Your right Amy attacking a mother, sucks, but its something u do so freely on this site. U want to hold your mother on this high pedestal, and i'm sure she is a great mother. But no mother is perfect. There is no proven textbook on motherhood just like there isn't one on CF, because each situation is different. So your right it's not your mother's "fault", if u didn't get it from that u would have probably got it from somewhere else. No one on this forumn knows everything or they would not be here, nor would this forumn need to exist.
And as to me being new to this "game", i'm not sure what "game" your talking about. Thinking your CF is a "game" is really sad. We are talking about life here.