Oh man I am so sorry to hear about your relationship with the rents not being ideal... that definitely makes it all harder.
The cooking thing is exactly where I mess up, like I said, I got the hang of the routine of nebs and vest, but I diminished my appetite by often ignoring it b/c I was too lazy/tired/busy to find or cook food. I still struggle with the will and energy to cook... like I said, I have heard of these places where you can go and cook meals for like a month, they are normally for moms who work kinda thing, but I was on the verge of doing it. Also, I read that another CF'er gets her groceries delivered, and that is what I plan on looking into once I start school back up (I have been going back and forth between my college town and home town) b/c often, I will cook now, but loathe the grocery store, so I figure if I can order what I want and have it delivered... there is half the battle (I hope).
Also, if your roomate is supportive, does she cook? I was also fortunate that my roomate I lived w/ for 3 years grew up with me so she was well aware of my CF (granted, the 'milder' symptoms growing up somewhat blinded her to the severity of cf, as well as me) but she loved to cook, she especially loves sweets like muffins, brownies, cookies, cupcakes etc and regular dinner type things too. For a long time when one of us would cook we would share and/or trade off... it wasnt dinner everynight though, but it was better than nothing. Maybe you could collaborate and buy some groceries together or you buy one week, she the next and so you could have 2-3 solid meals a week, which could hopefully grow. And do you have any calorie shakes either? I used to do those in the morn for breakfast b/c I never got to that w/ treatments and all.
It just sucks b/c us CF'ers cant live like 'normal' college kids where they can go w/o calories (all my friends skip meals all the time which makes it harder to make sure I eat enough) and then eat a bag of doritos type thing.
Lastly as for the port, I got mine only after about 2 years of intense ivs, but considering my bugs the iv treatment didnt look like it would less, so we went ahead w/ it even though I still have fine veins. I only got it in September, but so far I love it. I am not too concerned about how it looks fortunately. I have a power port, like a power picc it can do contrast dye for CFs, and to me its bigger than other ports, but I am pretty skinny most the time. I got it on my right chest, above the boob. Some girls get it in the booby fatty tissue so its more hidden, but i have heard it can be harder to access b/c it can move around on the nurse more. The scar I have is taking a long time to fade, but like I said, Im not too concerned. Most shirts cover it. Umm, the worst thing I forsee is getting it flushed every 4-6 weeks, but again I am blessed to have an awesome home health nurse who I can call directly and so we just kinda squeeze me in when its been a month, hopefully something like that will work for you to. The best though is say you call your docs and you feel like you want some ivs, 2 weeks whatever, all they have to do is fax the orders over to home health to get started, no appts. to IR for piccs etc. Plus, you can eventually learn to access your own port (I havent got there yet). I imagine some activies might be bad, like karate (its been talked about on the boards)... but my port doesnt uusually hurt too bad even w/ a direct punch (unless its accessed obviously), but as far as I know, exercise and stuff can still be done the same.
Again, sorry if I was all over the place, I tend to (talk) type a lot <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
Tabitha