I'm sorry Teri <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> I had a miscarriage before I got pregnant with my daughter. I was 7 weeks when I miscarried. I cried about it for a while but it got easier to accept. And Katie is right - it doesn't mean anything is wrong with you.
When I had the actual miscarriage I had no pain whatsoever. It was a large clot and then a bit heavier than a period. I may have had a blighted ovum. We don't know. I had spotting and went to get an u/s the next day and they didn't see a fetus. I passed the clot later that day. I chart so I knew exactly how far along I was. It was a bit overwhelming thinking about trying to get pregnant again - trying to get pregnant is stressful and I didn't want to have to face any more negative pregnancy tests. But like I said, it got easier to accept. One interesting thing - when I got pregnant with the miscarried baby, all I could think about was twins. All my baby thoughts were twins related. It was very strange. When I got pregnant 2 months later with my daughter, I only had singleton thoughts. I have a feeling that had I not miscarried, I would have had twins. Also interesting, I had bad thoughts about the pregnancy from the time I got my + test. I just knew something was wrong.
Try not to be scared. Miscarriage is a normal part of life. I read a statistic that said something like every woman will experience a miscarriage in her life. Most miscarriages are "late periods" and they never even knew they were pregnant. But for the unfortunate ones like us, we knew about the pregnancy and even let ourselves be excited.
I thought I would be terrified when I got pregnant again - but I wasn't. I felt a lot better once I saw the heart beat and I also had a home doppler that I used once in a while to check in and reassure myself that everything was indeed ok.
If you need to talk more you are welcome to PM me as well. (((Hugs))
