We have our appointment at the CF clinic on Monday. I am starting to play tricks with my own mind and am so tempted not to go at all! We have been through years of searching for Owen's diagnosis and we have been failed so many times, I am pretty much counting on it happening again Monday. I dread going to another new doctor and having them say what it's NOT and not telling us how to help Owen.
Plus, besides a tube stoma infection, he has been doing really well for a couple of weeks. No bloody noses, minimal cough. His blood sugars have been high again and he sweats tons but otherwise he has been doing really well so I keep telling myself we are making too big a deal of it all and we should just stay home.
I guess I need some encouragement and a reminder that failure to thrive without Creon and a g-tube are not normal, even if it is to us. And that his sinus infections and nose bleeds as well as "asthma" and pneumonia are not normal. Even typing it helps but I still just know those things as normal for us. I have lost all my perspective.
Are we doing the right thing by going to the CF clinic? What will I do if they send us away because of his sweat chlorides only being in the 30's and no known mutations on the panel Mayo did? I feel like a crazy woman wanting her kid to be sick, which is sooooo far from the truth. I just want to be able to call it something and most importantly to treat it! But I have lost faith in the system and am not even close to being convinced that we will get help.
Thanks. I am glad to just get it out of my head and will just keep taking each step as it comes.
Plus, besides a tube stoma infection, he has been doing really well for a couple of weeks. No bloody noses, minimal cough. His blood sugars have been high again and he sweats tons but otherwise he has been doing really well so I keep telling myself we are making too big a deal of it all and we should just stay home.
I guess I need some encouragement and a reminder that failure to thrive without Creon and a g-tube are not normal, even if it is to us. And that his sinus infections and nose bleeds as well as "asthma" and pneumonia are not normal. Even typing it helps but I still just know those things as normal for us. I have lost all my perspective.
Are we doing the right thing by going to the CF clinic? What will I do if they send us away because of his sweat chlorides only being in the 30's and no known mutations on the panel Mayo did? I feel like a crazy woman wanting her kid to be sick, which is sooooo far from the truth. I just want to be able to call it something and most importantly to treat it! But I have lost faith in the system and am not even close to being convinced that we will get help.
Thanks. I am glad to just get it out of my head and will just keep taking each step as it comes.