<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote>i feel like i'm falling more in love with him every day. which is hard</end quote></div>
I know how that feels, and I'm so sorry you're having to through all this, no one should ever have to. There aren't words for the pain CF can cause.
If there is any comfort to be had foryou right now, rest in the fact that he loved you dearly, and always will. You meant the world to him, so few people can stick by a lover to the bitter end, and that makes you an amazing person. KNow that, and cherish that, and find shelter in his love.
I have nothing else of value to say, so, in the spirit of the thread where animals helped, here's a baby seal that disapproves of people dying.
<img src="http://mfrost.typepad.com/cute_overload/images/seal_puppage_3456.jpg">
"Tsk, tsk," he says, "dying is a poor choice. It upsets those you love. Tsk."