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Good Bye My Friend
- Thread starter JennifersHope
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thelizardqueen
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I'm so sorry to hear this.
thelizardqueen
New member
I'm so sorry to hear this.
thelizardqueen
New member
I'm so sorry to hear this.
JennifersHope
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Thank you guys so much.. I know Kristal will appreciate the love and support..she does read on here... though I am sure the next few days she is going to be real busy... She is an amazing women who handles everything with so much dignity and grace.. She is a great women.. and will forever have my respect and awe...and my friendship...
As for me, really compared to what Kristal is going though.. I have no right to open my mouth... I have nothing to say or compare.. or anything.... Nothing is even close to the same..NOTHING.. Losing someone who is your life partner is unspeakable and unbearable...
but How I feel is
I am really emotionally spent, I think this is so close to John's death for me.. and John and Rich were my closest friends I had with CF.. I actually considered them to both be two of my closest friends...
I don't know how these ppl like Allie, Karen, Lisa, the mom's, the children, or anyone deals with losing someone you are so close to. I was just a friend in both cases but I talked to them all the time. and I relied so much on them to be there for me, to listen and to care for me. They both spoiled me rotten and took a role of "showing me the CF ropes" and our relationship just grew from there.. We talked about our family life.. our childhoods, our fears in life, everything.....If I could have been half as good to them as they were to me....
They were the first ppl I met with CF.. and we bonded instantly..we just all connected ..a few others of us as well and from there our friendship grew... I was so easily able to open up to them and tell them my fears, my emotions, my thoughts.. and they shared with me..
They were so protective of me..They teased me relentlessly.. made me laugh till I cried and made me cry till I laughed...
I admired and loved them both.. I respected them so much... Their attitudes on life put me to shame.. and their wife/girlfriends taught me that a CFer is a lovable person... and they by loving their spouse taught me that maybe someone could love me.
Even tonight as I was driving home.. I had such an ache in my heart and my normal reaction is to reach out.. I kept thinking and almost reaching for the phone because Rich especially is someone I could call late at night.. (John was not a night owl) and he was always willing to hear me out and let me process whatever was on my mind.. How does one go about processing a death? I don't know.. THe one thing I keep thinking is.. this is it for me.. I will never bond with another CFer in the way I did with them....but then how do you escape and assure yourself that this doesn't happen again? That I can protect my heart from being ripped apart.. time after time.?? I can't.... death can happen to anyone...
The pain and sadness I feel pails in comparison with the joy I had of having the most amazing people in my life..
Jennifer
As for me, really compared to what Kristal is going though.. I have no right to open my mouth... I have nothing to say or compare.. or anything.... Nothing is even close to the same..NOTHING.. Losing someone who is your life partner is unspeakable and unbearable...
but How I feel is
I am really emotionally spent, I think this is so close to John's death for me.. and John and Rich were my closest friends I had with CF.. I actually considered them to both be two of my closest friends...
I don't know how these ppl like Allie, Karen, Lisa, the mom's, the children, or anyone deals with losing someone you are so close to. I was just a friend in both cases but I talked to them all the time. and I relied so much on them to be there for me, to listen and to care for me. They both spoiled me rotten and took a role of "showing me the CF ropes" and our relationship just grew from there.. We talked about our family life.. our childhoods, our fears in life, everything.....If I could have been half as good to them as they were to me....
They were the first ppl I met with CF.. and we bonded instantly..we just all connected ..a few others of us as well and from there our friendship grew... I was so easily able to open up to them and tell them my fears, my emotions, my thoughts.. and they shared with me..
They were so protective of me..They teased me relentlessly.. made me laugh till I cried and made me cry till I laughed...
I admired and loved them both.. I respected them so much... Their attitudes on life put me to shame.. and their wife/girlfriends taught me that a CFer is a lovable person... and they by loving their spouse taught me that maybe someone could love me.
Even tonight as I was driving home.. I had such an ache in my heart and my normal reaction is to reach out.. I kept thinking and almost reaching for the phone because Rich especially is someone I could call late at night.. (John was not a night owl) and he was always willing to hear me out and let me process whatever was on my mind.. How does one go about processing a death? I don't know.. THe one thing I keep thinking is.. this is it for me.. I will never bond with another CFer in the way I did with them....but then how do you escape and assure yourself that this doesn't happen again? That I can protect my heart from being ripped apart.. time after time.?? I can't.... death can happen to anyone...
The pain and sadness I feel pails in comparison with the joy I had of having the most amazing people in my life..
Jennifer
JennifersHope
New member
Thank you guys so much.. I know Kristal will appreciate the love and support..she does read on here... though I am sure the next few days she is going to be real busy... She is an amazing women who handles everything with so much dignity and grace.. She is a great women.. and will forever have my respect and awe...and my friendship...
As for me, really compared to what Kristal is going though.. I have no right to open my mouth... I have nothing to say or compare.. or anything.... Nothing is even close to the same..NOTHING.. Losing someone who is your life partner is unspeakable and unbearable...
but How I feel is
I am really emotionally spent, I think this is so close to John's death for me.. and John and Rich were my closest friends I had with CF.. I actually considered them to both be two of my closest friends...
I don't know how these ppl like Allie, Karen, Lisa, the mom's, the children, or anyone deals with losing someone you are so close to. I was just a friend in both cases but I talked to them all the time. and I relied so much on them to be there for me, to listen and to care for me. They both spoiled me rotten and took a role of "showing me the CF ropes" and our relationship just grew from there.. We talked about our family life.. our childhoods, our fears in life, everything.....If I could have been half as good to them as they were to me....
They were the first ppl I met with CF.. and we bonded instantly..we just all connected ..a few others of us as well and from there our friendship grew... I was so easily able to open up to them and tell them my fears, my emotions, my thoughts.. and they shared with me..
They were so protective of me..They teased me relentlessly.. made me laugh till I cried and made me cry till I laughed...
I admired and loved them both.. I respected them so much... Their attitudes on life put me to shame.. and their wife/girlfriends taught me that a CFer is a lovable person... and they by loving their spouse taught me that maybe someone could love me.
Even tonight as I was driving home.. I had such an ache in my heart and my normal reaction is to reach out.. I kept thinking and almost reaching for the phone because Rich especially is someone I could call late at night.. (John was not a night owl) and he was always willing to hear me out and let me process whatever was on my mind.. How does one go about processing a death? I don't know.. THe one thing I keep thinking is.. this is it for me.. I will never bond with another CFer in the way I did with them....but then how do you escape and assure yourself that this doesn't happen again? That I can protect my heart from being ripped apart.. time after time.?? I can't.... death can happen to anyone...
The pain and sadness I feel pails in comparison with the joy I had of having the most amazing people in my life..
Jennifer
As for me, really compared to what Kristal is going though.. I have no right to open my mouth... I have nothing to say or compare.. or anything.... Nothing is even close to the same..NOTHING.. Losing someone who is your life partner is unspeakable and unbearable...
but How I feel is
I am really emotionally spent, I think this is so close to John's death for me.. and John and Rich were my closest friends I had with CF.. I actually considered them to both be two of my closest friends...
I don't know how these ppl like Allie, Karen, Lisa, the mom's, the children, or anyone deals with losing someone you are so close to. I was just a friend in both cases but I talked to them all the time. and I relied so much on them to be there for me, to listen and to care for me. They both spoiled me rotten and took a role of "showing me the CF ropes" and our relationship just grew from there.. We talked about our family life.. our childhoods, our fears in life, everything.....If I could have been half as good to them as they were to me....
They were the first ppl I met with CF.. and we bonded instantly..we just all connected ..a few others of us as well and from there our friendship grew... I was so easily able to open up to them and tell them my fears, my emotions, my thoughts.. and they shared with me..
They were so protective of me..They teased me relentlessly.. made me laugh till I cried and made me cry till I laughed...
I admired and loved them both.. I respected them so much... Their attitudes on life put me to shame.. and their wife/girlfriends taught me that a CFer is a lovable person... and they by loving their spouse taught me that maybe someone could love me.
Even tonight as I was driving home.. I had such an ache in my heart and my normal reaction is to reach out.. I kept thinking and almost reaching for the phone because Rich especially is someone I could call late at night.. (John was not a night owl) and he was always willing to hear me out and let me process whatever was on my mind.. How does one go about processing a death? I don't know.. THe one thing I keep thinking is.. this is it for me.. I will never bond with another CFer in the way I did with them....but then how do you escape and assure yourself that this doesn't happen again? That I can protect my heart from being ripped apart.. time after time.?? I can't.... death can happen to anyone...
The pain and sadness I feel pails in comparison with the joy I had of having the most amazing people in my life..
Jennifer
JennifersHope
New member
Thank you guys so much.. I know Kristal will appreciate the love and support..she does read on here... though I am sure the next few days she is going to be real busy... She is an amazing women who handles everything with so much dignity and grace.. She is a great women.. and will forever have my respect and awe...and my friendship...
As for me, really compared to what Kristal is going though.. I have no right to open my mouth... I have nothing to say or compare.. or anything.... Nothing is even close to the same..NOTHING.. Losing someone who is your life partner is unspeakable and unbearable...
but How I feel is
I am really emotionally spent, I think this is so close to John's death for me.. and John and Rich were my closest friends I had with CF.. I actually considered them to both be two of my closest friends...
I don't know how these ppl like Allie, Karen, Lisa, the mom's, the children, or anyone deals with losing someone you are so close to. I was just a friend in both cases but I talked to them all the time. and I relied so much on them to be there for me, to listen and to care for me. They both spoiled me rotten and took a role of "showing me the CF ropes" and our relationship just grew from there.. We talked about our family life.. our childhoods, our fears in life, everything.....If I could have been half as good to them as they were to me....
They were the first ppl I met with CF.. and we bonded instantly..we just all connected ..a few others of us as well and from there our friendship grew... I was so easily able to open up to them and tell them my fears, my emotions, my thoughts.. and they shared with me..
They were so protective of me..They teased me relentlessly.. made me laugh till I cried and made me cry till I laughed...
I admired and loved them both.. I respected them so much... Their attitudes on life put me to shame.. and their wife/girlfriends taught me that a CFer is a lovable person... and they by loving their spouse taught me that maybe someone could love me.
Even tonight as I was driving home.. I had such an ache in my heart and my normal reaction is to reach out.. I kept thinking and almost reaching for the phone because Rich especially is someone I could call late at night.. (John was not a night owl) and he was always willing to hear me out and let me process whatever was on my mind.. How does one go about processing a death? I don't know.. THe one thing I keep thinking is.. this is it for me.. I will never bond with another CFer in the way I did with them....but then how do you escape and assure yourself that this doesn't happen again? That I can protect my heart from being ripped apart.. time after time.?? I can't.... death can happen to anyone...
The pain and sadness I feel pails in comparison with the joy I had of having the most amazing people in my life..
Jennifer
As for me, really compared to what Kristal is going though.. I have no right to open my mouth... I have nothing to say or compare.. or anything.... Nothing is even close to the same..NOTHING.. Losing someone who is your life partner is unspeakable and unbearable...
but How I feel is
I am really emotionally spent, I think this is so close to John's death for me.. and John and Rich were my closest friends I had with CF.. I actually considered them to both be two of my closest friends...
I don't know how these ppl like Allie, Karen, Lisa, the mom's, the children, or anyone deals with losing someone you are so close to. I was just a friend in both cases but I talked to them all the time. and I relied so much on them to be there for me, to listen and to care for me. They both spoiled me rotten and took a role of "showing me the CF ropes" and our relationship just grew from there.. We talked about our family life.. our childhoods, our fears in life, everything.....If I could have been half as good to them as they were to me....
They were the first ppl I met with CF.. and we bonded instantly..we just all connected ..a few others of us as well and from there our friendship grew... I was so easily able to open up to them and tell them my fears, my emotions, my thoughts.. and they shared with me..
They were so protective of me..They teased me relentlessly.. made me laugh till I cried and made me cry till I laughed...
I admired and loved them both.. I respected them so much... Their attitudes on life put me to shame.. and their wife/girlfriends taught me that a CFer is a lovable person... and they by loving their spouse taught me that maybe someone could love me.
Even tonight as I was driving home.. I had such an ache in my heart and my normal reaction is to reach out.. I kept thinking and almost reaching for the phone because Rich especially is someone I could call late at night.. (John was not a night owl) and he was always willing to hear me out and let me process whatever was on my mind.. How does one go about processing a death? I don't know.. THe one thing I keep thinking is.. this is it for me.. I will never bond with another CFer in the way I did with them....but then how do you escape and assure yourself that this doesn't happen again? That I can protect my heart from being ripped apart.. time after time.?? I can't.... death can happen to anyone...
The pain and sadness I feel pails in comparison with the joy I had of having the most amazing people in my life..
Jennifer