Sorry to hear man. The truth is, with our disease, eventually, we all pay the piper. I will get worse and die, and so will everyone else...Except for maybe the new born kids who stay mild for a very long time, for them there might be a cure. We all have to find out how to accept our situation in our own way. Some find Jesus, some get deeper into philosophy, some off themselves...Whatever. To me it always helps to remember that there is always a ton of people much worse off than me, even at my lowest point. So far that has helped me out the most. How could *I* have any right to complain when there are 5 year olds dying of terminal cancer who have not been able to even experience 1/10 of the life and enjoyment I have experienced? What about the poor kids born into famine, poverty, war, and disease in Africa who are constantly covered in flies and eat dirt in desperation? Sure CF sucks big time, but it could always be worse. I'd be considered somewhat mild compared to many other CF's, but that doesn't mean anything. It means I could be here slightly longer than some others...But I will still meet the same fate as them anyway. I'm just thankful for finding an awesome woman, having a wonderful family, and being allowed to experience some parts of life, and to try and pass on my genes before I check out. To be honest, I really can't complain (even though we all do). I'm sorry to hear your life has some serious bumps in the road now. Just try to remember of the good times you have had. At the very least, you can wake up and watch a sunset, laugh with friends, see a good movie, etc etc.