A poem i wrote...

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Ender

New member
Hey all...

I've been kinda under the radar for a bit...but always lurking...anyways, i wrote this poem for my gf, and i thought i would share it. Don't judge <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I've had issues with substance abuse <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

there will be a time
when all of this washes away...
whether in oil or soap,
thick or clean with emotion

it musters in your brain
like a mini gale force thought
quick in it's formation,
but none the lasting

and you tend to wonder..

these thoughts

are they really yours?

I used think clear
It all used to make sense.
Straight and forward...i saw the end.
Before the temptation.

If i was to say this was my final will,
My final testament, would you believe it?
Doubt I would....
But what if i was serious, and the thoughts of change
became reality...

how surprising, how amazing.

i am so sad, and no one sees it

I smile...and people smile, and in the back of my head
The realization that i am dying...
is there, always.

I do love. Oh how i love.


Honestly, if i was to change, to be a martyr.
who would really notice, except for myself?

does anyone really realize the effort it takes to truly
push the bounderies of fate, of life?

death at 21, life at 27...and so and so it goes

I feel so alone. but really, I am getting ****ing sick of feeling alone

So here goes,
One more drink to you,
One more smoke for myself,
it took me 27 years to realize that I am not dead
and i will not leave you,
i Will not stop fighting for you.
I will not rest, until i am satisfied
that i have done everything
humanly possible
to be with you
forever


so here it goes,
on last drink for you,
one last smoke for me
and the promise
that this is it

my ode to cf

go **** yourself...and find someone else to kill
 
E

Ender

New member
Hey all...

I've been kinda under the radar for a bit...but always lurking...anyways, i wrote this poem for my gf, and i thought i would share it. Don't judge <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I've had issues with substance abuse <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

there will be a time
when all of this washes away...
whether in oil or soap,
thick or clean with emotion

it musters in your brain
like a mini gale force thought
quick in it's formation,
but none the lasting

and you tend to wonder..

these thoughts

are they really yours?

I used think clear
It all used to make sense.
Straight and forward...i saw the end.
Before the temptation.

If i was to say this was my final will,
My final testament, would you believe it?
Doubt I would....
But what if i was serious, and the thoughts of change
became reality...

how surprising, how amazing.

i am so sad, and no one sees it

I smile...and people smile, and in the back of my head
The realization that i am dying...
is there, always.

I do love. Oh how i love.


Honestly, if i was to change, to be a martyr.
who would really notice, except for myself?

does anyone really realize the effort it takes to truly
push the bounderies of fate, of life?

death at 21, life at 27...and so and so it goes

I feel so alone. but really, I am getting ****ing sick of feeling alone

So here goes,
One more drink to you,
One more smoke for myself,
it took me 27 years to realize that I am not dead
and i will not leave you,
i Will not stop fighting for you.
I will not rest, until i am satisfied
that i have done everything
humanly possible
to be with you
forever


so here it goes,
on last drink for you,
one last smoke for me
and the promise
that this is it

my ode to cf

go **** yourself...and find someone else to kill
 
E

Ender

New member
Hey all...
<br />
<br />I've been kinda under the radar for a bit...but always lurking...anyways, i wrote this poem for my gf, and i thought i would share it. Don't judge <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I've had issues with substance abuse <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
<br />
<br />there will be a time
<br />when all of this washes away...
<br />whether in oil or soap,
<br />thick or clean with emotion
<br />
<br />it musters in your brain
<br />like a mini gale force thought
<br />quick in it's formation,
<br />but none the lasting
<br />
<br />and you tend to wonder..
<br />
<br />these thoughts
<br />
<br />are they really yours?
<br />
<br />I used think clear
<br />It all used to make sense.
<br />Straight and forward...i saw the end.
<br />Before the temptation.
<br />
<br />If i was to say this was my final will,
<br />My final testament, would you believe it?
<br />Doubt I would....
<br />But what if i was serious, and the thoughts of change
<br />became reality...
<br />
<br />how surprising, how amazing.
<br />
<br />i am so sad, and no one sees it
<br />
<br />I smile...and people smile, and in the back of my head
<br />The realization that i am dying...
<br />is there, always.
<br />
<br />I do love. Oh how i love.
<br />
<br />
<br />Honestly, if i was to change, to be a martyr.
<br />who would really notice, except for myself?
<br />
<br />does anyone really realize the effort it takes to truly
<br />push the bounderies of fate, of life?
<br />
<br />death at 21, life at 27...and so and so it goes
<br />
<br />I feel so alone. but really, I am getting ****ing sick of feeling alone
<br />
<br />So here goes,
<br />One more drink to you,
<br />One more smoke for myself,
<br />it took me 27 years to realize that I am not dead
<br />and i will not leave you,
<br />i Will not stop fighting for you.
<br />I will not rest, until i am satisfied
<br />that i have done everything
<br />humanly possible
<br />to be with you
<br />forever
<br />
<br />
<br />so here it goes,
<br />on last drink for you,
<br />one last smoke for me
<br />and the promise
<br />that this is it
<br />
<br />my ode to cf
<br />
<br />go **** yourself...and find someone else to kill
 
J

Jane

Digital opinion leader
Nice to see you still around K.

I love this line...

"it took me 27 years to realize that I am not dead"
 
J

Jane

Digital opinion leader
Nice to see you still around K.

I love this line...

"it took me 27 years to realize that I am not dead"
 
J

Jane

Digital opinion leader
Nice to see you still around K.
<br />
<br />I love this line...
<br />
<br />"it took me 27 years to realize that I am not dead"
 
B

beleache

New member
Hey K,

Good to hear from you.. No judging here .. I really enjoyed your poem.

Thanks for sharing with us. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni
 
B

beleache

New member
Hey K,

Good to hear from you.. No judging here .. I really enjoyed your poem.

Thanks for sharing with us. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni
 
B

beleache

New member
Hey K,
<br />
<br /> Good to hear from you.. No judging here .. I really enjoyed your poem.
<br />
<br /> Thanks for sharing with us. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni
 
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