was 3rd bronch since May) and that his sinuses were full of infection which is the first time we've had this issue.<br><br>Dr said that at this point he is running out of options to deal with the lungs. With his autism so antagonized right now that there is nothing we can do. He gave us a couple of months to focus on the autism and then he will decide what else we can do to arrest the slide we are on. <br><br>I don't even know how to process that the most aggressive CF doctor I have ever heard of basically is at a loss for how to stop what is going on given the limitations of his autism.<br><br>All I can say is 9 is too young to have these kinds of days, I hate CF today more than even usual.<br><br>Ok, I'm done venting now.<br>