miscarriage update

Keepercjr · Oct 2, 2007

Looks like things are going as well as they could be. I had my hcg levels drawn friday and monday. Friday they were 700 somethting and yesterday they were 100 something. I have to get them drawn weekly till they're at 0. I'm hopeful that next week they'll be at 0 because I hate having my blood drawn. I have tiny veins and it often takes more than 1 poke. (Its why I have a mediport).

The bleeding is like a normal period so I hope it ends in a few days. Then back to the TTC game. Emotionally I'm doing fine. Not interested in any intimacy though so DH is suffering a little but I hope he understands. Seeing pregnant women around town is a tad bit painful but not too much. Seeing babies doesn't hurt at all. I guess me having a bad feeling about the pregnancy from the beginning helps since maybe I never took it totally seriously. This next one better stick!

Thanks for all the support everyone.

Keepercjr · Oct 2, 2007

Looks like things are going as well as they could be. I had my hcg levels drawn friday and monday. Friday they were 700 somethting and yesterday they were 100 something. I have to get them drawn weekly till they're at 0. I'm hopeful that next week they'll be at 0 because I hate having my blood drawn. I have tiny veins and it often takes more than 1 poke. (Its why I have a mediport).

The bleeding is like a normal period so I hope it ends in a few days. Then back to the TTC game. Emotionally I'm doing fine. Not interested in any intimacy though so DH is suffering a little but I hope he understands. Seeing pregnant women around town is a tad bit painful but not too much. Seeing babies doesn't hurt at all. I guess me having a bad feeling about the pregnancy from the beginning helps since maybe I never took it totally seriously. This next one better stick!

Thanks for all the support everyone.

Keepercjr · Oct 2, 2007

Looks like things are going as well as they could be. I had my hcg levels drawn friday and monday. Friday they were 700 somethting and yesterday they were 100 something. I have to get them drawn weekly till they're at 0. I'm hopeful that next week they'll be at 0 because I hate having my blood drawn. I have tiny veins and it often takes more than 1 poke. (Its why I have a mediport).

The bleeding is like a normal period so I hope it ends in a few days. Then back to the TTC game. Emotionally I'm doing fine. Not interested in any intimacy though so DH is suffering a little but I hope he understands. Seeing pregnant women around town is a tad bit painful but not too much. Seeing babies doesn't hurt at all. I guess me having a bad feeling about the pregnancy from the beginning helps since maybe I never took it totally seriously. This next one better stick!

Thanks for all the support everyone.

Keepercjr · Oct 2, 2007

Looks like things are going as well as they could be. I had my hcg levels drawn friday and monday. Friday they were 700 somethting and yesterday they were 100 something. I have to get them drawn weekly till they're at 0. I'm hopeful that next week they'll be at 0 because I hate having my blood drawn. I have tiny veins and it often takes more than 1 poke. (Its why I have a mediport).

The bleeding is like a normal period so I hope it ends in a few days. Then back to the TTC game. Emotionally I'm doing fine. Not interested in any intimacy though so DH is suffering a little but I hope he understands. Seeing pregnant women around town is a tad bit painful but not too much. Seeing babies doesn't hurt at all. I guess me having a bad feeling about the pregnancy from the beginning helps since maybe I never took it totally seriously. This next one better stick!

Thanks for all the support everyone.

Keepercjr · Oct 2, 2007

Looks like things are going as well as they could be. I had my hcg levels drawn friday and monday. Friday they were 700 somethting and yesterday they were 100 something. I have to get them drawn weekly till they're at 0. I'm hopeful that next week they'll be at 0 because I hate having my blood drawn. I have tiny veins and it often takes more than 1 poke. (Its why I have a mediport).

The bleeding is like a normal period so I hope it ends in a few days. Then back to the TTC game. Emotionally I'm doing fine. Not interested in any intimacy though so DH is suffering a little but I hope he understands. Seeing pregnant women around town is a tad bit painful but not too much. Seeing babies doesn't hurt at all. I guess me having a bad feeling about the pregnancy from the beginning helps since maybe I never took it totally seriously. This next one better stick!

Thanks for all the support everyone.

wanderlost · Oct 3, 2007

Miscarriage is such a weird thing - it really is a death, even if things hadn't properly begun to grow - and for some it's harder than others. I was a lot like you seem to be - interestingly enough though, the day I miscarried is etched in my mind, as was my due date for that pregnancy - and I remember when i was pregnant with Marlee reaching that date and pondering the "what ifs" for a minute. I can't remember what that due date was now - though I can still remember the day I miscarried. Sadly, I think miscarrieg puts all the women who've had them in a certain little club that no one wants to be a member of but only other members can understand how you feel. Hang in there!

Just out of curiosity, why do you have to do a blood draw until you're at 0? With mine they just let me go - but maybe that's because I went from 45 at my first HCg (10 DPO) to 13 two weeks later when I should have been in the thousands.

wanderlost · Oct 3, 2007

Miscarriage is such a weird thing - it really is a death, even if things hadn't properly begun to grow - and for some it's harder than others. I was a lot like you seem to be - interestingly enough though, the day I miscarried is etched in my mind, as was my due date for that pregnancy - and I remember when i was pregnant with Marlee reaching that date and pondering the "what ifs" for a minute. I can't remember what that due date was now - though I can still remember the day I miscarried. Sadly, I think miscarrieg puts all the women who've had them in a certain little club that no one wants to be a member of but only other members can understand how you feel. Hang in there!

Just out of curiosity, why do you have to do a blood draw until you're at 0? With mine they just let me go - but maybe that's because I went from 45 at my first HCg (10 DPO) to 13 two weeks later when I should have been in the thousands.

wanderlost · Oct 3, 2007

Miscarriage is such a weird thing - it really is a death, even if things hadn't properly begun to grow - and for some it's harder than others. I was a lot like you seem to be - interestingly enough though, the day I miscarried is etched in my mind, as was my due date for that pregnancy - and I remember when i was pregnant with Marlee reaching that date and pondering the "what ifs" for a minute. I can't remember what that due date was now - though I can still remember the day I miscarried. Sadly, I think miscarrieg puts all the women who've had them in a certain little club that no one wants to be a member of but only other members can understand how you feel. Hang in there!

Just out of curiosity, why do you have to do a blood draw until you're at 0? With mine they just let me go - but maybe that's because I went from 45 at my first HCg (10 DPO) to 13 two weeks later when I should have been in the thousands.

wanderlost · Oct 3, 2007

Miscarriage is such a weird thing - it really is a death, even if things hadn't properly begun to grow - and for some it's harder than others. I was a lot like you seem to be - interestingly enough though, the day I miscarried is etched in my mind, as was my due date for that pregnancy - and I remember when i was pregnant with Marlee reaching that date and pondering the "what ifs" for a minute. I can't remember what that due date was now - though I can still remember the day I miscarried. Sadly, I think miscarrieg puts all the women who've had them in a certain little club that no one wants to be a member of but only other members can understand how you feel. Hang in there!

Just out of curiosity, why do you have to do a blood draw until you're at 0? With mine they just let me go - but maybe that's because I went from 45 at my first HCg (10 DPO) to 13 two weeks later when I should have been in the thousands.

wanderlost · Oct 3, 2007

Miscarriage is such a weird thing - it really is a death, even if things hadn't properly begun to grow - and for some it's harder than others. I was a lot like you seem to be - interestingly enough though, the day I miscarried is etched in my mind, as was my due date for that pregnancy - and I remember when i was pregnant with Marlee reaching that date and pondering the "what ifs" for a minute. I can't remember what that due date was now - though I can still remember the day I miscarried. Sadly, I think miscarrieg puts all the women who've had them in a certain little club that no one wants to be a member of but only other members can understand how you feel. Hang in there!

Just out of curiosity, why do you have to do a blood draw until you're at 0? With mine they just let me go - but maybe that's because I went from 45 at my first HCg (10 DPO) to 13 two weeks later when I should have been in the thousands.

Keepercjr · Oct 3, 2007

I don't really know why they want to test. I didn't ask but I know it's common procedure among OBs. Maybe because you were so low there wasn't any reason. I think that they like to test to make sure there isn't anything left behind still producing hormones.

Yea I'll never forget miscarrying. It wasn't physically painful or traumatic (for me) but I knew exactly what was going on. But it was actually a relief and I'll tell you why. The day before the actual miscarriage is when I learned the pregnancy wasn't viable. I was terrified that it was going to be a long and painful process. I didn't want to wait a week only to hear the same bad news and I didn't want a procedure. Really the worst day for me was hearing the bad news. The miscarriage in itself was welcome and a relief since I knew it was the beginning of the healing process (physical and mental). Add to that the bad feeling I had since the beginning and I wasn't shocked or surprised at all. I can only hope the next pregnancy doesn't come with bad vibes again. But once I can see the heartbeat I'll relax a lot. And I never thought I'd say it, but I want nausea and fatigue as well. Having no symptoms contributed to the bad feelings.

Right now I'm obsessed (thanks Google) with the physical process of healing after a miscarriage and how and when the body gets back to normal. I'm encouraged to read that many bodies treat a miscarriage like a normal period and get back to normal pretty quickly. Typically I have around 3 weeks till ovulation so that is what I'm counting on (give or take a little due to the circumstances). I started vitex again and upped my vitamin b dose.

Its weird to say but I'm honestly ok <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Keepercjr · Oct 3, 2007

I don't really know why they want to test. I didn't ask but I know it's common procedure among OBs. Maybe because you were so low there wasn't any reason. I think that they like to test to make sure there isn't anything left behind still producing hormones.

Yea I'll never forget miscarrying. It wasn't physically painful or traumatic (for me) but I knew exactly what was going on. But it was actually a relief and I'll tell you why. The day before the actual miscarriage is when I learned the pregnancy wasn't viable. I was terrified that it was going to be a long and painful process. I didn't want to wait a week only to hear the same bad news and I didn't want a procedure. Really the worst day for me was hearing the bad news. The miscarriage in itself was welcome and a relief since I knew it was the beginning of the healing process (physical and mental). Add to that the bad feeling I had since the beginning and I wasn't shocked or surprised at all. I can only hope the next pregnancy doesn't come with bad vibes again. But once I can see the heartbeat I'll relax a lot. And I never thought I'd say it, but I want nausea and fatigue as well. Having no symptoms contributed to the bad feelings.

Right now I'm obsessed (thanks Google) with the physical process of healing after a miscarriage and how and when the body gets back to normal. I'm encouraged to read that many bodies treat a miscarriage like a normal period and get back to normal pretty quickly. Typically I have around 3 weeks till ovulation so that is what I'm counting on (give or take a little due to the circumstances). I started vitex again and upped my vitamin b dose.

Its weird to say but I'm honestly ok <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Keepercjr · Oct 3, 2007

I don't really know why they want to test. I didn't ask but I know it's common procedure among OBs. Maybe because you were so low there wasn't any reason. I think that they like to test to make sure there isn't anything left behind still producing hormones.

Yea I'll never forget miscarrying. It wasn't physically painful or traumatic (for me) but I knew exactly what was going on. But it was actually a relief and I'll tell you why. The day before the actual miscarriage is when I learned the pregnancy wasn't viable. I was terrified that it was going to be a long and painful process. I didn't want to wait a week only to hear the same bad news and I didn't want a procedure. Really the worst day for me was hearing the bad news. The miscarriage in itself was welcome and a relief since I knew it was the beginning of the healing process (physical and mental). Add to that the bad feeling I had since the beginning and I wasn't shocked or surprised at all. I can only hope the next pregnancy doesn't come with bad vibes again. But once I can see the heartbeat I'll relax a lot. And I never thought I'd say it, but I want nausea and fatigue as well. Having no symptoms contributed to the bad feelings.

Right now I'm obsessed (thanks Google) with the physical process of healing after a miscarriage and how and when the body gets back to normal. I'm encouraged to read that many bodies treat a miscarriage like a normal period and get back to normal pretty quickly. Typically I have around 3 weeks till ovulation so that is what I'm counting on (give or take a little due to the circumstances). I started vitex again and upped my vitamin b dose.

Its weird to say but I'm honestly ok <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Keepercjr · Oct 3, 2007

I don't really know why they want to test. I didn't ask but I know it's common procedure among OBs. Maybe because you were so low there wasn't any reason. I think that they like to test to make sure there isn't anything left behind still producing hormones.

Yea I'll never forget miscarrying. It wasn't physically painful or traumatic (for me) but I knew exactly what was going on. But it was actually a relief and I'll tell you why. The day before the actual miscarriage is when I learned the pregnancy wasn't viable. I was terrified that it was going to be a long and painful process. I didn't want to wait a week only to hear the same bad news and I didn't want a procedure. Really the worst day for me was hearing the bad news. The miscarriage in itself was welcome and a relief since I knew it was the beginning of the healing process (physical and mental). Add to that the bad feeling I had since the beginning and I wasn't shocked or surprised at all. I can only hope the next pregnancy doesn't come with bad vibes again. But once I can see the heartbeat I'll relax a lot. And I never thought I'd say it, but I want nausea and fatigue as well. Having no symptoms contributed to the bad feelings.

Right now I'm obsessed (thanks Google) with the physical process of healing after a miscarriage and how and when the body gets back to normal. I'm encouraged to read that many bodies treat a miscarriage like a normal period and get back to normal pretty quickly. Typically I have around 3 weeks till ovulation so that is what I'm counting on (give or take a little due to the circumstances). I started vitex again and upped my vitamin b dose.

Its weird to say but I'm honestly ok <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Keepercjr · Oct 3, 2007

I don't really know why they want to test. I didn't ask but I know it's common procedure among OBs. Maybe because you were so low there wasn't any reason. I think that they like to test to make sure there isn't anything left behind still producing hormones.

Yea I'll never forget miscarrying. It wasn't physically painful or traumatic (for me) but I knew exactly what was going on. But it was actually a relief and I'll tell you why. The day before the actual miscarriage is when I learned the pregnancy wasn't viable. I was terrified that it was going to be a long and painful process. I didn't want to wait a week only to hear the same bad news and I didn't want a procedure. Really the worst day for me was hearing the bad news. The miscarriage in itself was welcome and a relief since I knew it was the beginning of the healing process (physical and mental). Add to that the bad feeling I had since the beginning and I wasn't shocked or surprised at all. I can only hope the next pregnancy doesn't come with bad vibes again. But once I can see the heartbeat I'll relax a lot. And I never thought I'd say it, but I want nausea and fatigue as well. Having no symptoms contributed to the bad feelings.

Right now I'm obsessed (thanks Google) with the physical process of healing after a miscarriage and how and when the body gets back to normal. I'm encouraged to read that many bodies treat a miscarriage like a normal period and get back to normal pretty quickly. Typically I have around 3 weeks till ovulation so that is what I'm counting on (give or take a little due to the circumstances). I started vitex again and upped my vitamin b dose.

Its weird to say but I'm honestly ok <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

MamatoAlexa · Oct 3, 2007