Trying for a baby (or #2)

[PedsNP2007]

Warning
This is a vent and is exacerbated by the loss of Ellie who left her husband and 2 young sons...

Ok, I am just posting to try and figure out the thought processes of CF women who are pursuing children (or 2nd/3rd children).

This is not directed towards anyone in particular.

So, what thought processes go into deciding if you are ready for your first child or 2nd child?

Do you think about your pulmonary regimen, your current PFTs, your hospitalization track record, your support, etc

I have a sister with CF who has a 8 month old. She is tired from caring for him full-time and has support on afternoons (after work, my mom or her mom-in-law can come over) and she has some help if needed from her father-in-law who can come over to watch him if she needs extra sleep. And not to mention me, who I can come down on my days off if needed to spend time with him to help her out.

We had been talking about me pursuing a baby. She had talked about that she wants twins. She wants another one at least. I somehow get annoyed how "simple" she is thinking about this. I give kudos for her for having a surrogate carry her child bc her pfts are less than 50% and she already has trouble on her own without a pregnancy to exacerbate the problem. However, when another child (or 2, if twins) comes into play, she is going to have less time for herself. She already gets exhausted from her son and that's ONE baby.

I've noticed some people with PFTs less than 50% attempting pregnancy on their own. I've noticed some people attempting #2 who have talked about getting sick and exhausted from being the sole care giver of their first child (and verbalizing how annoyed they are that they have to get up in the middle of the night to care for their child).

At what point do you have to admit that maybe having a second child may not be the wisest thing in the world?

I understand the desire to have a child. I am trying for a child. My PFTs are well above the minimal cut off range. I have told myself that if I go below 65%, I will NOT pursue pregnancy myself -- I will have a surrogate. I will not risk the chance of more health complications. I go in the hospital 1-2 times per year.

I just think of Ellie who never carried her own children (she adopted) and she still left young children behind. Do people strongly think about this when they consider having children? At what point is the risk exceed the benefit of a child/children??

I am merely curious. I have read posts in the past that have made me wonder why people do what they do... I just am having a hard time with Ellie and the fact that my sister wants a 2nd child and I dread the possibility that could exacerbate her health more.

Thanks, Jenn
31 yo cf

 

[PedsNP2007]

Warning
This is a vent and is exacerbated by the loss of Ellie who left her husband and 2 young sons...

Ok, I am just posting to try and figure out the thought processes of CF women who are pursuing children (or 2nd/3rd children).

This is not directed towards anyone in particular.

So, what thought processes go into deciding if you are ready for your first child or 2nd child?

Do you think about your pulmonary regimen, your current PFTs, your hospitalization track record, your support, etc

I have a sister with CF who has a 8 month old. She is tired from caring for him full-time and has support on afternoons (after work, my mom or her mom-in-law can come over) and she has some help if needed from her father-in-law who can come over to watch him if she needs extra sleep. And not to mention me, who I can come down on my days off if needed to spend time with him to help her out.

We had been talking about me pursuing a baby. She had talked about that she wants twins. She wants another one at least. I somehow get annoyed how "simple" she is thinking about this. I give kudos for her for having a surrogate carry her child bc her pfts are less than 50% and she already has trouble on her own without a pregnancy to exacerbate the problem. However, when another child (or 2, if twins) comes into play, she is going to have less time for herself. She already gets exhausted from her son and that's ONE baby.

I've noticed some people with PFTs less than 50% attempting pregnancy on their own. I've noticed some people attempting #2 who have talked about getting sick and exhausted from being the sole care giver of their first child (and verbalizing how annoyed they are that they have to get up in the middle of the night to care for their child).

At what point do you have to admit that maybe having a second child may not be the wisest thing in the world?

I understand the desire to have a child. I am trying for a child. My PFTs are well above the minimal cut off range. I have told myself that if I go below 65%, I will NOT pursue pregnancy myself -- I will have a surrogate. I will not risk the chance of more health complications. I go in the hospital 1-2 times per year.

I just think of Ellie who never carried her own children (she adopted) and she still left young children behind. Do people strongly think about this when they consider having children? At what point is the risk exceed the benefit of a child/children??

I am merely curious. I have read posts in the past that have made me wonder why people do what they do... I just am having a hard time with Ellie and the fact that my sister wants a 2nd child and I dread the possibility that could exacerbate her health more.

Thanks, Jenn
31 yo cf

 

[PedsNP2007]

Warning
This is a vent and is exacerbated by the loss of Ellie who left her husband and 2 young sons...

Ok, I am just posting to try and figure out the thought processes of CF women who are pursuing children (or 2nd/3rd children).

This is not directed towards anyone in particular.

So, what thought processes go into deciding if you are ready for your first child or 2nd child?

Do you think about your pulmonary regimen, your current PFTs, your hospitalization track record, your support, etc

I have a sister with CF who has a 8 month old. She is tired from caring for him full-time and has support on afternoons (after work, my mom or her mom-in-law can come over) and she has some help if needed from her father-in-law who can come over to watch him if she needs extra sleep. And not to mention me, who I can come down on my days off if needed to spend time with him to help her out.

We had been talking about me pursuing a baby. She had talked about that she wants twins. She wants another one at least. I somehow get annoyed how "simple" she is thinking about this. I give kudos for her for having a surrogate carry her child bc her pfts are less than 50% and she already has trouble on her own without a pregnancy to exacerbate the problem. However, when another child (or 2, if twins) comes into play, she is going to have less time for herself. She already gets exhausted from her son and that's ONE baby.

I've noticed some people with PFTs less than 50% attempting pregnancy on their own. I've noticed some people attempting #2 who have talked about getting sick and exhausted from being the sole care giver of their first child (and verbalizing how annoyed they are that they have to get up in the middle of the night to care for their child).

At what point do you have to admit that maybe having a second child may not be the wisest thing in the world?

I understand the desire to have a child. I am trying for a child. My PFTs are well above the minimal cut off range. I have told myself that if I go below 65%, I will NOT pursue pregnancy myself -- I will have a surrogate. I will not risk the chance of more health complications. I go in the hospital 1-2 times per year.

I just think of Ellie who never carried her own children (she adopted) and she still left young children behind. Do people strongly think about this when they consider having children? At what point is the risk exceed the benefit of a child/children??

I am merely curious. I have read posts in the past that have made me wonder why people do what they do... I just am having a hard time with Ellie and the fact that my sister wants a 2nd child and I dread the possibility that could exacerbate her health more.

Thanks, Jenn
31 yo cf

 

[PedsNP2007]

Warning
This is a vent and is exacerbated by the loss of Ellie who left her husband and 2 young sons...

Ok, I am just posting to try and figure out the thought processes of CF women who are pursuing children (or 2nd/3rd children).

This is not directed towards anyone in particular.

So, what thought processes go into deciding if you are ready for your first child or 2nd child?

Do you think about your pulmonary regimen, your current PFTs, your hospitalization track record, your support, etc

I have a sister with CF who has a 8 month old. She is tired from caring for him full-time and has support on afternoons (after work, my mom or her mom-in-law can come over) and she has some help if needed from her father-in-law who can come over to watch him if she needs extra sleep. And not to mention me, who I can come down on my days off if needed to spend time with him to help her out.

We had been talking about me pursuing a baby. She had talked about that she wants twins. She wants another one at least. I somehow get annoyed how "simple" she is thinking about this. I give kudos for her for having a surrogate carry her child bc her pfts are less than 50% and she already has trouble on her own without a pregnancy to exacerbate the problem. However, when another child (or 2, if twins) comes into play, she is going to have less time for herself. She already gets exhausted from her son and that's ONE baby.

I've noticed some people with PFTs less than 50% attempting pregnancy on their own. I've noticed some people attempting #2 who have talked about getting sick and exhausted from being the sole care giver of their first child (and verbalizing how annoyed they are that they have to get up in the middle of the night to care for their child).

At what point do you have to admit that maybe having a second child may not be the wisest thing in the world?

I understand the desire to have a child. I am trying for a child. My PFTs are well above the minimal cut off range. I have told myself that if I go below 65%, I will NOT pursue pregnancy myself -- I will have a surrogate. I will not risk the chance of more health complications. I go in the hospital 1-2 times per year.

I just think of Ellie who never carried her own children (she adopted) and she still left young children behind. Do people strongly think about this when they consider having children? At what point is the risk exceed the benefit of a child/children??

I am merely curious. I have read posts in the past that have made me wonder why people do what they do... I just am having a hard time with Ellie and the fact that my sister wants a 2nd child and I dread the possibility that could exacerbate her health more.

Thanks, Jenn
31 yo cf

 

[PedsNP2007]

Warning
<br />This is a vent and is exacerbated by the loss of Ellie who left her husband and 2 young sons...
<br />
<br />Ok, I am just posting to try and figure out the thought processes of CF women who are pursuing children (or 2nd/3rd children).
<br />
<br />This is not directed towards anyone in particular.
<br />
<br />So, what thought processes go into deciding if you are ready for your first child or 2nd child?
<br />
<br />Do you think about your pulmonary regimen, your current PFTs, your hospitalization track record, your support, etc
<br />
<br />I have a sister with CF who has a 8 month old. She is tired from caring for him full-time and has support on afternoons (after work, my mom or her mom-in-law can come over) and she has some help if needed from her father-in-law who can come over to watch him if she needs extra sleep. And not to mention me, who I can come down on my days off if needed to spend time with him to help her out.
<br />
<br />We had been talking about me pursuing a baby. She had talked about that she wants twins. She wants another one at least. I somehow get annoyed how "simple" she is thinking about this. I give kudos for her for having a surrogate carry her child bc her pfts are less than 50% and she already has trouble on her own without a pregnancy to exacerbate the problem. However, when another child (or 2, if twins) comes into play, she is going to have less time for herself. She already gets exhausted from her son and that's ONE baby.
<br />
<br />I've noticed some people with PFTs less than 50% attempting pregnancy on their own. I've noticed some people attempting #2 who have talked about getting sick and exhausted from being the sole care giver of their first child (and verbalizing how annoyed they are that they have to get up in the middle of the night to care for their child).
<br />
<br />At what point do you have to admit that maybe having a second child may not be the wisest thing in the world?
<br />
<br />I understand the desire to have a child. I am trying for a child. My PFTs are well above the minimal cut off range. I have told myself that if I go below 65%, I will NOT pursue pregnancy myself -- I will have a surrogate. I will not risk the chance of more health complications. I go in the hospital 1-2 times per year.
<br />
<br />I just think of Ellie who never carried her own children (she adopted) and she still left young children behind. Do people strongly think about this when they consider having children? At what point is the risk exceed the benefit of a child/children??
<br />
<br />I am merely curious. I have read posts in the past that have made me wonder why people do what they do... I just am having a hard time with Ellie and the fact that my sister wants a 2nd child and I dread the possibility that could exacerbate her health more.
<br />
<br />Thanks, Jenn
<br />31 yo cf

 

[rubyroselee]

I really don't have an answer to your question, but that is something that ponders me as well. I recall once when my DW (who is a respiratory therapist) was at work one night. She told me of this young CF woman who came into the hospital. She was very sick. DW assumed she was quite advanced in her CF. Then following behind her came her two young boys. She wondered how such a sick woman could have two kids, that she would likely leave behind some day. And what kind of toll does that take on her kids who may lose their mother?

This is a question we have to face each and every day as an adult with CF. When I was considering having children, the same thoughts passed through my head. What if I died and left my children at a young age? What if they saw me sick and suffering? Is it fair to bring them into this world knowing this?

And then of course the questions about whether or not I should get pregnant and how the pregnancy would affect my health. But once I heard of so many successful moms out there, I knew I could do it.

I guess part of it depends on how much support you have. It sounds like your sister has a LOT of support. And maybe because of that support is why she thinks having children is easy and why she thinks she could handle more. This may not be the situation with your sister, but I have a coworker who would never be able to afford or take care of her kids on her own. It's because of her parents money and babysitting that allows her to continue to have children. To her she thinks kids are easy because she doesn't have to take care of them all day every day. But...if someone has that kind of support and it works, then good!

Sometimes I wish I had more support around. My DW and I work full time and do not have anyone else that watches the kids except for us. We work opposite shifts to make it work. We have zero family around to help us. I am also going to school for my master's. On top of all the everyday things like maintaining a house and taking the kids to classes and doing my own sports/workouts.

But there are so many factors. My health right now does not require a lot. I can do my treatments in two 20-minute sessions. I don't have to think too much about it...and for that I am extremely grateful.

So there are times that I wonder how and why people make the choices they do, but I do not judge. I am not in their shoes and they are not in mine.

Ok, now I'm just rambling...but those are my thoughts anyways.

 

[rubyroselee]

I really don't have an answer to your question, but that is something that ponders me as well. I recall once when my DW (who is a respiratory therapist) was at work one night. She told me of this young CF woman who came into the hospital. She was very sick. DW assumed she was quite advanced in her CF. Then following behind her came her two young boys. She wondered how such a sick woman could have two kids, that she would likely leave behind some day. And what kind of toll does that take on her kids who may lose their mother?

This is a question we have to face each and every day as an adult with CF. When I was considering having children, the same thoughts passed through my head. What if I died and left my children at a young age? What if they saw me sick and suffering? Is it fair to bring them into this world knowing this?

And then of course the questions about whether or not I should get pregnant and how the pregnancy would affect my health. But once I heard of so many successful moms out there, I knew I could do it.

I guess part of it depends on how much support you have. It sounds like your sister has a LOT of support. And maybe because of that support is why she thinks having children is easy and why she thinks she could handle more. This may not be the situation with your sister, but I have a coworker who would never be able to afford or take care of her kids on her own. It's because of her parents money and babysitting that allows her to continue to have children. To her she thinks kids are easy because she doesn't have to take care of them all day every day. But...if someone has that kind of support and it works, then good!

Sometimes I wish I had more support around. My DW and I work full time and do not have anyone else that watches the kids except for us. We work opposite shifts to make it work. We have zero family around to help us. I am also going to school for my master's. On top of all the everyday things like maintaining a house and taking the kids to classes and doing my own sports/workouts.

But there are so many factors. My health right now does not require a lot. I can do my treatments in two 20-minute sessions. I don't have to think too much about it...and for that I am extremely grateful.

So there are times that I wonder how and why people make the choices they do, but I do not judge. I am not in their shoes and they are not in mine.

Ok, now I'm just rambling...but those are my thoughts anyways.

 

[rubyroselee]

I really don't have an answer to your question, but that is something that ponders me as well. I recall once when my DW (who is a respiratory therapist) was at work one night. She told me of this young CF woman who came into the hospital. She was very sick. DW assumed she was quite advanced in her CF. Then following behind her came her two young boys. She wondered how such a sick woman could have two kids, that she would likely leave behind some day. And what kind of toll does that take on her kids who may lose their mother?

This is a question we have to face each and every day as an adult with CF. When I was considering having children, the same thoughts passed through my head. What if I died and left my children at a young age? What if they saw me sick and suffering? Is it fair to bring them into this world knowing this?

And then of course the questions about whether or not I should get pregnant and how the pregnancy would affect my health. But once I heard of so many successful moms out there, I knew I could do it.

I guess part of it depends on how much support you have. It sounds like your sister has a LOT of support. And maybe because of that support is why she thinks having children is easy and why she thinks she could handle more. This may not be the situation with your sister, but I have a coworker who would never be able to afford or take care of her kids on her own. It's because of her parents money and babysitting that allows her to continue to have children. To her she thinks kids are easy because she doesn't have to take care of them all day every day. But...if someone has that kind of support and it works, then good!

Sometimes I wish I had more support around. My DW and I work full time and do not have anyone else that watches the kids except for us. We work opposite shifts to make it work. We have zero family around to help us. I am also going to school for my master's. On top of all the everyday things like maintaining a house and taking the kids to classes and doing my own sports/workouts.

But there are so many factors. My health right now does not require a lot. I can do my treatments in two 20-minute sessions. I don't have to think too much about it...and for that I am extremely grateful.

So there are times that I wonder how and why people make the choices they do, but I do not judge. I am not in their shoes and they are not in mine.

Ok, now I'm just rambling...but those are my thoughts anyways.

 

[rubyroselee]

I really don't have an answer to your question, but that is something that ponders me as well. I recall once when my DW (who is a respiratory therapist) was at work one night. She told me of this young CF woman who came into the hospital. She was very sick. DW assumed she was quite advanced in her CF. Then following behind her came her two young boys. She wondered how such a sick woman could have two kids, that she would likely leave behind some day. And what kind of toll does that take on her kids who may lose their mother?

This is a question we have to face each and every day as an adult with CF. When I was considering having children, the same thoughts passed through my head. What if I died and left my children at a young age? What if they saw me sick and suffering? Is it fair to bring them into this world knowing this?

And then of course the questions about whether or not I should get pregnant and how the pregnancy would affect my health. But once I heard of so many successful moms out there, I knew I could do it.

I guess part of it depends on how much support you have. It sounds like your sister has a LOT of support. And maybe because of that support is why she thinks having children is easy and why she thinks she could handle more. This may not be the situation with your sister, but I have a coworker who would never be able to afford or take care of her kids on her own. It's because of her parents money and babysitting that allows her to continue to have children. To her she thinks kids are easy because she doesn't have to take care of them all day every day. But...if someone has that kind of support and it works, then good!

Sometimes I wish I had more support around. My DW and I work full time and do not have anyone else that watches the kids except for us. We work opposite shifts to make it work. We have zero family around to help us. I am also going to school for my master's. On top of all the everyday things like maintaining a house and taking the kids to classes and doing my own sports/workouts.

But there are so many factors. My health right now does not require a lot. I can do my treatments in two 20-minute sessions. I don't have to think too much about it...and for that I am extremely grateful.

So there are times that I wonder how and why people make the choices they do, but I do not judge. I am not in their shoes and they are not in mine.

Ok, now I'm just rambling...but those are my thoughts anyways.

 

[rubyroselee]

I really don't have an answer to your question, but that is something that ponders me as well. I recall once when my DW (who is a respiratory therapist) was at work one night. She told me of this young CF woman who came into the hospital. She was very sick. DW assumed she was quite advanced in her CF. Then following behind her came her two young boys. She wondered how such a sick woman could have two kids, that she would likely leave behind some day. And what kind of toll does that take on her kids who may lose their mother?
<br />
<br />This is a question we have to face each and every day as an adult with CF. When I was considering having children, the same thoughts passed through my head. What if I died and left my children at a young age? What if they saw me sick and suffering? Is it fair to bring them into this world knowing this?
<br />
<br />And then of course the questions about whether or not I should get pregnant and how the pregnancy would affect my health. But once I heard of so many successful moms out there, I knew I could do it.
<br />
<br />I guess part of it depends on how much support you have. It sounds like your sister has a LOT of support. And maybe because of that support is why she thinks having children is easy and why she thinks she could handle more. This may not be the situation with your sister, but I have a coworker who would never be able to afford or take care of her kids on her own. It's because of her parents money and babysitting that allows her to continue to have children. To her she thinks kids are easy because she doesn't have to take care of them all day every day. But...if someone has that kind of support and it works, then good!
<br />
<br />Sometimes I wish I had more support around. My DW and I work full time and do not have anyone else that watches the kids except for us. We work opposite shifts to make it work. We have zero family around to help us. I am also going to school for my master's. On top of all the everyday things like maintaining a house and taking the kids to classes and doing my own sports/workouts.
<br />
<br />But there are so many factors. My health right now does not require a lot. I can do my treatments in two 20-minute sessions. I don't have to think too much about it...and for that I am extremely grateful.
<br />
<br />So there are times that I wonder how and why people make the choices they do, but I do not judge. I am not in their shoes and they are not in mine.
<br />
<br />Ok, now I'm just rambling...but those are my thoughts anyways.

 

[beleache]

Hey Jenn,

It funny that i gave you my answer before i knew about this post..With my first 2 sons i was much healthier , although had major GI issues (3 gi surgeries before my first son & one after he was born) but during my first pregnancy i felt great gi wise ( i always wondered if the hormones helped in some way with my gi)

Like i said i probably wouldnt have had my last 2 sons if i got dxd a little sooner.. I was 38 y/o w / michael & 41 when i had sean.. I was dxd at 44 y/o.. If i had got dxd before them i most likely wouldnt have because of the odds age wise..
I told my husband earlier today & i mentioned that " i guessed that it was really meant for me to have them" ...

As far as going from one to two (even for healthy ppl) , in my opinion it is a huge difference & something to take into consideration along w/ so many issues that a person w/ health probs should think about..

I guess me having my 4 sons, and never having to make that decision was a blessing in disguise .. I wouldn't fault a person for trying to fulfill a dream & would hope that no one else would either

... Getting tired so dont know if i'm making any sense now lol ..

Take care guys <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

 

[beleache]

Hey Jenn,

It funny that i gave you my answer before i knew about this post..With my first 2 sons i was much healthier , although had major GI issues (3 gi surgeries before my first son & one after he was born) but during my first pregnancy i felt great gi wise ( i always wondered if the hormones helped in some way with my gi)

Like i said i probably wouldnt have had my last 2 sons if i got dxd a little sooner.. I was 38 y/o w / michael & 41 when i had sean.. I was dxd at 44 y/o.. If i had got dxd before them i most likely wouldnt have because of the odds age wise..
I told my husband earlier today & i mentioned that " i guessed that it was really meant for me to have them" ...

As far as going from one to two (even for healthy ppl) , in my opinion it is a huge difference & something to take into consideration along w/ so many issues that a person w/ health probs should think about..

I guess me having my 4 sons, and never having to make that decision was a blessing in disguise .. I wouldn't fault a person for trying to fulfill a dream & would hope that no one else would either

... Getting tired so dont know if i'm making any sense now lol ..

Take care guys <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

 

[beleache]

Hey Jenn,

It funny that i gave you my answer before i knew about this post..With my first 2 sons i was much healthier , although had major GI issues (3 gi surgeries before my first son & one after he was born) but during my first pregnancy i felt great gi wise ( i always wondered if the hormones helped in some way with my gi)

Like i said i probably wouldnt have had my last 2 sons if i got dxd a little sooner.. I was 38 y/o w / michael & 41 when i had sean.. I was dxd at 44 y/o.. If i had got dxd before them i most likely wouldnt have because of the odds age wise..
I told my husband earlier today & i mentioned that " i guessed that it was really meant for me to have them" ...

As far as going from one to two (even for healthy ppl) , in my opinion it is a huge difference & something to take into consideration along w/ so many issues that a person w/ health probs should think about..

I guess me having my 4 sons, and never having to make that decision was a blessing in disguise .. I wouldn't fault a person for trying to fulfill a dream & would hope that no one else would either

... Getting tired so dont know if i'm making any sense now lol ..

Take care guys <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

 

[beleache]

Hey Jenn,

It funny that i gave you my answer before i knew about this post..With my first 2 sons i was much healthier , although had major GI issues (3 gi surgeries before my first son & one after he was born) but during my first pregnancy i felt great gi wise ( i always wondered if the hormones helped in some way with my gi)

Like i said i probably wouldnt have had my last 2 sons if i got dxd a little sooner.. I was 38 y/o w / michael & 41 when i had sean.. I was dxd at 44 y/o.. If i had got dxd before them i most likely wouldnt have because of the odds age wise..
I told my husband earlier today & i mentioned that " i guessed that it was really meant for me to have them" ...

As far as going from one to two (even for healthy ppl) , in my opinion it is a huge difference & something to take into consideration along w/ so many issues that a person w/ health probs should think about..

I guess me having my 4 sons, and never having to make that decision was a blessing in disguise .. I wouldn't fault a person for trying to fulfill a dream & would hope that no one else would either

... Getting tired so dont know if i'm making any sense now lol ..

Take care guys <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

 

[beleache]

Hey Jenn,
<br />
<br /> It funny that i gave you my answer before i knew about this post..With my first 2 sons i was much healthier , although had major GI issues (3 gi surgeries before my first son & one after he was born) but during my first pregnancy i felt great gi wise ( i always wondered if the hormones helped in some way with my gi)
<br />
<br /> Like i said i probably wouldnt have had my last 2 sons if i got dxd a little sooner.. I was 38 y/o w / michael & 41 when i had sean.. I was dxd at 44 y/o.. If i had got dxd before them i most likely wouldnt have because of the odds age wise..
<br />I told my husband earlier today & i mentioned that " i guessed that it was really meant for me to have them" ...
<br />
<br /> As far as going from one to two (even for healthy ppl) , in my opinion it is a huge difference & something to take into consideration along w/ so many issues that a person w/ health probs should think about..
<br />
<br /> I guess me having my 4 sons, and never having to make that decision was a blessing in disguise .. I wouldn't fault a person for trying to fulfill a dream & would hope that no one else would either
<br />
<br /> ... Getting tired so dont know if i'm making any sense now lol ..
<br />
<br /> Take care guys <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

 

[Jeana]

After I adopted Chris, when I waited too long to go into the hospital, I wondered if I did the wrong thing adopting him. My doctor said that he didn't think I had made the wrong decision as long as I was taking the best care of myself as possible--which included coming in a lot sooner when I am sick. I still have a hard time with that, but I am getting better at it.

Before having Alex, my FEV1 was at 80% and things looked hopeful. The troubles I had during my pregnancy (3 hospitalizations and a drop to 46%) made me wonder if I was at the beginning of the end and if my children would be motherless. Sometimes I pondered whether I'd selfishly had kids for myself and didn't consider the consequences hard enough when I made the decision to be a mom. (I did decide that I wouldn't get pregnant again after Alex.)

But even with all that, I think that God blessed me with my children. We were going to adopt an older child and miraculously a situation arose with a brand new baby. We had been unsuccessful at getting pregnant for 13 years and then conceived our little miracle. I have to believe that if I do die before my children are raised that God will create good from it somehow.

 

[Jeana]

After I adopted Chris, when I waited too long to go into the hospital, I wondered if I did the wrong thing adopting him. My doctor said that he didn't think I had made the wrong decision as long as I was taking the best care of myself as possible--which included coming in a lot sooner when I am sick. I still have a hard time with that, but I am getting better at it.

Before having Alex, my FEV1 was at 80% and things looked hopeful. The troubles I had during my pregnancy (3 hospitalizations and a drop to 46%) made me wonder if I was at the beginning of the end and if my children would be motherless. Sometimes I pondered whether I'd selfishly had kids for myself and didn't consider the consequences hard enough when I made the decision to be a mom. (I did decide that I wouldn't get pregnant again after Alex.)

But even with all that, I think that God blessed me with my children. We were going to adopt an older child and miraculously a situation arose with a brand new baby. We had been unsuccessful at getting pregnant for 13 years and then conceived our little miracle. I have to believe that if I do die before my children are raised that God will create good from it somehow.

 

[Jeana]

After I adopted Chris, when I waited too long to go into the hospital, I wondered if I did the wrong thing adopting him. My doctor said that he didn't think I had made the wrong decision as long as I was taking the best care of myself as possible--which included coming in a lot sooner when I am sick. I still have a hard time with that, but I am getting better at it.

Before having Alex, my FEV1 was at 80% and things looked hopeful. The troubles I had during my pregnancy (3 hospitalizations and a drop to 46%) made me wonder if I was at the beginning of the end and if my children would be motherless. Sometimes I pondered whether I'd selfishly had kids for myself and didn't consider the consequences hard enough when I made the decision to be a mom. (I did decide that I wouldn't get pregnant again after Alex.)

But even with all that, I think that God blessed me with my children. We were going to adopt an older child and miraculously a situation arose with a brand new baby. We had been unsuccessful at getting pregnant for 13 years and then conceived our little miracle. I have to believe that if I do die before my children are raised that God will create good from it somehow.

 

[Jeana]

After I adopted Chris, when I waited too long to go into the hospital, I wondered if I did the wrong thing adopting him. My doctor said that he didn't think I had made the wrong decision as long as I was taking the best care of myself as possible--which included coming in a lot sooner when I am sick. I still have a hard time with that, but I am getting better at it.

Before having Alex, my FEV1 was at 80% and things looked hopeful. The troubles I had during my pregnancy (3 hospitalizations and a drop to 46%) made me wonder if I was at the beginning of the end and if my children would be motherless. Sometimes I pondered whether I'd selfishly had kids for myself and didn't consider the consequences hard enough when I made the decision to be a mom. (I did decide that I wouldn't get pregnant again after Alex.)

But even with all that, I think that God blessed me with my children. We were going to adopt an older child and miraculously a situation arose with a brand new baby. We had been unsuccessful at getting pregnant for 13 years and then conceived our little miracle. I have to believe that if I do die before my children are raised that God will create good from it somehow.

 

[Jeana]

After I adopted Chris, when I waited too long to go into the hospital, I wondered if I did the wrong thing adopting him. My doctor said that he didn't think I had made the wrong decision as long as I was taking the best care of myself as possible--which included coming in a lot sooner when I am sick. I still have a hard time with that, but I am getting better at it.
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<br />Before having Alex, my FEV1 was at 80% and things looked hopeful. The troubles I had during my pregnancy (3 hospitalizations and a drop to 46%) made me wonder if I was at the beginning of the end and if my children would be motherless. Sometimes I pondered whether I'd selfishly had kids for myself and didn't consider the consequences hard enough when I made the decision to be a mom. (I did decide that I wouldn't get pregnant again after Alex.)
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<br />But even with all that, I think that God blessed me with my children. We were going to adopt an older child and miraculously a situation arose with a brand new baby. We had been unsuccessful at getting pregnant for 13 years and then conceived our little miracle. I have to believe that if I do die before my children are raised that God will create good from it somehow.