this post is about me actually... tsk tsk, haley! haha
anyway, the situation is that i've been listed for 10 months so far, with one false call in september. my pfts average between 18 and 20, and i can get up to about 24 in the hospital. i'm just very frustrated because my main CF doctor won't advise me to take anything other than tylenol (which we know does nothing for CF-level issues). She will not let me take NSAIDS for risk of hemoptosizing (which i've never done, so i pop 800 mg advil twice a day).
she understands where i'm coming from, that i pretty much cannot function at more than a vegetative level if i don't take anything. i completely understand the risks of respiratory depression and am religious about wearing my oxygen and monitoring my sats, but all i really want to do is to be able to get up and moving! her solution was to "do what the rheumatoid arthritis people do" and start off slowly in the morning and then work up to doing stuff like errands in the afternoon- but by that time i'm wiped out from just being awake and breathing.
she's allowing me to take ativan as needed, but nothing on a regular schedule. she hates when i take it in the hospital because heaven forbid i sleep past 8 am and delay my respiratory treatments.
thanks everyone for the input! i really appreciate it. I think my biggest problem at the moment is simply being frustrated at the lack of progress with transplant. I have been listed for almost a year, it took me over a year to get listed, and now i'm still waiting and watching my lung function decline. i'm hoping for my call but it's hard to be optimistic at this point!
again, thanks for the responses <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> and to miss haley for posting this for me lol