Needing the CF forum

[lovingBenandCambree]

I have found myself on the forum a lot more since finding out about Debbie. I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her and what a wonderful person she was and the love and kindess that she showed me. Its odd after I read her sick blog a few days later I thought I should PM Debbie and see how she is doing. I could kick myself that I didnt, not that it would have changed anything but just the same. I think I am just rambling to get some things off my chest. I should have probably put this in my blog so sorry for that. I am also sorry that I havent been around at all until lately and feel very selfish for that. Anyway, I am going to miss littledebbies sarcasm and wit. I hope all is well with everyone.

 

[lovingBenandCambree]

I have found myself on the forum a lot more since finding out about Debbie. I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her and what a wonderful person she was and the love and kindess that she showed me. Its odd after I read her sick blog a few days later I thought I should PM Debbie and see how she is doing. I could kick myself that I didnt, not that it would have changed anything but just the same. I think I am just rambling to get some things off my chest. I should have probably put this in my blog so sorry for that. I am also sorry that I havent been around at all until lately and feel very selfish for that. Anyway, I am going to miss littledebbies sarcasm and wit. I hope all is well with everyone.

 

[lovingBenandCambree]

I have found myself on the forum a lot more since finding out about Debbie. I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her and what a wonderful person she was and the love and kindess that she showed me. Its odd after I read her sick blog a few days later I thought I should PM Debbie and see how she is doing. I could kick myself that I didnt, not that it would have changed anything but just the same. I think I am just rambling to get some things off my chest. I should have probably put this in my blog so sorry for that. I am also sorry that I havent been around at all until lately and feel very selfish for that. Anyway, I am going to miss littledebbies sarcasm and wit. I hope all is well with everyone.

 

[lovingBenandCambree]

I have found myself on the forum a lot more since finding out about Debbie. I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her and what a wonderful person she was and the love and kindess that she showed me. Its odd after I read her sick blog a few days later I thought I should PM Debbie and see how she is doing. I could kick myself that I didnt, not that it would have changed anything but just the same. I think I am just rambling to get some things off my chest. I should have probably put this in my blog so sorry for that. I am also sorry that I havent been around at all until lately and feel very selfish for that. Anyway, I am going to miss littledebbies sarcasm and wit. I hope all is well with everyone.

 

[lovingBenandCambree]

I have found myself on the forum a lot more since finding out about Debbie. I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her and what a wonderful person she was and the love and kindess that she showed me. Its odd after I read her sick blog a few days later I thought I should PM Debbie and see how she is doing. I could kick myself that I didnt, not that it would have changed anything but just the same. I think I am just rambling to get some things off my chest. I should have probably put this in my blog so sorry for that. I am also sorry that I havent been around at all until lately and feel very selfish for that. Anyway, I am going to miss littledebbies sarcasm and wit. I hope all is well with everyone.

 

[lovingBenandCambree]

I have found myself on the forum a lot more since finding out about Debbie. I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her and what a wonderful person she was and the love and kindess that she showed me. Its odd after I read her sick blog a few days later I thought I should PM Debbie and see how she is doing. I could kick myself that I didnt, not that it would have changed anything but just the same. I think I am just rambling to get some things off my chest. I should have probably put this in my blog so sorry for that. I am also sorry that I havent been around at all until lately and feel very selfish for that. Anyway, I am going to miss littledebbies sarcasm and wit. I hope all is well with everyone.

 

[kayleesgrandma]

Emilee, don't apologize for spending time with your family...sometimes you have to do that. Life is about sacrfices, and if you are doing one thing, then you are surely sacrificing doing something else. The choice is what counts. Jenn--westonsmom showed me that. Come around when you can, we have missed you, but don't feel bad, Debbie must have gone downhill rather fast so probably wouldn't have seen your message....I'm just glad you have come back!!!

 

[kayleesgrandma]

Emilee, don't apologize for spending time with your family...sometimes you have to do that. Life is about sacrfices, and if you are doing one thing, then you are surely sacrificing doing something else. The choice is what counts. Jenn--westonsmom showed me that. Come around when you can, we have missed you, but don't feel bad, Debbie must have gone downhill rather fast so probably wouldn't have seen your message....I'm just glad you have come back!!!

 

[kayleesgrandma]

Emilee, don't apologize for spending time with your family...sometimes you have to do that. Life is about sacrfices, and if you are doing one thing, then you are surely sacrificing doing something else. The choice is what counts. Jenn--westonsmom showed me that. Come around when you can, we have missed you, but don't feel bad, Debbie must have gone downhill rather fast so probably wouldn't have seen your message....I'm just glad you have come back!!!

 

[kayleesgrandma]

Emilee, don't apologize for spending time with your family...sometimes you have to do that. Life is about sacrfices, and if you are doing one thing, then you are surely sacrificing doing something else. The choice is what counts. Jenn--westonsmom showed me that. Come around when you can, we have missed you, but don't feel bad, Debbie must have gone downhill rather fast so probably wouldn't have seen your message....I'm just glad you have come back!!!

 

[kayleesgrandma]

Emilee, don't apologize for spending time with your family...sometimes you have to do that. Life is about sacrfices, and if you are doing one thing, then you are surely sacrificing doing something else. The choice is what counts. Jenn--westonsmom showed me that. Come around when you can, we have missed you, but don't feel bad, Debbie must have gone downhill rather fast so probably wouldn't have seen your message....I'm just glad you have come back!!!

 

[kayleesgrandma]

Emilee, don't apologize for spending time with your family...sometimes you have to do that. Life is about sacrfices, and if you are doing one thing, then you are surely sacrificing doing something else. The choice is what counts. Jenn--westonsmom showed me that. Come around when you can, we have missed you, but don't feel bad, Debbie must have gone downhill rather fast so probably wouldn't have seen your message....I'm just glad you have come back!!!

 

[CowTown]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>lovingBenandCambree</b></i>

I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her ..... </end quote></div>


I feel similar. My gut is just twisted about this, and I think I am trying to find some clarity in it too, but can't. I can't help but wonder if she knew this was as close as it was and her awesome sense of humor hid it from us, or what. It's very hard to imagine these forums without little debbie!

No need to feel selfish Emilee, we all need to do what we need to do.

I hope you're doing well too Emilee.

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[CowTown]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>lovingBenandCambree</b></i>

I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her ..... </end quote></div>


I feel similar. My gut is just twisted about this, and I think I am trying to find some clarity in it too, but can't. I can't help but wonder if she knew this was as close as it was and her awesome sense of humor hid it from us, or what. It's very hard to imagine these forums without little debbie!

No need to feel selfish Emilee, we all need to do what we need to do.

I hope you're doing well too Emilee.

<img src="i/expressions/sun.gif" border="0">

 

[CowTown]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>lovingBenandCambree</b></i>

I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her ..... </end quote></div>


I feel similar. My gut is just twisted about this, and I think I am trying to find some clarity in it too, but can't. I can't help but wonder if she knew this was as close as it was and her awesome sense of humor hid it from us, or what. It's very hard to imagine these forums without little debbie!

No need to feel selfish Emilee, we all need to do what we need to do.

I hope you're doing well too Emilee.

<img src="i/expressions/sun.gif" border="0">

 

[CowTown]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>lovingBenandCambree</b></i>

I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her ..... </end quote></div>


I feel similar. My gut is just twisted about this, and I think I am trying to find some clarity in it too, but can't. I can't help but wonder if she knew this was as close as it was and her awesome sense of humor hid it from us, or what. It's very hard to imagine these forums without little debbie!

No need to feel selfish Emilee, we all need to do what we need to do.

I hope you're doing well too Emilee.

<img src="i/expressions/sun.gif" border="0">

 

[CowTown]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>lovingBenandCambree</b></i>

I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her ..... </end quote>


I feel similar. My gut is just twisted about this, and I think I am trying to find some clarity in it too, but can't. I can't help but wonder if she knew this was as close as it was and her awesome sense of humor hid it from us, or what. It's very hard to imagine these forums without little debbie!

No need to feel selfish Emilee, we all need to do what we need to do.

I hope you're doing well too Emilee.

<img src="i/expressions/sun.gif" border="0">

 

[CowTown]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>lovingBenandCambree</b></i>

I don't know why, sometimes I am wondering if I am trying to find some clarity in all of this craziness or just to find some support in my insanity as of late. I can't stop thinking about her ..... </end quote>


I feel similar. My gut is just twisted about this, and I think I am trying to find some clarity in it too, but can't. I can't help but wonder if she knew this was as close as it was and her awesome sense of humor hid it from us, or what. It's very hard to imagine these forums without little debbie!

No need to feel selfish Emilee, we all need to do what we need to do.

I hope you're doing well too Emilee.

<img src="i/expressions/sun.gif" border="0">

 

[fourkidsmom]

I understand what you are saying about littledebbie- I feel out of sorts about the whole thing. I can't get it off my mind. Last night I actually cried for the first time in a long time. I usually keep things inside, or feel if I do cry I am letting CF win. I feel I need to be strong. But last night I just couldn't help it. Guess I needed to do it. The whole thing is hard to shake. Take Care and enjoy your family. Sometimes I think I need to not be on here so much, but it is so much a part of my life. My husband doesn't understand that, but I know you all do.

Fourkidsmom

 

[fourkidsmom]

I understand what you are saying about littledebbie- I feel out of sorts about the whole thing. I can't get it off my mind. Last night I actually cried for the first time in a long time. I usually keep things inside, or feel if I do cry I am letting CF win. I feel I need to be strong. But last night I just couldn't help it. Guess I needed to do it. The whole thing is hard to shake. Take Care and enjoy your family. Sometimes I think I need to not be on here so much, but it is so much a part of my life. My husband doesn't understand that, but I know you all do.

Fourkidsmom