I feel so bad for you and know your pain so well. I have always said my whole life, "I don't get headaches I give them" but this past month I had my first real experience with a Migraine.. and I said the same thing as you, I would rather die then go through that again" It was the most horrible feeling ever. THe light blinded my eyes, noise caused sharp pains to shoot through my head.. I am still feeling the effects of it.
They are still working me up, actually oddly enough they want to rule out some pretty major things which I know I can't possibly have, I have to get a PET Scan, and an MRI with special contrast.. I already had a bunch of them done but these are specific.
I had the sea sick feeling for over a week, I spent it in the bathroom throwing up with severe sharp pain in my head.. I couldn't even cry it hurt so bad... My arms, fingers, lips were numb. I was confused and didn't even know where I was.
Mine they think turned out to be Basilar Artery Migraine, basically the main artery that goes to my brain was having spasms, cutting off my oxygen supply to my brain. They are not sure why I am still numb hence the reason for all the tests.
I hope you feel better, I get those type of headaches for the past month, on and off., and even when I don't have it, I have a feeling of anxiety that it is going to come back.
Jennifer