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cfmomma

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Hi everyone, I haven't been on for about two months. I finally had the baby, he's awesome. His name is Jackson, he was 7lbs 6ozs, and was born March 6th. I ended spending almost 3 weeks in the hospital on strict bedrest because my blood pressure was very high, I was bored out of my mind and I hated being away from my son. Labor was horrible. I had two epidurals, high fever, two IV`s in my armpit (all the veins in my hands and arm were used up while on bedrest), and I the worst panic attack of my life. My first IV infiltrated and I could actually see a bubble of fluid and harsh antibiotics forming under my skin, OUCH! Towards the end of labor I freaked out. It was like restless leg syndrome gone haywire. I couldn't stop shaking and flailing about. I finally delivered the baby and he was worth all of it!
Jackson ended up in the NICU for a week because he inhaled meconium and got pneumonia and a small pneumothorax. I hated leaving the hospital without him.
 
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cfmomma

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Hi everyone, I haven't been on for about two months. I finally had the baby, he's awesome. His name is Jackson, he was 7lbs 6ozs, and was born March 6th. I ended spending almost 3 weeks in the hospital on strict bedrest because my blood pressure was very high, I was bored out of my mind and I hated being away from my son. Labor was horrible. I had two epidurals, high fever, two IV`s in my armpit (all the veins in my hands and arm were used up while on bedrest), and I the worst panic attack of my life. My first IV infiltrated and I could actually see a bubble of fluid and harsh antibiotics forming under my skin, OUCH! Towards the end of labor I freaked out. It was like restless leg syndrome gone haywire. I couldn't stop shaking and flailing about. I finally delivered the baby and he was worth all of it!
Jackson ended up in the NICU for a week because he inhaled meconium and got pneumonia and a small pneumothorax. I hated leaving the hospital without him.
 
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cfmomma

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Hi everyone, I haven't been on for about two months. I finally had the baby, he's awesome. His name is Jackson, he was 7lbs 6ozs, and was born March 6th. I ended spending almost 3 weeks in the hospital on strict bedrest because my blood pressure was very high, I was bored out of my mind and I hated being away from my son. Labor was horrible. I had two epidurals, high fever, two IV`s in my armpit (all the veins in my hands and arm were used up while on bedrest), and I the worst panic attack of my life. My first IV infiltrated and I could actually see a bubble of fluid and harsh antibiotics forming under my skin, OUCH! Towards the end of labor I freaked out. It was like restless leg syndrome gone haywire. I couldn't stop shaking and flailing about. I finally delivered the baby and he was worth all of it!
Jackson ended up in the NICU for a week because he inhaled meconium and got pneumonia and a small pneumothorax. I hated leaving the hospital without him.
 
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cfmomma

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...continued from above.
A few days after we got home I got the call. Jackson has CF. I am so devastated, I prepared myself for this possibility but I am really taking this hard. I feel so guilty, even though this pregnancy was a surprise. I psyched myself out and irrationally told myself that if prepared for the worst and if I could prove to God, me, and others that I was OK with this possiblity, then surely this baby will be healthy. Damn Murphys law! I'm pissed and confused and depressed. I love this little boy so much, both of my CF boys. My emotions are everywhere and when I close my eyes at night I see my sons lying in coffins next to each other. I can't get this horrible image out of my head. It`s morbid and I just want to tell my brain to shut up. I am seriously thinking about taking an antianxiety drug to get through this. I am breastfeeding and I don`t want to take a medication that will interfere. I need some moral support and am desperate for advice from anyone out there. Thanks.
 
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cfmomma

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...continued from above.
A few days after we got home I got the call. Jackson has CF. I am so devastated, I prepared myself for this possibility but I am really taking this hard. I feel so guilty, even though this pregnancy was a surprise. I psyched myself out and irrationally told myself that if prepared for the worst and if I could prove to God, me, and others that I was OK with this possiblity, then surely this baby will be healthy. Damn Murphys law! I'm pissed and confused and depressed. I love this little boy so much, both of my CF boys. My emotions are everywhere and when I close my eyes at night I see my sons lying in coffins next to each other. I can't get this horrible image out of my head. It`s morbid and I just want to tell my brain to shut up. I am seriously thinking about taking an antianxiety drug to get through this. I am breastfeeding and I don`t want to take a medication that will interfere. I need some moral support and am desperate for advice from anyone out there. Thanks.
 
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cfmomma

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...continued from above.
A few days after we got home I got the call. Jackson has CF. I am so devastated, I prepared myself for this possibility but I am really taking this hard. I feel so guilty, even though this pregnancy was a surprise. I psyched myself out and irrationally told myself that if prepared for the worst and if I could prove to God, me, and others that I was OK with this possiblity, then surely this baby will be healthy. Damn Murphys law! I'm pissed and confused and depressed. I love this little boy so much, both of my CF boys. My emotions are everywhere and when I close my eyes at night I see my sons lying in coffins next to each other. I can't get this horrible image out of my head. It`s morbid and I just want to tell my brain to shut up. I am seriously thinking about taking an antianxiety drug to get through this. I am breastfeeding and I don`t want to take a medication that will interfere. I need some moral support and am desperate for advice from anyone out there. Thanks.
 
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JazzysMom

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First of all CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I am sorry that it was such a rough run toward the end, during & after delivery. BTW you need to change your signature now LOL. I think the dreams you are having is natural. You have been thru a lot and reality has set in on what your family is dealing with two fold. IF the dreams are starting to interfere with your daily life I truly recommend that you seek help. I understand that you dont want it interfere with breastfeeding, but the boys need their "whole" mom there. HUGS, LOVE & STRENGTH to you!

Do you have any pictures to share?!!!!!!!!!!
 
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JazzysMom

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First of all CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I am sorry that it was such a rough run toward the end, during & after delivery. BTW you need to change your signature now LOL. I think the dreams you are having is natural. You have been thru a lot and reality has set in on what your family is dealing with two fold. IF the dreams are starting to interfere with your daily life I truly recommend that you seek help. I understand that you dont want it interfere with breastfeeding, but the boys need their "whole" mom there. HUGS, LOVE & STRENGTH to you!

Do you have any pictures to share?!!!!!!!!!!
 
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JazzysMom

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First of all CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I am sorry that it was such a rough run toward the end, during & after delivery. BTW you need to change your signature now LOL. I think the dreams you are having is natural. You have been thru a lot and reality has set in on what your family is dealing with two fold. IF the dreams are starting to interfere with your daily life I truly recommend that you seek help. I understand that you dont want it interfere with breastfeeding, but the boys need their "whole" mom there. HUGS, LOVE & STRENGTH to you!

Do you have any pictures to share?!!!!!!!!!!
 
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ktsmom

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Welcome to this world, baby Jackson! That is the name of my favorite relative, so you've got some great company!

Sheli - IV's in your armpit, seriously! Aargh, what an experience that must have been. I'm glad you got through it all and are getting back around. I agree with Melissa you MUST take care of yourself in order to be there for the boys. Please talk to your doctor about your concerns.

And really, the bad dreams will go away, I think. Help your brain to focus on something else - find a good (happy) book and immerse yourself in it, if you have the time. Otherwise, we are here for you so hang in there!
 
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ktsmom

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Welcome to this world, baby Jackson! That is the name of my favorite relative, so you've got some great company!

Sheli - IV's in your armpit, seriously! Aargh, what an experience that must have been. I'm glad you got through it all and are getting back around. I agree with Melissa you MUST take care of yourself in order to be there for the boys. Please talk to your doctor about your concerns.

And really, the bad dreams will go away, I think. Help your brain to focus on something else - find a good (happy) book and immerse yourself in it, if you have the time. Otherwise, we are here for you so hang in there!
 
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ktsmom

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Welcome to this world, baby Jackson! That is the name of my favorite relative, so you've got some great company!

Sheli - IV's in your armpit, seriously! Aargh, what an experience that must have been. I'm glad you got through it all and are getting back around. I agree with Melissa you MUST take care of yourself in order to be there for the boys. Please talk to your doctor about your concerns.

And really, the bad dreams will go away, I think. Help your brain to focus on something else - find a good (happy) book and immerse yourself in it, if you have the time. Otherwise, we are here for you so hang in there!
 
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OperaMama

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Yea, you! What a lot of work to get your little sweetheart! How's Mr. Numero Uno liking all this?!?! Sounds like you have justifiable cause for a little PPD. Many friends have had it and skipped the drugs; talking it all out (or writing to your support group out here in cyberland! <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> ) helped them. It's a VERY hard transition to go from one to two kids, no matter how wonderful and happy and all. Add that special little CF thing to the mix, and you have a tough batter, for sure. Keep talking, reach out everywhere for help and support and free dinners and housecleaning and baby-holding and shopping and whatever you can get. Even though we are all SuperMoms, allowing people and even asking them for help widens the circle of grace.
 
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OperaMama

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Yea, you! What a lot of work to get your little sweetheart! How's Mr. Numero Uno liking all this?!?! Sounds like you have justifiable cause for a little PPD. Many friends have had it and skipped the drugs; talking it all out (or writing to your support group out here in cyberland! <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> ) helped them. It's a VERY hard transition to go from one to two kids, no matter how wonderful and happy and all. Add that special little CF thing to the mix, and you have a tough batter, for sure. Keep talking, reach out everywhere for help and support and free dinners and housecleaning and baby-holding and shopping and whatever you can get. Even though we are all SuperMoms, allowing people and even asking them for help widens the circle of grace.
 
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OperaMama

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Yea, you! What a lot of work to get your little sweetheart! How's Mr. Numero Uno liking all this?!?! Sounds like you have justifiable cause for a little PPD. Many friends have had it and skipped the drugs; talking it all out (or writing to your support group out here in cyberland! <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> ) helped them. It's a VERY hard transition to go from one to two kids, no matter how wonderful and happy and all. Add that special little CF thing to the mix, and you have a tough batter, for sure. Keep talking, reach out everywhere for help and support and free dinners and housecleaning and baby-holding and shopping and whatever you can get. Even though we are all SuperMoms, allowing people and even asking them for help widens the circle of grace.
 
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grassisgreener

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Congratulations on your new blessing! I am so sorry that he has CF and I can only imagine what it would be like to find out the news just after such a rough labor/post partum time. It sounds to me like you might have some PPD but I am no expert. I was at least slightly wacko for the first 3-6 weeks after my kids were born although I think that was more lack of sleep than PPD. I hope you are feeling better soon!
 
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grassisgreener

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Congratulations on your new blessing! I am so sorry that he has CF and I can only imagine what it would be like to find out the news just after such a rough labor/post partum time. It sounds to me like you might have some PPD but I am no expert. I was at least slightly wacko for the first 3-6 weeks after my kids were born although I think that was more lack of sleep than PPD. I hope you are feeling better soon!
 
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grassisgreener

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Congratulations on your new blessing! I am so sorry that he has CF and I can only imagine what it would be like to find out the news just after such a rough labor/post partum time. It sounds to me like you might have some PPD but I am no expert. I was at least slightly wacko for the first 3-6 weeks after my kids were born although I think that was more lack of sleep than PPD. I hope you are feeling better soon!
 
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