It's wierd. Maggie's health is stable, she's loving school doing well, going to a huge b-day party tomorrow. Sammy's good, had a fever this week better in ONE day, back to school, he's good. I feel so stressed lately. I'm ALWAYS in motion, doing everything for everybody and then some. I only work 12 hours a week; and there I'm taking care of others(I'm a nurse). Doing treatments at home, bills, making healthy(most of the time) dinner, making appointments for the orthodontist, dentist, flu shots, I could ramble on but it will stress me out more. Trying to figure out how we can afford to pay all the d*** co-pays calling drug companies for programs to help us. Then feeling like I need to work more to pay for all the drugs.<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> Usually I CAN handle it all. Last night, I got home from work and had a true anxiety attack. I felt like I may have misunderstood a doctor, and couldn't stop thinking about it. Sort of like obsessing about the situation. My chest felt tight, I think it could be misplaced anxiety. Hopefully, I didn't screw something up. My husband was trying to be helpful but started getting perhaps defensive, saying his job is stressful, making me feel worse. I just feel like a robot; with the treatments, VEST, soccer practice, cleaning, making sure Maggie poops...TOLD YOU THIS WAS a RANT! I guess chronic caretaking can be just as hard as acute caretaking. I try to things for myself, go for a run(if I didn't I'ld go insane) THen I feel guilt because we have been doing well. How could I feel this Way? Any input is apprciated and thanks for listening, hope I didn;t stress you out!