Heather,
Your EJ will be the same little boy whether the sweat test comes back pos. or neg. If he is positive for CF, your heart will break and you will go through so many emotions. I liken it to a death and the steps you go through emotionally...denial, anger, etc. But, one good thing about a positive dx, is... YOU FINALLY KNOW what's wrong with your child. You can give him medicines now that will stop his pain.
My son Hunter wasn't dx, until he was 5 months old. I knew my little guy was in pain, he cried and vomited all the time. But the doc said the same thing everytime I came in upset : "it's just reflux & he'll grow out of it" By the time I got into a specialist, Hunter's organs had started shutting down one by one and he almost died. He was in the NICU for 3 weeks, and the childrens hospital for 2 months. I don't tell you this to scare you but to let you know that he didn't have to go through all this!! Most CFer's don't because they get dx earlier and given enzymes and proper treatment.
Hunter will turn 1 on January 8. Nobody knows that he has CF by looking at him. He's a little small for his age, because of how sick he was when he was little, but other than that he is just like the other babies, except cuter <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-blush.gif" border="0">) I know he will have to go through a lot, but we don't think too far ahead, because we don't know what the future holds, and I found that I miss too much of what I have today when I'm worrying about tomorrow.
Every time I look at Hunter I know that he is a gift, a miracle. He could have been taken from me, past away, at 5 months old in that hospital, but he didn't and I am very greatful that he is here, CF and all. There are still days where I cry, but they are fewer. His meds and treatments have become routine and life feels normal again. I get to focus on his new tooth and his first steps now, and I don't have to wonder "why is crying" and "why won't he sleep" and "what's wrong with my baby" anymore because he is happy and healthy now. Healthy even though he has CF. I have hope for his future. There are new treatments in the final stages of development right now, and we are so excited to see the results.
If you get a neg. result, I will be happy for you and hope you find an answere to EJ's problems. But, if you get a positive result, know that you are not alone and that you will get through this and you have found a support system here.
Feel free to email me w/any questions or if you need to talk.
Take Care & Best of luck
Nedda, mom to Hunter 11 months, dx w/CF, GERD, FTT
greg_n_nedda@msn.com