Hi Shelly,
Happy to see you here. There are so many of us that are just like you, so you will see that people will completely understand all that you are going through. Plus so many people can offer you valuable tips whether it is how you can take back some control over a disease that thinks it has a mind of it's own -- or finding ways to save time off a long and tedious treatment routine.
My case is similar to yours in some ways. No real diagnosis, but strong suspicions of CF. I first got sick at age 21, with a high normal sweat test, and pseudomonas pneumonia (a telltale sign of CF). I was on IV meds for 2 weeks. And then the usual lung manifestations ie: frequent infections, bleeding, declining lung function, and the acquiring of multiple bacterias like staph and MAC.
When the genetic test first came out, they found one gene. My doctors always suspected CF, but I would waver between thinking "maybe I do have it", to "I absolutely don't have it." Then I decided NOT to get the full test when it became available, because I liked thinking I didn't have it. And I was lucky to have great insurance that paid for anything the doctors ordered. So for me, a diagnosis wouldn't have changed anything.
Last year, when I signed up for an amazing California program (that hopefully won't be cut) that would give me peace of mind in case I ever found myself without insurance, they sent me for the genetic test. They found the second gene, and at this point I was thrilled. Because it meant that I could join this special program (my insurance had increased in one year from $500 per month to $1500 per month and was going up again possibly to $2000.)
So now it's actually a good thing to know that I do have CF. And if I had tested negative, I would have had all the same symptoms, but without essential medical coverage. I can't live in denial any more. And the good news is, if there is ever any shot of a new treatment or cure, it is imperative to know what the mutations are.
The CF center that I was sent to thought I was crazy when I whooped with joy when they told me that I did indeed have CF. After living with the perpetual fear of not having good coverage, this was great news.
So, welcome. And you will love the people here. This forum is amazing. And soon you'll find yourself wanting to jump in on everything too.