Hi Amy,
I honestly feel I was born to be a mom. I always wanted to be pregnant and have my own children, as young as 14 I remember fantacising about pregnancy! I found the man of my dreams when I was 21, we married when I was 25 and we ttc'd when I was 26. 26 months later, and after a diagnosis of severe endometriosis, we found out we were pregnant with twins, thanks to our first round of IVF.
My desire to be a mom was so strong. I knew I would be good at it, and frankly, I think I am! Though I still feel like a rookie, as the twins won't turn 3 until next month. I have enjoyed EVERY single minute. I know lots of moms say that, but how many of them mean it. I actually miss my kids when they're sleeping.
Balancing treatments and exacerbations now that the twins are here is rough on me, but not on them. We have a strong family support system who are always willing to help. Since I am the caregiver while my husband works, we have to call in for family support when I go into the hospital. I find myself treating CF more aggressively now that I have kids. My baseline has fallen a bit since I gave birth, but my age has also increased....so you never know where I would have been. I have approximately 51% FEV1, whereas before I was pregnant my baseline hovered in the mid fifty range.
The actual pregnancy was a bit tough because of the diabetes and multiple births, but I did very well as far as CF is concerned. My FEV1 actually increased by the time I delivered at full term, 38 weeks pregnant with twins! My stomach was gigantic but my FEV1 was in the sixties, higher than it had been in YEARS! Must have been the extra blood volume giving me more oxygen or something.
I do catch nearly every cold the twins have. They are fairly healthy kids, especially since I am a stay at home mom. But they do catch the occasional cold once or twice a year, and that usually lands me in the hospital for about 10 days. But I come out being better off for it and feeling like a new woman.
I don't even think I can express my love for these kids in words. It's indescribable. It's everything I imagined. I smile everytime I see them or think about them, which is all day every day! (I'm smiling right now) and I think happiness has a lot to do with overall health as well. I know happiness can't cure CF, but it sure can make my day brighter.
In the end, I know I had a supportive husband, no matter how sick I get and my extended family and friend support system is strong as well. I don't try and do everything on my own. I lean on people for support because the more help I get, the longer I'll be around to enjoy their company.