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jennylivingston
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I'm so sorry you are going through this! I had a very early miscarriage--I wasn't even aware that I was pregnant until I lost it. I never knew what my due date would have been or even had a chance to be happy about the pregnancy, but it was still one of the hardest things I have EVER gone through. Thinking that I <i>could </i>have had a baby... that I may never be able to get pregnant again or even if I did that I wouldn't be able to sustain that life inside me... it awakened all these fears and concerns I didn't even know I had. I can only imagine how terrible it would have been had I known sooner.
Then I remember the resentment I began feeling towards women who were expecting. It had a very hard time with it for a year or so. It was like I was walking around with a giant hole in my stomach--I was always aware of that feeling of loss.
I know that the "comfort" and "advice" you recieve is probably a bit repetitive and maybe even annoying at times, but you just have to hold to the belief that IT WILL HAPPEN FOR YOU! I finally had a baby of my own in August and, maybe I'm crazy, but I feel like all the waiting and wanting it SO BADLY made it an <i>even more</i> amazing experience.
Best of luck and hang in there!
Then I remember the resentment I began feeling towards women who were expecting. It had a very hard time with it for a year or so. It was like I was walking around with a giant hole in my stomach--I was always aware of that feeling of loss.
I know that the "comfort" and "advice" you recieve is probably a bit repetitive and maybe even annoying at times, but you just have to hold to the belief that IT WILL HAPPEN FOR YOU! I finally had a baby of my own in August and, maybe I'm crazy, but I feel like all the waiting and wanting it SO BADLY made it an <i>even more</i> amazing experience.
Best of luck and hang in there!