Anxiety--UPDATED

[MCGrad2006]

<b>UPDATE: Thanks again guys! The last few days have been better, but its really bad in the morning, which is weird. Like I am afraid until Matt leaves and then I am fine. But yet, my fear is being alone, so that doesn't really make sense to me.

I did go in and see the social worker at my CF clinic the other day and she said I seem to be handling it better than she expected. I talked about how I try to spread my chores out over the whole week and I try to go out a little bit each day even for small errands. For example, this week, on Monday I did the laundry, but just the clothes, then went grocery shopping. Tuesday I went to the park with my future SIL. Wed, I went to the clinic, Thursday I did more laundry, the sheets and towels, then went looking for wedding gifts (and more grocery shopping). I have found that if I spread things out like that, even though it seems to take longer to do the tasks, I am less anxious because I am busy.

My social worker is looking into therapists in my area so hopefully I will have one some time next week, at least to start. Even if my anxiety is better, I want to have my 'ducks in a row' so that when the anxiety comes back, I have something in place.

Thanks again for all of your advice, I sincerely appreciate it!</b>

Original post:
This summer has been especially hard for me, for many reasons. First off, I was quite sick in the beginning and had some panic attacks and anxiety. It got better as my health improved. The last few weeks have been great but then Friday it got bad again. I had a job interview and had my hopes all up, but the woman stressed that I should keep looking and that she will not know for a few weeks.

Then I went back to my apartment and was all anxious and nervous being alone. I hate being left alone and I hate that I don't have any motivation. I have no reason to feel this way and I am angry with myself for being like this. I have been talking with my CF social worker and she suggested getting in touch with a counselor...which I am looking into. I hesitated to write this because I feel like its more real if its written down, but I know there has to be some of you out there who feel this way.

Please let me know what you do and how you deal...and that I am not alone.

 

[MCGrad2006]

<b>UPDATE: Thanks again guys! The last few days have been better, but its really bad in the morning, which is weird. Like I am afraid until Matt leaves and then I am fine. But yet, my fear is being alone, so that doesn't really make sense to me.

I did go in and see the social worker at my CF clinic the other day and she said I seem to be handling it better than she expected. I talked about how I try to spread my chores out over the whole week and I try to go out a little bit each day even for small errands. For example, this week, on Monday I did the laundry, but just the clothes, then went grocery shopping. Tuesday I went to the park with my future SIL. Wed, I went to the clinic, Thursday I did more laundry, the sheets and towels, then went looking for wedding gifts (and more grocery shopping). I have found that if I spread things out like that, even though it seems to take longer to do the tasks, I am less anxious because I am busy.

My social worker is looking into therapists in my area so hopefully I will have one some time next week, at least to start. Even if my anxiety is better, I want to have my 'ducks in a row' so that when the anxiety comes back, I have something in place.

Thanks again for all of your advice, I sincerely appreciate it!</b>

Original post:
This summer has been especially hard for me, for many reasons. First off, I was quite sick in the beginning and had some panic attacks and anxiety. It got better as my health improved. The last few weeks have been great but then Friday it got bad again. I had a job interview and had my hopes all up, but the woman stressed that I should keep looking and that she will not know for a few weeks.

Then I went back to my apartment and was all anxious and nervous being alone. I hate being left alone and I hate that I don't have any motivation. I have no reason to feel this way and I am angry with myself for being like this. I have been talking with my CF social worker and she suggested getting in touch with a counselor...which I am looking into. I hesitated to write this because I feel like its more real if its written down, but I know there has to be some of you out there who feel this way.

Please let me know what you do and how you deal...and that I am not alone.

 

[MCGrad2006]

<b>UPDATE: Thanks again guys! The last few days have been better, but its really bad in the morning, which is weird. Like I am afraid until Matt leaves and then I am fine. But yet, my fear is being alone, so that doesn't really make sense to me.
<br />
<br />I did go in and see the social worker at my CF clinic the other day and she said I seem to be handling it better than she expected. I talked about how I try to spread my chores out over the whole week and I try to go out a little bit each day even for small errands. For example, this week, on Monday I did the laundry, but just the clothes, then went grocery shopping. Tuesday I went to the park with my future SIL. Wed, I went to the clinic, Thursday I did more laundry, the sheets and towels, then went looking for wedding gifts (and more grocery shopping). I have found that if I spread things out like that, even though it seems to take longer to do the tasks, I am less anxious because I am busy.
<br />
<br />My social worker is looking into therapists in my area so hopefully I will have one some time next week, at least to start. Even if my anxiety is better, I want to have my 'ducks in a row' so that when the anxiety comes back, I have something in place.
<br />
<br />Thanks again for all of your advice, I sincerely appreciate it!</b>
<br />
<br />Original post:
<br />This summer has been especially hard for me, for many reasons. First off, I was quite sick in the beginning and had some panic attacks and anxiety. It got better as my health improved. The last few weeks have been great but then Friday it got bad again. I had a job interview and had my hopes all up, but the woman stressed that I should keep looking and that she will not know for a few weeks.
<br />
<br />Then I went back to my apartment and was all anxious and nervous being alone. I hate being left alone and I hate that I don't have any motivation. I have no reason to feel this way and I am angry with myself for being like this. I have been talking with my CF social worker and she suggested getting in touch with a counselor...which I am looking into. I hesitated to write this because I feel like its more real if its written down, but I know there has to be some of you out there who feel this way.
<br />
<br />Please let me know what you do and how you deal...and that I am not alone.

 

[mag6125]

Anxiety

I definitely know how you feel with the anxiety and hating to be alone. I've been that way off and on for about 3 years and it never got really bad until a few months ago. I started having major panic attacks so I finally talked to my doctor about it. She prescribed Buspar for anti-anxiety and it has made such a huge difference! I've been going through a lot of stressful things lately and last week they had to increase my dose but I'm back to feeling good again. You are definitely not alone and I know its horrible to feel miserable all the time. I'd suggest talking to your doctor about trying a medication. Hopefully you have as much luck with it as I have!

 

[mag6125]

Anxiety

I definitely know how you feel with the anxiety and hating to be alone. I've been that way off and on for about 3 years and it never got really bad until a few months ago. I started having major panic attacks so I finally talked to my doctor about it. She prescribed Buspar for anti-anxiety and it has made such a huge difference! I've been going through a lot of stressful things lately and last week they had to increase my dose but I'm back to feeling good again. You are definitely not alone and I know its horrible to feel miserable all the time. I'd suggest talking to your doctor about trying a medication. Hopefully you have as much luck with it as I have!

 

[mag6125]

Anxiety

I definitely know how you feel with the anxiety and hating to be alone. I've been that way off and on for about 3 years and it never got really bad until a few months ago. I started having major panic attacks so I finally talked to my doctor about it. She prescribed Buspar for anti-anxiety and it has made such a huge difference! I've been going through a lot of stressful things lately and last week they had to increase my dose but I'm back to feeling good again. You are definitely not alone and I know its horrible to feel miserable all the time. I'd suggest talking to your doctor about trying a medication. Hopefully you have as much luck with it as I have!

 

[mamerth]

Anxiety

I started getting panic/anxiety attack during my last tune up. Being stuck in a hospital room by myself for hours at a time sent me reeling.

I now get them several times a week. I try to do some deep breathing and meditation and it seems to help. I refuse to take medication for it.

Sometimes I tell my husband when I am in a panic or feeling anxious and he will sit with me (or talk to me on the phone) and I start to feel better quickly.

I think the disease leaves us feeling all alone a lot. We have lots of our plates. I think the average person would have anxiety if they had to deal with all that we do.

 

[mamerth]

Anxiety

I started getting panic/anxiety attack during my last tune up. Being stuck in a hospital room by myself for hours at a time sent me reeling.

I now get them several times a week. I try to do some deep breathing and meditation and it seems to help. I refuse to take medication for it.

Sometimes I tell my husband when I am in a panic or feeling anxious and he will sit with me (or talk to me on the phone) and I start to feel better quickly.

I think the disease leaves us feeling all alone a lot. We have lots of our plates. I think the average person would have anxiety if they had to deal with all that we do.

 

[mamerth]

Anxiety

I started getting panic/anxiety attack during my last tune up. Being stuck in a hospital room by myself for hours at a time sent me reeling.
<br />
<br />I now get them several times a week. I try to do some deep breathing and meditation and it seems to help. I refuse to take medication for it.
<br />
<br />Sometimes I tell my husband when I am in a panic or feeling anxious and he will sit with me (or talk to me on the phone) and I start to feel better quickly.
<br />
<br />I think the disease leaves us feeling all alone a lot. We have lots of our plates. I think the average person would have anxiety if they had to deal with all that we do.

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Anxiety

Caitlin, I'm so sorry you are dealin with anxiety. I have a pretty severe anxiety disorder, and it's very difficult to deal with. I understand the being mad at yourself thing. I get mad about it too. Sometimes I think that's a defense mechanism. Mad is a much easier emotion to feel than fear.

It's especially hard if you are normally very logical, because there's nothing logical about anxiety. You know that nothing is wrong, yet everything feels wrong. I've been dealing with it for so long now, that I can talk myself down; if that makes sense. In the beginning, though, I was terrified. I even went to the ER once. I was having a full-blown panick attack with the shortness of breath, and heart palpitations, etc. No fun!

I do a lot of different things when I'm feeling anxious. All of them have to do with focusing on a task, and trying to ignore that I'm afraid/anxious. If I'm driving, I'll turn up the music really loud & sing along. Sometimes I pull over, get out & walk around a bit if I'm at a place where I can do that. Sometimes I just call my husband, and tell him I need him to talk to me. I'll say "I'm having a stupid anxiety attack", and we'll talk about how frustrating it is, and that turns the focus just enough to make it stop.

I read a lot. I find that if I keep my mind busy, the attacks don't come as often. I write in a journal. Sometimes it helps to write down how I'm feeling during an attack. Just having anything to focus on besides being afraid helps some. When I had health ins, I was on Lexapro. It helped a lot after I got past experiencing almost every side effect there is. When I lost my health ins, I had to let that go, and I'm hoping to get back on it soon. You might ask your doc about an anti-depressant type med. The fast acting meds like xanax and valium are okay, but they don't fix the cause, and I started having anxiety over taken them. That really defeated their purpose.

I hope you get some relief soon. I know how awful it feels to feel so out of control. If you need to talk, PM me.

Stacey

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Anxiety

Caitlin, I'm so sorry you are dealin with anxiety. I have a pretty severe anxiety disorder, and it's very difficult to deal with. I understand the being mad at yourself thing. I get mad about it too. Sometimes I think that's a defense mechanism. Mad is a much easier emotion to feel than fear.

It's especially hard if you are normally very logical, because there's nothing logical about anxiety. You know that nothing is wrong, yet everything feels wrong. I've been dealing with it for so long now, that I can talk myself down; if that makes sense. In the beginning, though, I was terrified. I even went to the ER once. I was having a full-blown panick attack with the shortness of breath, and heart palpitations, etc. No fun!

I do a lot of different things when I'm feeling anxious. All of them have to do with focusing on a task, and trying to ignore that I'm afraid/anxious. If I'm driving, I'll turn up the music really loud & sing along. Sometimes I pull over, get out & walk around a bit if I'm at a place where I can do that. Sometimes I just call my husband, and tell him I need him to talk to me. I'll say "I'm having a stupid anxiety attack", and we'll talk about how frustrating it is, and that turns the focus just enough to make it stop.

I read a lot. I find that if I keep my mind busy, the attacks don't come as often. I write in a journal. Sometimes it helps to write down how I'm feeling during an attack. Just having anything to focus on besides being afraid helps some. When I had health ins, I was on Lexapro. It helped a lot after I got past experiencing almost every side effect there is. When I lost my health ins, I had to let that go, and I'm hoping to get back on it soon. You might ask your doc about an anti-depressant type med. The fast acting meds like xanax and valium are okay, but they don't fix the cause, and I started having anxiety over taken them. That really defeated their purpose.

I hope you get some relief soon. I know how awful it feels to feel so out of control. If you need to talk, PM me.

Stacey

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Anxiety

Caitlin, I'm so sorry you are dealin with anxiety. I have a pretty severe anxiety disorder, and it's very difficult to deal with. I understand the being mad at yourself thing. I get mad about it too. Sometimes I think that's a defense mechanism. Mad is a much easier emotion to feel than fear.
<br />
<br />It's especially hard if you are normally very logical, because there's nothing logical about anxiety. You know that nothing is wrong, yet everything feels wrong. I've been dealing with it for so long now, that I can talk myself down; if that makes sense. In the beginning, though, I was terrified. I even went to the ER once. I was having a full-blown panick attack with the shortness of breath, and heart palpitations, etc. No fun!
<br />
<br />I do a lot of different things when I'm feeling anxious. All of them have to do with focusing on a task, and trying to ignore that I'm afraid/anxious. If I'm driving, I'll turn up the music really loud & sing along. Sometimes I pull over, get out & walk around a bit if I'm at a place where I can do that. Sometimes I just call my husband, and tell him I need him to talk to me. I'll say "I'm having a stupid anxiety attack", and we'll talk about how frustrating it is, and that turns the focus just enough to make it stop.
<br />
<br />I read a lot. I find that if I keep my mind busy, the attacks don't come as often. I write in a journal. Sometimes it helps to write down how I'm feeling during an attack. Just having anything to focus on besides being afraid helps some. When I had health ins, I was on Lexapro. It helped a lot after I got past experiencing almost every side effect there is. When I lost my health ins, I had to let that go, and I'm hoping to get back on it soon. You might ask your doc about an anti-depressant type med. The fast acting meds like xanax and valium are okay, but they don't fix the cause, and I started having anxiety over taken them. That really defeated their purpose.
<br />
<br />I hope you get some relief soon. I know how awful it feels to feel so out of control. If you need to talk, PM me.
<br />
<br />Stacey

 

[nmw615]

Anxiety

Caitlin, I certainly know what you're talking about.

Three years ago I started feeling what you are, but didn't tell anyone for two years, until it turned into depression and my family and friends started noticing. I now go see a counselor every couple of weeks, or I start to go back towards where I was.

I also really got into writing. I usually carry a couple notebooks with me all the time. I typically don't write about me, but the character I molded after myself. I find that writing what I wanted to happen, even if it was the "fake me" that it was happening to, helps me a lot. I even take 2 hours a week to go to my local Panera or Starbucks and just write without interruption.

I really hope you find the relief that you're looking for, and soon.

 

[nmw615]

Anxiety

Caitlin, I certainly know what you're talking about.

Three years ago I started feeling what you are, but didn't tell anyone for two years, until it turned into depression and my family and friends started noticing. I now go see a counselor every couple of weeks, or I start to go back towards where I was.

I also really got into writing. I usually carry a couple notebooks with me all the time. I typically don't write about me, but the character I molded after myself. I find that writing what I wanted to happen, even if it was the "fake me" that it was happening to, helps me a lot. I even take 2 hours a week to go to my local Panera or Starbucks and just write without interruption.

I really hope you find the relief that you're looking for, and soon.

 

[nmw615]

Anxiety

Caitlin, I certainly know what you're talking about.
<br />
<br />Three years ago I started feeling what you are, but didn't tell anyone for two years, until it turned into depression and my family and friends started noticing. I now go see a counselor every couple of weeks, or I start to go back towards where I was.
<br />
<br />I also really got into writing. I usually carry a couple notebooks with me all the time. I typically don't write about me, but the character I molded after myself. I find that writing what I wanted to happen, even if it was the "fake me" that it was happening to, helps me a lot. I even take 2 hours a week to go to my local Panera or Starbucks and just write without interruption.
<br />
<br />I really hope you find the relief that you're looking for, and soon.

 

[mom2lillian]

Anxiety

I hear you. I too am very logical and I KNOW I have a great life and should be thankful so lately when the anxiety is 'carrying me away' and I find myself not being able to enjoy something, whatever it is I get so upset.

I have decided to go back on lexapro which worked well for me at just 'taking the edge off'.

For me if I am eating right, excercising, house is clean, everything is going good I can manage but its when thigns get a little lopsided in some arena of my life I just end up making myself and my poor husband miserable. For now, I think I need the help.

 

[mom2lillian]

Anxiety

I hear you. I too am very logical and I KNOW I have a great life and should be thankful so lately when the anxiety is 'carrying me away' and I find myself not being able to enjoy something, whatever it is I get so upset.

I have decided to go back on lexapro which worked well for me at just 'taking the edge off'.

For me if I am eating right, excercising, house is clean, everything is going good I can manage but its when thigns get a little lopsided in some arena of my life I just end up making myself and my poor husband miserable. For now, I think I need the help.

 

[mom2lillian]

Anxiety

I hear you. I too am very logical and I KNOW I have a great life and should be thankful so lately when the anxiety is 'carrying me away' and I find myself not being able to enjoy something, whatever it is I get so upset.
<br />
<br />I have decided to go back on lexapro which worked well for me at just 'taking the edge off'.
<br />
<br />For me if I am eating right, excercising, house is clean, everything is going good I can manage but its when thigns get a little lopsided in some arena of my life I just end up making myself and my poor husband miserable. For now, I think I need the help.

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Anxiety

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>mom2lillian</b></i>

For me if I am eating right, excercising, house is clean, everything is going good I can manage but its when thigns get a little lopsided in some arena of my life I just end up making myself and my poor husband miserable. For now, I think I need the help.</end quote></div>

Nicole, I feel so sorry for my husband. I know I'm a lot to deal with when I'm going through these "episodes". David just takes me in stride, though. Holds me when I need it, and says over and over "It's okay, Baby." He is such a gift.

Stacey

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Anxiety

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>mom2lillian</b></i>

For me if I am eating right, excercising, house is clean, everything is going good I can manage but its when thigns get a little lopsided in some arena of my life I just end up making myself and my poor husband miserable. For now, I think I need the help.</end quote>

Nicole, I feel so sorry for my husband. I know I'm a lot to deal with when I'm going through these "episodes". David just takes me in stride, though. Holds me when I need it, and says over and over "It's okay, Baby." He is such a gift.

Stacey