fondreflections
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Life in general is slowing down yet busy at the same time. That really shouldn't surprise too many of you, though.
I have been back on the birth conrol pill for nearly 2 months already, and I seem to be having some problems...I thought I'd go back on it to have lighter periods since I wouldn't get pregnant, anyway...
Well, I have been spotting almost daily ever since I started. Some days I even need to wear a pantiliner. Most days my breast are so sore that I could scream. The first month on wasn't too bad, but the second month has been worse instead of better. I see my GYN doctor soon so we'll see. My first period on the pill was just as heavy and only 2 days shorter! Rather than change pills, I might just forget about it.
Even Jake commented on nearly the daily spotting. Sex hasn't been fun...
Anyway after the first month on the pill, JAKE APPROACHED ME ABOUT FOSTER/ADOPTING!!! I PLAYED IT COOL FOR A WEEK, CHECKING HIS LEVEL OF SERIOUSNESS. APPARENTLY, HE WAS SERIOUS AND CALLED A COUPLE FOSTER CARE AGENCIES IN THE AREA. MY PHONE STARTED RINGING WITH ALL THESE AGENCIES SHOWING UP ON THE IDS.
I talked to 3 different agencies that day and approached Jake about the whole thing later that evening. <b>He said that he didn't see me taking any action so he took matters into his own hands. </b><i>I replied that I purposly waited because I didn't want to me jerked around again and later hurt.</i>
That turned into a whole conversation which really needed to happen. I said to him that I didn't know what he wanted. He wanted kids, then didn't, then did, then didn't. I told him I was tired of being jerked around and even having surgery to 'find out' the problem for NOTHING!!! I told him how much he made me feel like an AS* when we went to the GYN doctor together AFTER the surgery only to be ADVISED to go on the pill. I LET EVERYTHING FLY AND DIDN'T HOLD BACK.
In the end, he confessed that he's AFRAID of me being pregnant with CF but not of being a Mom. He said that he really wanted to have kids, and this is the BEST WAY to have the BEST OF BOTH WORLDS. His whole FEAR is based on the CF.
After that night, we agreed we would like to fost/adopt. Basically, we will foster a child for a period of 12 months. At the end of the 12 months, we will either be handing the child back to its parents or adopting it. We have since altered our thought and now are looking for either a 1-4-year-old boy or (2) 1-4 year-old sibling boys.
All our paperwork is in, and half is already processed. Our home just passed the homestudy this past Tuesday! We have 3 parenting classes which are August 23, September 6, and September 20. We could have children placed anytime during that period so we could have children within a month! I'm starting to get excited!!!
One way or another, I will be able to have children in my life!!! I am so thankful for that!!! That was all I ever wanted in the first place!!!
I have been back on the birth conrol pill for nearly 2 months already, and I seem to be having some problems...I thought I'd go back on it to have lighter periods since I wouldn't get pregnant, anyway...
Well, I have been spotting almost daily ever since I started. Some days I even need to wear a pantiliner. Most days my breast are so sore that I could scream. The first month on wasn't too bad, but the second month has been worse instead of better. I see my GYN doctor soon so we'll see. My first period on the pill was just as heavy and only 2 days shorter! Rather than change pills, I might just forget about it.
Even Jake commented on nearly the daily spotting. Sex hasn't been fun...
Anyway after the first month on the pill, JAKE APPROACHED ME ABOUT FOSTER/ADOPTING!!! I PLAYED IT COOL FOR A WEEK, CHECKING HIS LEVEL OF SERIOUSNESS. APPARENTLY, HE WAS SERIOUS AND CALLED A COUPLE FOSTER CARE AGENCIES IN THE AREA. MY PHONE STARTED RINGING WITH ALL THESE AGENCIES SHOWING UP ON THE IDS.
I talked to 3 different agencies that day and approached Jake about the whole thing later that evening. <b>He said that he didn't see me taking any action so he took matters into his own hands. </b><i>I replied that I purposly waited because I didn't want to me jerked around again and later hurt.</i>
That turned into a whole conversation which really needed to happen. I said to him that I didn't know what he wanted. He wanted kids, then didn't, then did, then didn't. I told him I was tired of being jerked around and even having surgery to 'find out' the problem for NOTHING!!! I told him how much he made me feel like an AS* when we went to the GYN doctor together AFTER the surgery only to be ADVISED to go on the pill. I LET EVERYTHING FLY AND DIDN'T HOLD BACK.
In the end, he confessed that he's AFRAID of me being pregnant with CF but not of being a Mom. He said that he really wanted to have kids, and this is the BEST WAY to have the BEST OF BOTH WORLDS. His whole FEAR is based on the CF.
After that night, we agreed we would like to fost/adopt. Basically, we will foster a child for a period of 12 months. At the end of the 12 months, we will either be handing the child back to its parents or adopting it. We have since altered our thought and now are looking for either a 1-4-year-old boy or (2) 1-4 year-old sibling boys.
All our paperwork is in, and half is already processed. Our home just passed the homestudy this past Tuesday! We have 3 parenting classes which are August 23, September 6, and September 20. We could have children placed anytime during that period so we could have children within a month! I'm starting to get excited!!!
One way or another, I will be able to have children in my life!!! I am so thankful for that!!! That was all I ever wanted in the first place!!!