Scarlett81
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Who can say they haven't had one?
Well, many things in my life are changing. For the better. I want to start off by saying that in the past week or so I've kinda been in shock-and received info and had encounters that have me in zombie land. Sometimes I feel like I've hit a brick wall-been run over by a MAC and then I'm on the verge of elation.
The past year of my life has seen so much positive growth I can hardly believe it. My health has improved so much-mostly due to the fact that I've found greatest cf care team on the planet! I don't want to be snotty-but I LOVE MY CARE TEAM! I've been told my whole life by various people-doctors and family-that I could never have children. And consequently I cut that emotional desire off a long time ago. But, people grow and change.
After months of "maybe's" and working OH SO EXTRA hard to get where I need to be, listening to what my doctor told me to do, holding the hightest PFTs of my life-then being told I have finally crossed over to being in the "mild lung disease" category, doing tons of research-then doubting myself all over again, trying to believe in a possibility, waiting, feeling the butterflies in my stomach every time I had my PFTs done-hoping I held them and my doc would tell me I could go ahead........I had my appointment a week ago and have received the green light from my doctor that I am healthy enough to go ahead and try for a baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is a miracle and dream come true in every sense of those words. This is a choice that has taken months of planning, serious thought, consideration, waiting patiently-not acting on emotion. I want to emphasize that every case in different here. This is not a one fits all package. There is no such thing as "CFers shouldn't have kids" OR "CFers can have kids" for that matter. It is an individual basis.
With that in mind-I share my experience and journey in getting to this point to inspire others to see that possiblities are opening up-and with hard work you don't know what is possible. Whether its a baby, a new job, and trip of a lifetime-whatever-don't give up b/c of what you've been told. I share this joyful time with you who have given me experience and info that have helped me-and to talk about a positive aspect of CF for once-possiblities opening. If anyone has questions on how I got to this point-please feel free to ask. ALSO-this is a positive happy thing-If you don't agree with this decision-to be blunt-SHOVE IT. Go write your opinion on a piece of paper and burn it. Some of you may have noticed I haven't been here as much-and it will stay that way. I want to keep the ones that care about me informed and have them be a part of this process and especially inspire new people at this site AND younger cfers to do everything to take 100%care of themsleves!!!!!-(as all you women with CF and children have inspired me)-but I'm sick of the negativity, and the high school drama. I'm over it, and am doing bigger and better things with my life that require my attention. So, I will keep you updated-and I give a HUGE thanku to all that helped me with their stories along the way. But I had to get my feelings off my chest. I just thank all the dear souls here for being happy for me-my CF family.<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
Let's keep thinking fertility! We'll start trying soon, we just need to finish a few things first that will take a few months. And we'll see. I have to keep up with Julie! HAH LOL-and Wanderlost!!!
I just want to share one moment with all you-oh man I'm already getting teary remembering it. I came home from the doctors monday night and all my sister in law and MIL were over at the house-(they knew what the appointment was for!)-and I came in, and one of them approached me, asked how it went-and I said'I can get pregnant!'-and she hugged me and then one by one, all 6 surrounded me, hugged me and kissed me and we teared in a group hug. It was a moment I have dreamt of-but never thought would happen. Something out of a movie. And I've always looked at that and thought-wow that must feel so happy. The happiness in a moment like that. And now I got a little peice of the pie for once! I felt like I was outside my body looking at that group of girls with me in the center-is this real? Is this a dream? Everyday I've gone to bed thinking I'm going to wake up and that doctor appointment and the dream will be over. And every day I wake up and its not! And plans are moving ahead. And I'm going to be a mother. My dream.
Well, many things in my life are changing. For the better. I want to start off by saying that in the past week or so I've kinda been in shock-and received info and had encounters that have me in zombie land. Sometimes I feel like I've hit a brick wall-been run over by a MAC and then I'm on the verge of elation.
The past year of my life has seen so much positive growth I can hardly believe it. My health has improved so much-mostly due to the fact that I've found greatest cf care team on the planet! I don't want to be snotty-but I LOVE MY CARE TEAM! I've been told my whole life by various people-doctors and family-that I could never have children. And consequently I cut that emotional desire off a long time ago. But, people grow and change.
After months of "maybe's" and working OH SO EXTRA hard to get where I need to be, listening to what my doctor told me to do, holding the hightest PFTs of my life-then being told I have finally crossed over to being in the "mild lung disease" category, doing tons of research-then doubting myself all over again, trying to believe in a possibility, waiting, feeling the butterflies in my stomach every time I had my PFTs done-hoping I held them and my doc would tell me I could go ahead........I had my appointment a week ago and have received the green light from my doctor that I am healthy enough to go ahead and try for a baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is a miracle and dream come true in every sense of those words. This is a choice that has taken months of planning, serious thought, consideration, waiting patiently-not acting on emotion. I want to emphasize that every case in different here. This is not a one fits all package. There is no such thing as "CFers shouldn't have kids" OR "CFers can have kids" for that matter. It is an individual basis.
With that in mind-I share my experience and journey in getting to this point to inspire others to see that possiblities are opening up-and with hard work you don't know what is possible. Whether its a baby, a new job, and trip of a lifetime-whatever-don't give up b/c of what you've been told. I share this joyful time with you who have given me experience and info that have helped me-and to talk about a positive aspect of CF for once-possiblities opening. If anyone has questions on how I got to this point-please feel free to ask. ALSO-this is a positive happy thing-If you don't agree with this decision-to be blunt-SHOVE IT. Go write your opinion on a piece of paper and burn it. Some of you may have noticed I haven't been here as much-and it will stay that way. I want to keep the ones that care about me informed and have them be a part of this process and especially inspire new people at this site AND younger cfers to do everything to take 100%care of themsleves!!!!!-(as all you women with CF and children have inspired me)-but I'm sick of the negativity, and the high school drama. I'm over it, and am doing bigger and better things with my life that require my attention. So, I will keep you updated-and I give a HUGE thanku to all that helped me with their stories along the way. But I had to get my feelings off my chest. I just thank all the dear souls here for being happy for me-my CF family.<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
Let's keep thinking fertility! We'll start trying soon, we just need to finish a few things first that will take a few months. And we'll see. I have to keep up with Julie! HAH LOL-and Wanderlost!!!
I just want to share one moment with all you-oh man I'm already getting teary remembering it. I came home from the doctors monday night and all my sister in law and MIL were over at the house-(they knew what the appointment was for!)-and I came in, and one of them approached me, asked how it went-and I said'I can get pregnant!'-and she hugged me and then one by one, all 6 surrounded me, hugged me and kissed me and we teared in a group hug. It was a moment I have dreamt of-but never thought would happen. Something out of a movie. And I've always looked at that and thought-wow that must feel so happy. The happiness in a moment like that. And now I got a little peice of the pie for once! I felt like I was outside my body looking at that group of girls with me in the center-is this real? Is this a dream? Everyday I've gone to bed thinking I'm going to wake up and that doctor appointment and the dream will be over. And every day I wake up and its not! And plans are moving ahead. And I'm going to be a mother. My dream.