The hardest thing

vickysmommy

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What are some of the most difficult situations everyone has had to deal with in their life because of CF, whether it be being picked on in school, or self esteem issues, ect....
I think the hardest thing that Ive ever had to deal with is the way people treat me when I was in school, mostly High School. I remember they used to say things like "you look sick, do you have aids or somethin" or "your too small" "are you pregnant" Who know how many people though I was pregnant all the time and just didnt ask, I must have looked like such a hoe!
 

anonymous

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I would say the hardest thing for me was having to stop working. I am fortunate to have a husband that can provide financially, praise the Lord, but it is so hard to not contribute financially and get out of the house and be around people! I accomplished college in four years with a marketing degree and worked full time for several years. I found my health decreasing by working so then I started working part time. VERY HARD to find a meaningful part time job on top of the hours that I can work. I can not work early morning cause I need my sleep and do all my meds and then I could only stand about a 5 hour day. Now, I can not even do part time because I do my flutter and Xopenax when I am not on TOBI once during the day for a total of 3 times a day. I have FINALLY come to grips with not working in the corporate world, but it took about 3+ years to come to terms with it along with odd part time jobs that I tried to make work! Now I occupy my time with volunteer work in the community and at my church along with helping my husband with his marketing needs cause he is a home mortgage consultant and does mortgages for people all over the US. It is hard to not be around people much but I am accepting that my health is more important and I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER when I do not have to work,and I can run my own schedule, and I do not have to be around people who are sick! People always come to work sick!!

Jennifer 33yrs old with CF
 

anonymous

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PS, Jennifer again here. It was also very hard to make the decision to not to have children. It is so sad to think I am going to miss out on being a mom. Took about the same 3+ years to come to terms with that too! I still get emotional around friends who have babies!


Jennifer 33yrs old with CF
 

vickysmommy

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Wow, I just got my first full time job, and Im kind of nervous about my health issues too. Im on SSI (disability) now and have been for a few years. Im like you, I wanted to work, because I need something to keep me occupied and I have to contribute to my financial situation cause its not so great these days, especially now that I have a baby. Dont worry about you not being able to contribute cause like you said you have a husband that has a good job, and Im sure he understands. I would just relax and enjoy myself, doing volunteer work is good for just keeping yourself occupied, so its good that you can do that. Have you thought about applying for Disability? Why cant you have children, if it's ok to ask??
 

anonymous

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Jennifer,
I have to ask the same thing as Sarah--have you applied for disability?
If you have work credits in the last 2 years (I think), you could apply for disability. If you haven't worked in the last 2 years and you can claim that you were disabled by SSDI standards back when you quit working full/part time, then you could apply w/ a disability date of about the time you quit working. Of course, you would need medical documentation from the date you are claiming as the disability date to back up your claim.
If you met SSDI disability standards when you quit full time employment, I would use this date as your disabled date, then they would pay you based on your full time salary, instead of the part time one. Hopefully I told you all of this correctly. If I didn't, I'm sure someone w/ a little more knowledge will clarify it.
LJ
 

anonymous

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Well I'm only 17 so havnt had to face issues like working and things. I would say so far the hardest thing regarding my cf is that im really thin and I dont like that. Its since I've got taller, its become more obvious. Im not as thin as I used to be but still thin. Another thing I don't like is talking about having a transplant, because it makes me feel like, gosh am I really THAT bad?! Shamrock<img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
 

jaime

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The thing I hate the most and is the hardest is probably just coughing all the time and the looks I get from strangers. They look at me like they are thinking: "How could you possibly be out in public with a horrible cough like that??? You are going to infect us all!!!"
That drives me nuts, the stares and dirty looks.
 

gabby

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hi my name is sarah and the hardest thing for me was in high school i was made fun of because i was to skinny. and i worked for 2 yrs and now I'm on SSD and SSI.

Sarah 23w/cf
and 2 yr daughter
 

anonymous

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To Vickysmommy and the other post. I have applied for SSI, I think I am going on 3 times now and they TURN ME DOWN!!! I can NOT get accepted, I do not know what the deal is! Maybe cause my PFT's are not that low... I think I am going to try again and if I get turned down again then I am going to appeal. I have never appealed so this time I think I will. To answer the baby question, I have decided that it takes soooo much to take care of myself that my quality of life would for sure take a nose dive if I had children. Maybe that is selfish of me, but I know I would be sick all the time and my lung function would plummet. I am notorious for getting sick when I do not get sleep, so imagine having a child, you never get sleep. My husband is older than me, he is 44 and I am 33 and that would just be too much for him to work full time, take care of me and the baby. Also, what if the baby gets sick, how would I stay away from my own child who needs me. So, we have decided to not have kids and keep me as healthy as possible so I can live a long, QUALITY life.

Thanks for the replies!

Jennifer 33yrs old with CF
 

cfgirl38

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All I can say Jen, is keep fighting the system. Keep appealing thier decision. Someday it will pay off. But it is very frustrating. Their decisions vary so much. My SSI went really smoothly but we have had many discussions on how others have not. Take care.
 

dresapp

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I would say that the hardest time is now for me. Im 23 and I need a lung and liver transplant. I am no longer able to do much of the things i love and it hurts. Also because of my liver disease I have a huge spleen and water retention so I look pregnant and Ive had strangers ask me all the time when im "due". I almost cry when this happens because they look at me like im too young since I do look like im about 15. I realize ppl dont understand I have a disease but it has really tested my self esteem.
 

Emily65Roses

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Just a note to Jennifer... I applied for SS in Sept of 02. I was denied, and we appealed and re-appealed, etc. I finally got approved in Jan of 05, more than two years after we put forth the first claim. So keep going.

The hardest thing for me... hmm. I have to agree with Jaime. I hate those looks too, and not because people think badly of me. I always want to educate them and let them know differently, but if it's just people in passing, and they don't say anything... It makes no sense to talk to them about it. I don't always know whether I should open my mouth and explain it or not.

One of the other things I have a lot of trouble with... is laughing. I can't laugh anymore without it turning into a coughing fit, and that just sucks. It's bad enough we have trouble with all sorts of physical stuff... but to be denied the right to laugh painlessly? That just blows. Laughing is one of the most fun things there is. And I either have to stop myself before I get too far, not able to enjoy a good laugh. Or I enjoy that laugh, and then get a coughing fit, which I do NOT enjoy, not to mention that sometimes I just can't stop myself.

There's a lot more, I'm sure, but that's all I can think of and care to bother writing right now. <img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
 

anonymous

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JENNIFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, Before you apply for SSI again, please email me at division902@hotmail.com. If it hasn't been too long since your last application, you can appeal it and if you win someday, they will owe you backpay for ALL that time. Also, have you ever worked? If so, you might have enough credits to qualify for SSDI as well! My husband and I just won his SSI/SSDI case after 28 months of fighting, appealing and finally having a hearing. The qualificaitons for SSI/SSDI are the same, and one factor can be your PFT's, but my husband is in the 85% and he still qualified, so don't get down because you think yours aren't "low enough".

Here is a link to some very valuable SS information and CF
<a target=new class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.ssa.gov/disability/professionals/bluebook/AdultListings.htm">http://www.ssa.gov/disability/professionals/bluebook/AdultListings.htm</a> Look under 3.00-respiratory, and also 5.00 if you have digestive issues. you DO NOT have to exactly list what the options A,B and C say. For example, in my husbands case, he almost "met" situation C except his lung infections were about every 8 months, not 6 months. But then he had an episode of bronchitis about once a year, and had some digetive issues as well (listed under 5.00) but nothing that "met" the listings there either. When someone evaluates a CF case, they are required to take all things into consideration since it is a disease that can effect so many different things and parts of the body. The judge said that although he didn't meet one single listing in the digestive or respiratory section, he had some issues in both of the categories and the combination of all of them was bad enough to equal one of the listings (if that makes sense) so he ruled in our favor.

and here is a little blurb of what it says about CF, but you should go there yourself and read in depth!
3.04 Cystic fibrosis. With:

A. An FEV1 equal to or less than the appropriate value specified in table IV corresponding to the individual's height without shoes. (In cases of marked spinal deformity, see. 3.00E.);

or

B. Episodes of bronchitis or pneumonia or hemoptysis (more than bloodstreaked sputum) or respiratory failure (documented according to 3.00C, requiring physician intervention, occurring at least once every 2 months or at least six times a year. Each inpatient hospitalization for longer than 24 hours for treatment counts as two episodes, and an evaluation period of at least 12 consecutive months must be used to determine the frequency of episodes;

or

C. Persistent pulmonary infection accompanied by superimposed, recurrent, symptomatic episodes of increased bacterial infection occurring at least once every 6 months and requiring intravenous or nebulization antimicrobial therapy.

The table wouldn't fit on here so you can see it on the website.

Please please email me though, I have a breakdown of my husbands daily activities for like two weeks that really helped our case out (go figure someone who does 1/2-1hr of chest pt, 3 different nebulized meds lasting 30 minutes each and a lot of pills- both in the morning and night, taking up about 4-6 hours of their day, doesn't have time to work a full time job) plus some other information that you might find useful. division902@hotmail.com


Julie (wife to Mark 24 w/CF)
 

JohnnaMarie

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Jennifer:

I totally agree with you about how hard it is to no be around ppl. I recently had to stop working because of my health too. I feel tons better too because I am not around ppl that come to work sick and customers that would come in so sick it was nasty. It is so hard to admit that your health is not as good as it used to be.
 

kwood

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hi my daughter is 9 1/2 months old with cf. I am trying to get SSI for her. This is not easy. We have appealed two times. We are now using a lawyer. Any suggestions?
 

perky79

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I hear a lawyer is the best way to go. Also utilize your doctor, nutritionist, and family. Any one who can put a word in on cf, use them.
 

anonymous

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Why or how would a 9 1/2 month old qualify for SSI? I have an 8 month old. Is this something I should be looking into as well? Is it income based? THanks.
 
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