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Beckman
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Forgive my grammar and punctuation, as i am under much stress while i type this.
Ok, so earlier this month i was not doing well health wise, I'm 17, dreadfully underweight, and in need of 5-6 liters of liquid oxygen(OXYGEN) throughout the day,with Cpap at night, my breathing was very shallow and i could i not move anywhere at all without feeling VERY winded, even eating meals would wear me out. So then my breathing got so bad, i needed to be rushed in by ambulance where it took me a day to stabilize, and then a further 13 days on rounds of iv antibiotics.
By the end of the of the two weeks my mom wanted me out and back at home as she thought she could care for me better there, But i felt that my body was still in recovery mode and i wanted to stay there at least another 1-2 weeks or until my body was in better shape. But she fought me and insisted to the doctors that i be brought back home.
So here i am back at home, still on lots oxygen, very weak and winded. I feel like i lost whatever progress i gained in the hospital, as my health is back to its frail state, and just from walking to bathroom(BATHROOM), i felt like i was going to pass out and die... Much anxiety, I feel like im living in between life and death every day here and I'm unable to enjoy myself. Right now I'm conflicted. because i know my mom would rather have me here where she can look after me better and my other three siblings. As much as i would love to be home and close to family and pets, I feel my health is a much higher piority at this point, and i need to be back in the hospital asap
Am i making the right decision?
Ok, so earlier this month i was not doing well health wise, I'm 17, dreadfully underweight, and in need of 5-6 liters of liquid oxygen(OXYGEN) throughout the day,with Cpap at night, my breathing was very shallow and i could i not move anywhere at all without feeling VERY winded, even eating meals would wear me out. So then my breathing got so bad, i needed to be rushed in by ambulance where it took me a day to stabilize, and then a further 13 days on rounds of iv antibiotics.
By the end of the of the two weeks my mom wanted me out and back at home as she thought she could care for me better there, But i felt that my body was still in recovery mode and i wanted to stay there at least another 1-2 weeks or until my body was in better shape. But she fought me and insisted to the doctors that i be brought back home.
So here i am back at home, still on lots oxygen, very weak and winded. I feel like i lost whatever progress i gained in the hospital, as my health is back to its frail state, and just from walking to bathroom(BATHROOM), i felt like i was going to pass out and die... Much anxiety, I feel like im living in between life and death every day here and I'm unable to enjoy myself. Right now I'm conflicted. because i know my mom would rather have me here where she can look after me better and my other three siblings. As much as i would love to be home and close to family and pets, I feel my health is a much higher piority at this point, and i need to be back in the hospital asap
Am i making the right decision?