I am always depressed, have been for about 4 years, i'm 17 and i always think of ways to kill myself. i'm too scared to actually go through with it. most of it is related to my CF, but not all of it. before i had boyfriend, i hated myself because i thought i was a loser and my life was just a waste of time. i thought when i got a bf things would be better. well i've been w/someone for like 2 yrs and he treats me like crap and thinks i'm being a drama queen when i say i'm sick, he wont even go to the doc with me and he says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. my mom knows alot about CF, but it seems like she doesnt understand that people w/cf get sick a lot more than others. i finally got the nerve to tell her i was depressed, but she doesnt care. she is old fashioned and doesnt really think depression is a medical problem and my dad also feels that way. i just want to talk to someone.
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I used to have that same outlook--that if you were depressed, it must be because of a spiritual type thing or of your own doing.
But after having a lot of depression/chemical imbalance history in my family w/ my siblings, parent, relatives, etc, I've learned that it has absolutely nothing to do w/ your spiritual life whatsoever. I'm not sure if this is what your parents are thinking or not, but thought maybe it was a long those lines.
Having CF can be a downer, especially if you're not doing well & have constant tune ups & hospitilizations, etc. The key is to try to get past that, somehow, and try to see any bright spot that you can in your life to start with & then try to build upon that.
If you want to email me, I'm available. I don't have all the answers, but would be glad to listen. Please put something about CF in the subject line so I don't delete your email.<img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
Jtrey1@aol.com
But after having a lot of depression/chemical imbalance history in my family w/ my siblings, parent, relatives, etc, I've learned that it has absolutely nothing to do w/ your spiritual life whatsoever. I'm not sure if this is what your parents are thinking or not, but thought maybe it was a long those lines.
Having CF can be a downer, especially if you're not doing well & have constant tune ups & hospitilizations, etc. The key is to try to get past that, somehow, and try to see any bright spot that you can in your life to start with & then try to build upon that.
If you want to email me, I'm available. I don't have all the answers, but would be glad to listen. Please put something about CF in the subject line so I don't delete your email.<img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
Jtrey1@aol.com
Mockingbird
New member
Definetely talk to your doctor about anti-depressants! They can make a world of difference, believe me. Of course, when my mom first found out I was going on antidepressants, she almost freaked out. =-) She was worried about side-effects and things like that. =-)
I'm sorry your boyfriend doesn't believe you. I kind of run into that problem a lot, too. It is soooo frustrating when people do that. There's been acouple times when I almost screamed my head off at someone, but I know there's nothing I can say to convince them. And everytime I cough or am walking weird 'cause I'm in pain they just assume I'm faking it to get pity. Seriously, if there's someone who could fake a cough like mine, that person needs to be an actor. =-) There's a website called butyoudontlooksick.com. that's all about that. I mean, not about the coughing/acting thing, about the people not believing you thing. =-) You probably figured that out already, though. =-)
jarod
22 w/cf
I'm sorry your boyfriend doesn't believe you. I kind of run into that problem a lot, too. It is soooo frustrating when people do that. There's been acouple times when I almost screamed my head off at someone, but I know there's nothing I can say to convince them. And everytime I cough or am walking weird 'cause I'm in pain they just assume I'm faking it to get pity. Seriously, if there's someone who could fake a cough like mine, that person needs to be an actor. =-) There's a website called butyoudontlooksick.com. that's all about that. I mean, not about the coughing/acting thing, about the people not believing you thing. =-) You probably figured that out already, though. =-)
jarod
22 w/cf
vickysmommy
New member
For one I dont think your bf or your parents dont care I think it's just hard for them to except that you are sick. That is something they got to work on. I think if your planning on marrying your boyfriend your going to have to sit down with him and show him the facts about your illness and how you feel from day to day. It might be that he just doesnt know about CF and what it really does. My boyfriend does the same things. I live with him and whenever I say I dont feel like doing that today, he gets mad and calls me lazy and says I'm making excuses, Im a very stuborn person though, if I dont feel I can do something, I ignore him and dont do it, There was a time not too long ago when he was pushing me to clean the house and I actually cried about not doing it, since then hes gotten better. But anyway like I said just try and give them the facts and maybe they'll understand. But in the meantime, dont think of killing yourself that wouldnt be good for anyone