debs2girls
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I just wanted to let you know, I am praying for you and your family...I know tomorrow will be a tough day...you are not alone.
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Kathy
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debs2girls
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I just wanted to let you know, I am praying for you and your family...I know tomorrow will be a tough day...you are not alone.
debs2girls
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I just wanted to let you know, I am praying for you and your family...I know tomorrow will be a tough day...you are not alone.
kayleesgrandma
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Kathy, I didn't know you when you were going through everything with Josh, but I came later, and know of you. My heart goes out to you, and I too, will be thinking of you. Deb, thank you for starting this chain of love for Kathy. . .
kayleesgrandma
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Kathy, I didn't know you when you were going through everything with Josh, but I came later, and know of you. My heart goes out to you, and I too, will be thinking of you. Deb, thank you for starting this chain of love for Kathy. . .
kayleesgrandma
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Kathy, I didn't know you when you were going through everything with Josh, but I came later, and know of you. My heart goes out to you, and I too, will be thinking of you. Deb, thank you for starting this chain of love for Kathy. . .
Thank you everyone for your support! I took the day off of work today. I just wanted to be able to cry at home! I have had a hard week because I keep thinking about everything that happened at the end. I keep reliving it in my head. I guess I thought that 1 year was this magical day and I would start to feel better. WRONG!!! Don't get me wrong, I am getting better slowly, but I still cry a lot and miss him so deeply. I just want to see him again and talk to him. My family and I will be going to the cemetery to release balloons with messages to Josh like we did at the funeral and on his birthday. Then we will go to my mom's house for dinner. My 18 yr. old daughter is getting a tatoo today in memory of her brother. Thanks again for your thoughts. I was so touched this morning when I woke up crying and decided to go on this site. It is nice to know people are thinking of me.
Kathy
Kathy
Thank you everyone for your support! I took the day off of work today. I just wanted to be able to cry at home! I have had a hard week because I keep thinking about everything that happened at the end. I keep reliving it in my head. I guess I thought that 1 year was this magical day and I would start to feel better. WRONG!!! Don't get me wrong, I am getting better slowly, but I still cry a lot and miss him so deeply. I just want to see him again and talk to him. My family and I will be going to the cemetery to release balloons with messages to Josh like we did at the funeral and on his birthday. Then we will go to my mom's house for dinner. My 18 yr. old daughter is getting a tatoo today in memory of her brother. Thanks again for your thoughts. I was so touched this morning when I woke up crying and decided to go on this site. It is nice to know people are thinking of me.
Kathy
Kathy
Thank you everyone for your support! I took the day off of work today. I just wanted to be able to cry at home! I have had a hard week because I keep thinking about everything that happened at the end. I keep reliving it in my head. I guess I thought that 1 year was this magical day and I would start to feel better. WRONG!!! Don't get me wrong, I am getting better slowly, but I still cry a lot and miss him so deeply. I just want to see him again and talk to him. My family and I will be going to the cemetery to release balloons with messages to Josh like we did at the funeral and on his birthday. Then we will go to my mom's house for dinner. My 18 yr. old daughter is getting a tatoo today in memory of her brother. Thanks again for your thoughts. I was so touched this morning when I woke up crying and decided to go on this site. It is nice to know people are thinking of me.
Kathy
Kathy
debs2girls
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Kathy, I am so sorry you week has been a bad one....I know exactly what you mean too...when I was approaching one year of my sister's death, I kept relieving all of her lasts...I think that was actually worse that the angelversary itself.. KWIM?
It has been fourteen months for me now and it still hurts terribly, but I am adjusting...it is hard for me to believe, not only did my sisters death make me the oldest child in the family, but since we were so close in ages and I have had a birthday since Pam passed, I am not the same age as my big sis...ironic, huh?
Take care Kathy, and if you havent already, read Terri's blog entry for today.
Love and prayers,
It has been fourteen months for me now and it still hurts terribly, but I am adjusting...it is hard for me to believe, not only did my sisters death make me the oldest child in the family, but since we were so close in ages and I have had a birthday since Pam passed, I am not the same age as my big sis...ironic, huh?
Take care Kathy, and if you havent already, read Terri's blog entry for today.
Love and prayers,
debs2girls
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Kathy, I am so sorry you week has been a bad one....I know exactly what you mean too...when I was approaching one year of my sister's death, I kept relieving all of her lasts...I think that was actually worse that the angelversary itself.. KWIM?
It has been fourteen months for me now and it still hurts terribly, but I am adjusting...it is hard for me to believe, not only did my sisters death make me the oldest child in the family, but since we were so close in ages and I have had a birthday since Pam passed, I am not the same age as my big sis...ironic, huh?
Take care Kathy, and if you havent already, read Terri's blog entry for today.
Love and prayers,
It has been fourteen months for me now and it still hurts terribly, but I am adjusting...it is hard for me to believe, not only did my sisters death make me the oldest child in the family, but since we were so close in ages and I have had a birthday since Pam passed, I am not the same age as my big sis...ironic, huh?
Take care Kathy, and if you havent already, read Terri's blog entry for today.
Love and prayers,
debs2girls
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Kathy, I am so sorry you week has been a bad one....I know exactly what you mean too...when I was approaching one year of my sister's death, I kept relieving all of her lasts...I think that was actually worse that the angelversary itself.. KWIM?
It has been fourteen months for me now and it still hurts terribly, but I am adjusting...it is hard for me to believe, not only did my sisters death make me the oldest child in the family, but since we were so close in ages and I have had a birthday since Pam passed, I am not the same age as my big sis...ironic, huh?
Take care Kathy, and if you havent already, read Terri's blog entry for today.
Love and prayers,
It has been fourteen months for me now and it still hurts terribly, but I am adjusting...it is hard for me to believe, not only did my sisters death make me the oldest child in the family, but since we were so close in ages and I have had a birthday since Pam passed, I am not the same age as my big sis...ironic, huh?
Take care Kathy, and if you havent already, read Terri's blog entry for today.
Love and prayers,
kayleesgrandma
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Those of us who have lost a loved one know the everlasting pain that comes with that loss. It's been 33 (going on 34 years in a few months), since I lost the love of my life, and also my father in the same year. It gets better, and yet it doesn't. But to lose your child... So I know how hard this day must have been, but I hope that you were able to dwell on the love you all shared with Josh, and he with you. Your world is still a better place for having had him here with you for just that little while. . . I thought of you several times today, and will think of you for several more before the day is over. God be with you today. I wrote my blog today with you in mind. <img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
kayleesgrandma
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Those of us who have lost a loved one know the everlasting pain that comes with that loss. It's been 33 (going on 34 years in a few months), since I lost the love of my life, and also my father in the same year. It gets better, and yet it doesn't. But to lose your child... So I know how hard this day must have been, but I hope that you were able to dwell on the love you all shared with Josh, and he with you. Your world is still a better place for having had him here with you for just that little while. . . I thought of you several times today, and will think of you for several more before the day is over. God be with you today. I wrote my blog today with you in mind. <img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
kayleesgrandma
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Those of us who have lost a loved one know the everlasting pain that comes with that loss. It's been 33 (going on 34 years in a few months), since I lost the love of my life, and also my father in the same year. It gets better, and yet it doesn't. But to lose your child... So I know how hard this day must have been, but I hope that you were able to dwell on the love you all shared with Josh, and he with you. Your world is still a better place for having had him here with you for just that little while. . . I thought of you several times today, and will think of you for several more before the day is over. God be with you today. I wrote my blog today with you in mind. <img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
The week leading up to it was much harder for me than the day also. Remembering what they went through is, I think, the hardest part of survivors. 1 year is not magical, sorry....I kind of expected it to be that way too. But some things we never 'get over', they just become part of our being, and while we're never okay with them, we learn to incorporate that new part of our identity into our lives.
Releasing those balloons sounds like an absolutely lovely idea, and that's so incredibly sweet and thoughtful of your daughter to get a tattoo in his memory. I hope you find solace in each other today and always, you'll be in my thougts.
Releasing those balloons sounds like an absolutely lovely idea, and that's so incredibly sweet and thoughtful of your daughter to get a tattoo in his memory. I hope you find solace in each other today and always, you'll be in my thougts.
The week leading up to it was much harder for me than the day also. Remembering what they went through is, I think, the hardest part of survivors. 1 year is not magical, sorry....I kind of expected it to be that way too. But some things we never 'get over', they just become part of our being, and while we're never okay with them, we learn to incorporate that new part of our identity into our lives.
Releasing those balloons sounds like an absolutely lovely idea, and that's so incredibly sweet and thoughtful of your daughter to get a tattoo in his memory. I hope you find solace in each other today and always, you'll be in my thougts.
Releasing those balloons sounds like an absolutely lovely idea, and that's so incredibly sweet and thoughtful of your daughter to get a tattoo in his memory. I hope you find solace in each other today and always, you'll be in my thougts.