I dont really know what im supposed to do now. I can deal with the diagnosis of CF. Some days its harder than others. But I know a lot about the disease. I studied it in school. I know what to do and what to expect as far as that goes. But I am here in Texas now with no money and no job. I am a nanny and it took me 5 months to find this job that I just lost. I doubt that anyone would want to hire a nanny with a sick baby. And I dont see how I would be able to hold a job when I will have to spend so much time at drs appointments and frequent hospitalizations. I am working on getting medicaid and wic. But I'm not sure if I qould be able to get anything else like TANIF or SSI so that I can stay home and care for her. I would also love for her father to be able to be with us. However, my aunt will not allow him to live with us in her home. He has been looking for work with no luck.
All of these things I could deal with seperately, but everything has just piled up and I feel so helpless. I dont know what to do about anything anymore. I get frustrated over the stupidest things these days, like spilling water. Or I just snap at people (mainly my daughters father) when they say or do something that irritates me. I feel bad for the people that have to be around me. =/