I had a lot of CF friends as a kid. We were allowed to room together back then so the bonds really developed. All of the friends I made passed except for one whom I grew fond of his mother/brother because they did our treatments. This patient is still living, but I never really grew close to him. I didnt think much of it as far as it affecting me and my CF. I missed them terribly and until I found this site I had no reason to open up to another CFer again. It is very painful when you have the loss. There is a connection that many CFers have with each other. I guess its just from the issues that we often share. I have lost other friends that dont have CF and the pain is no different really. I guess its worse with a CFer if you worry about you being next......