Well hmmm .. good quesion.
I will say when I was younger I was much more positive than I am now - I still think I am a positive person, but I have more down times now.
When I was younger I was relatively healthy - I was in the hospital about once a year but did well. I was able to do whatever I wanted for the most part and was also able to go through my day and didn't have to acknowledge CF. I think THAT is why I was so much happier. I was able to forget that I had CF.
As the years have passed and CFRD has come and worsening lung function has been a problem I find it hard to forget about CF. This is why I think my attitude has changed about things. I am more realistic now and CF is inthe forefront of my mind ALOT because so much of my time is taken up with treatments, remembering meds, taking meds, therapies, docs appointments and trying to exercise and stay well.
I have developed some anxiety issues in the past 4-6 months and have found that the only sure fire way to keep myself from having anxiety is to keep my mind busy. Reading, being on the comp, playing games, watching TV .... ANYTHING but thinking about CF sometimes. I have also found that though this site is helpful sometimes it brings me down to be on here. For me it is because I am living with CF (like most everyone else here) and I sometimes just can't handle all of the information about what may happen to me, what will happen to me and everything else. It to me was easier to hear that stuff when I was younger and healthier - though I still had issues with it then too. Now that my lung function is worse and I am closer to qualifying for transplant (I like to say that rather than closer to death - to me it is more positive lol) it is hard to swallow sometimes.
I know people say don't sugar coat things ... but I was talking to someone else on here about this and they said something that is so true. You don't have to completely sugar coat things, but sometimes a spooful of sugar will help the medicine go down a little bit easier.
Personally I would try to stay busy and maybe when you come on here be much more selective with the posts you read based on the titles. I have cut back on the posts I read. I ONLY click on ones that I think I might be helpful with, that seem to have very little to do with CF, or if it is something that I have also been wondering about. That pretty much cut my viewing by half if not more. I will say too that I have had my depressing feelings start to dissipate since I started to censor myself on this site.
Just a thought. I am not trying to start anything about this site. I am just saying something that has helped me. Sometimes- for some people - when you are completely surrounded by any information you could possibly want or need ... and more .. it can be overwhelming and depressing.
Take Care and I hope you start feeling better,
Lindsey