ErinsMommy
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Well...
I slept at the hosptial with Erin last night. I wanted to be there when the surgeons got there in the morning. They got there about 7:00 and they told me that Erin's test results came back and she has tested positive for cystic fibrosis.
I mean... I already knew that she had it. All signs pointed to "yes" and her doctors said they were 98% sure that she had CF with everything that she's been going through. So... basically they just confirmed what I already knew. But it still hurts.
I know that I am not the only one here that has gone through this, or even that might be going through this right now. But I can't even begin to explain how sad I am today. I dreaded this day and after they told me the news... all I could do was look at her... and apologize. I know that it's not my fault that her father and I carry the gene... but for some reason, I still feel guilty. I wish that I could take the disease for her. I honestly wish that <i>I</i> could have CF and NOT my precious baby.
I'm sorry... I'm just venting. I'm completely miserable right now and I have no idea where to go from here.
-Lindsay
I slept at the hosptial with Erin last night. I wanted to be there when the surgeons got there in the morning. They got there about 7:00 and they told me that Erin's test results came back and she has tested positive for cystic fibrosis.
I mean... I already knew that she had it. All signs pointed to "yes" and her doctors said they were 98% sure that she had CF with everything that she's been going through. So... basically they just confirmed what I already knew. But it still hurts.
I know that I am not the only one here that has gone through this, or even that might be going through this right now. But I can't even begin to explain how sad I am today. I dreaded this day and after they told me the news... all I could do was look at her... and apologize. I know that it's not my fault that her father and I carry the gene... but for some reason, I still feel guilty. I wish that I could take the disease for her. I honestly wish that <i>I</i> could have CF and NOT my precious baby.
I'm sorry... I'm just venting. I'm completely miserable right now and I have no idea where to go from here.
-Lindsay