TinyGreenTurtles
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This is one of those topics that slaps me right in the face every single time it comes up. I am still very torn on how I feel about it, and I have two kids. lol! I didn't think I'd ever have kids, and then suddenly, there was my first. Things went so beautifully, we planned a second. They are 5 and 3 now, and when I get sick, yeah it's hard but I've always been open with them. The only talk we haven't had is that it's "terminal." That will come before long, I'm sure. Luckily, I am blessed with an AWESOME support system, and I know that whatever may happen to me, my girls will always be well taken care of, and loved unconditionally.
My prayer every day is that my girls grow to know that they were loved and I never, ever meant to put any burden on them. When I am sick, yes they go to Grandma's a bit more often, but my husband is home as much as he can be and their lives continue as normal. I never meant to be selfish, but I know in some ways I was/am. I would never take having them back, EVER, even if they resent me something terrible. I feel in my heart my girls were meant to be here, plain and simple. I feel like the decision was out of my hands.
That being said, I totally understand surgical sterilization as well, my tubes were tied as soon as they pulled my second kid out. lol. I guess my point, is that I totally see both sides of this one. No matter which way I look at it, I can that decision clearly.
Tonya, I want to say that I can only hope my daughters grow up with your wonderful point of view on your Mom. I want so much for them to know that I've always wanted everything in the world to be right for them.
Okay, done. Sorry I rambled on so long. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">
My prayer every day is that my girls grow to know that they were loved and I never, ever meant to put any burden on them. When I am sick, yes they go to Grandma's a bit more often, but my husband is home as much as he can be and their lives continue as normal. I never meant to be selfish, but I know in some ways I was/am. I would never take having them back, EVER, even if they resent me something terrible. I feel in my heart my girls were meant to be here, plain and simple. I feel like the decision was out of my hands.
That being said, I totally understand surgical sterilization as well, my tubes were tied as soon as they pulled my second kid out. lol. I guess my point, is that I totally see both sides of this one. No matter which way I look at it, I can that decision clearly.
Tonya, I want to say that I can only hope my daughters grow up with your wonderful point of view on your Mom. I want so much for them to know that I've always wanted everything in the world to be right for them.
Okay, done. Sorry I rambled on so long. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">