Ok heres my story back in mid january of this year I met this girl in the hospital. To make a long story short. We kept in touch after leaving the hospital and soon after that we became boyfriend and girlfriend. That was around 3 months and half ago I must say it was kind of a challenge to keep in touch since we live about 40 minutes to an hour away depending on traffic. But anyway on monday I realized I have a small lung infection going (bad smell when coughing,excessive coughing.etc) so I've started doubling my treatments to try to get rid of this. On Monday I talked with my girlfriend and she noticed me coughing and I told her that I was ok.
But anyway she said she would call me the next day. Well she ended up not calling and I had been having a terrible time with my lungs these past 2 days or so. I woke up this morning coughing and I started thinking about things. Like my girlfriend and my disease and the fact that I'm always sick. The doctors don't know why she was getting sick when she had to go in the hospital. But they just gave her steriods and she is getting better. She is getting off of them soon and when I think about that I just get really sad because she will stop having to take medicine but I goto keep taking medicine.
I take so much medicine yet she only has to take steriods and some other pill and she is getting off of it soon. But I'm kinda jealous of her and yet scared because I don't wanna get in the hospital again and I'm sick of this medicine. It seems I'm never getting better she's 16 and I'm 17. I never really sat down and explained everything about CF and whats wrong with me exactly but she knows that I do have problems healthwise. I'm so tired of this I'm also scared of ending up marrying her later on in life if we are still together and she see's me on all this medicine and all of it cost all this money. I love her but I don't know how she would deal with having me going in the hospital all the time and all this crap.
I've been in the hospital 3 times in a years span time because of these lung infections. But I would have never met her if I didn't get sick back in Jan. I really wanted to talk to her since I not been feeling good these past 2 days. But like I said she didn't call and that made me sad I know I would probally feel better getting to talk to her when feeling like this. I just don't know if she wants to be with some sick person for the rest of her life.
:-(
But anyway she said she would call me the next day. Well she ended up not calling and I had been having a terrible time with my lungs these past 2 days or so. I woke up this morning coughing and I started thinking about things. Like my girlfriend and my disease and the fact that I'm always sick. The doctors don't know why she was getting sick when she had to go in the hospital. But they just gave her steriods and she is getting better. She is getting off of them soon and when I think about that I just get really sad because she will stop having to take medicine but I goto keep taking medicine.
I take so much medicine yet she only has to take steriods and some other pill and she is getting off of it soon. But I'm kinda jealous of her and yet scared because I don't wanna get in the hospital again and I'm sick of this medicine. It seems I'm never getting better she's 16 and I'm 17. I never really sat down and explained everything about CF and whats wrong with me exactly but she knows that I do have problems healthwise. I'm so tired of this I'm also scared of ending up marrying her later on in life if we are still together and she see's me on all this medicine and all of it cost all this money. I love her but I don't know how she would deal with having me going in the hospital all the time and all this crap.
I've been in the hospital 3 times in a years span time because of these lung infections. But I would have never met her if I didn't get sick back in Jan. I really wanted to talk to her since I not been feeling good these past 2 days. But like I said she didn't call and that made me sad I know I would probally feel better getting to talk to her when feeling like this. I just don't know if she wants to be with some sick person for the rest of her life.
:-(