Some of you know about mine and Mark's IVF trials and tribulations, so I'll try and spare you all a REAL long story but there's finally some REAL excitment!!!
I applied for an INCIID IVF scholarship (<a target=new class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.inciid.org/article.php?cat=programs&id=38">http://www.inciid.org/article.php?cat=programs&id=38</a>) in August and the application finally went for review in December. I got an email in December that we would be notified of whether or not we were selected sometime in January. I haven't heard anything from them yet, but they request that you not call or email on the status of the application, and I have to respect that. But I just can't risk waiting any longer and not being able to do the IVF again this time around. I hate the feeling and fear of "here we go again". I am due to check into my ship on Friday the 16th and my ship is out to sea until the first week of February. There is a possability that I will be flown out to the ship. Our major 6-9 month deployment is scheduled for April 06. So, unless I get into the clinic this week, I'm probably out of luck.
Most people ask me, "why wait until now to do IVF, why not do it before you get to the ship". This is the CLOSEST we've ever gotten to the IVF, we've had 3 close calls in the last 2 years, October 2004, February 2005, and October 2005 but this time we are REALLY going to do it. To me, the ship is really irrelevant at this point. I am not trying to shirk my duties as a sailor although I do feel a bit guilty about it all happening right before I am suppose to check onto the ship, but THE HEART WANTS WHAT THE HEART WANTS. I want a baby so bad and I am just not willing to wait another 9 months, I am just not!!!
We've managed to put aside a few thousand dollars and against all of my values and things I said I would NEVER do in my lifetime I asked my grandmother for a loan for the remainder. She said no and I was devistated, figuring that was it, but she said she would check with my aunt (who manages her finances) to make sure she couldn't afford it. I have no idea about her financial situation but figured the worst I could hear was no. Instead of my aunt hearing the whole story from grandma, I called and told her what I had asked her, why I asked her to borrow the money.... Apparently she appreciated so much hearing it from me firsthand that she and my uncle are lending Mark and I the money. I was and still am floored. I guess it just goes to show it never hurts to ask.
I immediately called the IVF clinic we had choosen and my first appt. is on Wednesday at 11. Luckly I've already had a lot of the initial testing, blood results, uterus and fallopian tube procedures (fill them up with saline and look for things). I talked to the nurse today and asked her what the likelyhood of starting the meds this cycle would be (I already have all my meds, unused from the last 3 "close calls"), I am to start my period tomorrow or Wednesday which would mean that would be perfect for some baseline testing, provided the doctor doesn't want to repeat any of the tests, and I'll start 30 days of various medications, have a retrieval in mid february, a transfer 3-5 days later and then a 2 week wait to know if I am pregnant.
YOU GUYS, I AM SO EXCITED, SO SO SO SO SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE SUCH A GOOD FEELING ABOUT THIS TIME, I AM SO EXCITED.
And Poor Mark is worried about everything, "how will we buy diapers for the baby if we spend all the money on IVF, what about a crib, clothes, a car seat, stroller" He's so worried. I just keep reassuring him that it will all work out. We've patiently waited and now I am putting my foot down and I am not waiting any longer.
I know you guys will give me support through all of this! I'll be updating my website as things occur and hope you can all think good thoughts and keep us and this IVF in your prayers.
Sorry to ramble......
I applied for an INCIID IVF scholarship (<a target=new class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.inciid.org/article.php?cat=programs&id=38">http://www.inciid.org/article.php?cat=programs&id=38</a>) in August and the application finally went for review in December. I got an email in December that we would be notified of whether or not we were selected sometime in January. I haven't heard anything from them yet, but they request that you not call or email on the status of the application, and I have to respect that. But I just can't risk waiting any longer and not being able to do the IVF again this time around. I hate the feeling and fear of "here we go again". I am due to check into my ship on Friday the 16th and my ship is out to sea until the first week of February. There is a possability that I will be flown out to the ship. Our major 6-9 month deployment is scheduled for April 06. So, unless I get into the clinic this week, I'm probably out of luck.
Most people ask me, "why wait until now to do IVF, why not do it before you get to the ship". This is the CLOSEST we've ever gotten to the IVF, we've had 3 close calls in the last 2 years, October 2004, February 2005, and October 2005 but this time we are REALLY going to do it. To me, the ship is really irrelevant at this point. I am not trying to shirk my duties as a sailor although I do feel a bit guilty about it all happening right before I am suppose to check onto the ship, but THE HEART WANTS WHAT THE HEART WANTS. I want a baby so bad and I am just not willing to wait another 9 months, I am just not!!!
We've managed to put aside a few thousand dollars and against all of my values and things I said I would NEVER do in my lifetime I asked my grandmother for a loan for the remainder. She said no and I was devistated, figuring that was it, but she said she would check with my aunt (who manages her finances) to make sure she couldn't afford it. I have no idea about her financial situation but figured the worst I could hear was no. Instead of my aunt hearing the whole story from grandma, I called and told her what I had asked her, why I asked her to borrow the money.... Apparently she appreciated so much hearing it from me firsthand that she and my uncle are lending Mark and I the money. I was and still am floored. I guess it just goes to show it never hurts to ask.
I immediately called the IVF clinic we had choosen and my first appt. is on Wednesday at 11. Luckly I've already had a lot of the initial testing, blood results, uterus and fallopian tube procedures (fill them up with saline and look for things). I talked to the nurse today and asked her what the likelyhood of starting the meds this cycle would be (I already have all my meds, unused from the last 3 "close calls"), I am to start my period tomorrow or Wednesday which would mean that would be perfect for some baseline testing, provided the doctor doesn't want to repeat any of the tests, and I'll start 30 days of various medications, have a retrieval in mid february, a transfer 3-5 days later and then a 2 week wait to know if I am pregnant.
YOU GUYS, I AM SO EXCITED, SO SO SO SO SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE SUCH A GOOD FEELING ABOUT THIS TIME, I AM SO EXCITED.
And Poor Mark is worried about everything, "how will we buy diapers for the baby if we spend all the money on IVF, what about a crib, clothes, a car seat, stroller" He's so worried. I just keep reassuring him that it will all work out. We've patiently waited and now I am putting my foot down and I am not waiting any longer.
I know you guys will give me support through all of this! I'll be updating my website as things occur and hope you can all think good thoughts and keep us and this IVF in your prayers.
Sorry to ramble......