Hey. The feelings you are feeling are normal. I'm sure that everyone waiting a lung tx has them at some point. Does it help you to talk to anybody? The tx social worker maybe? It won't hurt your chances with being listed or getting your tx or anything, or even your CF social worker.
I would love to talk if you need to. I can listen and I can try and answer questions if you have any. Right now I'm waiting for my second tx so I have been through where you are right now and I'm going through it again. I can definitely relate. I hope I can help!
-Anna