fondreflections
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Friday, September 5th, was already a special day because it was Jake's 27th birthday.
We are also considering buying our FIRST boat together to have lots of fun summer fishing, tubing, and skiing. So yesterday we decided to go to a couple local boat stores to see what they had laying around.
I have been carrying my cell phone on me now 24/7 for the past week just in case I got a 'referral' call from our fost/adopt agency. However, I was pretty much told that we wouldn't have a placement until after September 20th, when our final parenting/certification class was completed. But I have been carrying it around anyway. You NEVER know...
Well, we were inside a store when Jake wanted me to call the one we had just left about a boat that was similar to the one we were now looking at. I realized that I had left the phone in the car so ran out to get it.
When I removed it from the case, I saw that I had one CALL? I quickly listened to the voicemail and sure enough we had a referral.
I ran into Jake all excited and gleaming. It couldn't believe it. I told him that I had to call them back. They didn't leave any specifics in the message.
It was an Emergency Placement (which is why we got the call). The call was for 3 children under the age of 5-years-old. 5-month-old girl, 3-year-old boy, and 4-year-old girl. Our agency gave us a whole briefing about the situation and likeliness of parental rights termination (which wasn't likely). Our agency knew that we were looking for no more than 2 sibling children, but they thought they should call us anyway because the ages were perfect. Plus, we do have enough space.
The social worker told me to discuss it with Jake and call her back.
My head was spinning. You can only begin to imagine all the emotions I was going through. I was overjoyed to FINALLY feel like I MIGHT be a MOM of some sorts, but then reality set in...
How would I do my treatments with 3 kids running/crawling around? It's hard enough for CFers with 1 child yet alone 3!!! How would I hold up?
We could bunk bed the 3-year-old an 4-year-old in the 'approved' bedroom and keep the 5-month-old with us in our bedroom in her own crib...That's allowed. STILL, the children needed a 'home' within a few hours!!! I would have to pick them up and run to stores to get a crib and beds...I would have to get 3 car seats...I HAVE NOTHING...Sure, I could 'muddle' through for 1 night, but I'd have to get clothes Saturday...Saturday, I have parenting classes from 9 to 4. My Mom would have to watch 3 kids that she will have NO CHANCE to meet ahead of time...I can cancel Jake's SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY TONIGHT..These were just some of the thought floating through my mind.
In the end, we had to PASS. I had Jake's check to use to get the emergency items I needed, and also could have moved things around, gladly. However, I couldn't see taking care of myself with 3 CHILDREN UNDER THE AGE OF 5.
I know that I made the right decision, but it wasn't easy. My heart wanted to say 'yes, of course' but my mind was saying "Jenny, there is NO WAY you can keep up." Jake also made the same comments.
We did have his party of 15 people last night. However, as I layed in bed last night my heart was STILL on it. Eventually, I fell to sleep...
We are also considering buying our FIRST boat together to have lots of fun summer fishing, tubing, and skiing. So yesterday we decided to go to a couple local boat stores to see what they had laying around.
I have been carrying my cell phone on me now 24/7 for the past week just in case I got a 'referral' call from our fost/adopt agency. However, I was pretty much told that we wouldn't have a placement until after September 20th, when our final parenting/certification class was completed. But I have been carrying it around anyway. You NEVER know...
Well, we were inside a store when Jake wanted me to call the one we had just left about a boat that was similar to the one we were now looking at. I realized that I had left the phone in the car so ran out to get it.
When I removed it from the case, I saw that I had one CALL? I quickly listened to the voicemail and sure enough we had a referral.
I ran into Jake all excited and gleaming. It couldn't believe it. I told him that I had to call them back. They didn't leave any specifics in the message.
It was an Emergency Placement (which is why we got the call). The call was for 3 children under the age of 5-years-old. 5-month-old girl, 3-year-old boy, and 4-year-old girl. Our agency gave us a whole briefing about the situation and likeliness of parental rights termination (which wasn't likely). Our agency knew that we were looking for no more than 2 sibling children, but they thought they should call us anyway because the ages were perfect. Plus, we do have enough space.
The social worker told me to discuss it with Jake and call her back.
My head was spinning. You can only begin to imagine all the emotions I was going through. I was overjoyed to FINALLY feel like I MIGHT be a MOM of some sorts, but then reality set in...
How would I do my treatments with 3 kids running/crawling around? It's hard enough for CFers with 1 child yet alone 3!!! How would I hold up?
We could bunk bed the 3-year-old an 4-year-old in the 'approved' bedroom and keep the 5-month-old with us in our bedroom in her own crib...That's allowed. STILL, the children needed a 'home' within a few hours!!! I would have to pick them up and run to stores to get a crib and beds...I would have to get 3 car seats...I HAVE NOTHING...Sure, I could 'muddle' through for 1 night, but I'd have to get clothes Saturday...Saturday, I have parenting classes from 9 to 4. My Mom would have to watch 3 kids that she will have NO CHANCE to meet ahead of time...I can cancel Jake's SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY TONIGHT..These were just some of the thought floating through my mind.
In the end, we had to PASS. I had Jake's check to use to get the emergency items I needed, and also could have moved things around, gladly. However, I couldn't see taking care of myself with 3 CHILDREN UNDER THE AGE OF 5.
I know that I made the right decision, but it wasn't easy. My heart wanted to say 'yes, of course' but my mind was saying "Jenny, there is NO WAY you can keep up." Jake also made the same comments.
We did have his party of 15 people last night. However, as I layed in bed last night my heart was STILL on it. Eventually, I fell to sleep...