out of nowhere..

[TonyaH]

Thanks everyone,

I feeling a bit better tonight. I don't cry when I look at an alcohol prep anymore. UGH...

Anyway, I'm realizing that I needed to space out for awhile. I think I'm back now. I'm just tired.

There is plenty I need to do to prepare for Christmas. In fact, decorating begins tomorrow and shopping, cards and baking follow next week.

I just can't believe I'm having this reaction, but from what others are saying I guess I should just give myself the time to deal with things. But I am very grateful that Andrew did so well and realize we could have had a different outcome so in the big scheme of things life is good.

And, I've decided to spend my thinking time on Reece. I just read Leah's blog and think they need the prayers way more than I need the self pitty.

 

[TonyaH]

Thanks everyone,

I feeling a bit better tonight. I don't cry when I look at an alcohol prep anymore. UGH...

Anyway, I'm realizing that I needed to space out for awhile. I think I'm back now. I'm just tired.

There is plenty I need to do to prepare for Christmas. In fact, decorating begins tomorrow and shopping, cards and baking follow next week.

I just can't believe I'm having this reaction, but from what others are saying I guess I should just give myself the time to deal with things. But I am very grateful that Andrew did so well and realize we could have had a different outcome so in the big scheme of things life is good.

And, I've decided to spend my thinking time on Reece. I just read Leah's blog and think they need the prayers way more than I need the self pitty.

 

[TonyaH]

Thanks everyone,

I feeling a bit better tonight. I don't cry when I look at an alcohol prep anymore. UGH...

Anyway, I'm realizing that I needed to space out for awhile. I think I'm back now. I'm just tired.

There is plenty I need to do to prepare for Christmas. In fact, decorating begins tomorrow and shopping, cards and baking follow next week.

I just can't believe I'm having this reaction, but from what others are saying I guess I should just give myself the time to deal with things. But I am very grateful that Andrew did so well and realize we could have had a different outcome so in the big scheme of things life is good.

And, I've decided to spend my thinking time on Reece. I just read Leah's blog and think they need the prayers way more than I need the self pitty.

 

[TonyaH]

Thanks everyone,

I feeling a bit better tonight. I don't cry when I look at an alcohol prep anymore. UGH...

Anyway, I'm realizing that I needed to space out for awhile. I think I'm back now. I'm just tired.

There is plenty I need to do to prepare for Christmas. In fact, decorating begins tomorrow and shopping, cards and baking follow next week.

I just can't believe I'm having this reaction, but from what others are saying I guess I should just give myself the time to deal with things. But I am very grateful that Andrew did so well and realize we could have had a different outcome so in the big scheme of things life is good.

And, I've decided to spend my thinking time on Reece. I just read Leah's blog and think they need the prayers way more than I need the self pitty.

 

[TonyaH]

Thanks everyone,

I feeling a bit better tonight. I don't cry when I look at an alcohol prep anymore. UGH...

Anyway, I'm realizing that I needed to space out for awhile. I think I'm back now. I'm just tired.

There is plenty I need to do to prepare for Christmas. In fact, decorating begins tomorrow and shopping, cards and baking follow next week.

I just can't believe I'm having this reaction, but from what others are saying I guess I should just give myself the time to deal with things. But I am very grateful that Andrew did so well and realize we could have had a different outcome so in the big scheme of things life is good.

And, I've decided to spend my thinking time on Reece. I just read Leah's blog and think they need the prayers way more than I need the self pitty.

 

[Mommafirst]

There are so many facets to dealing with this disease or parenting any child with a chronic illness. I remember after Alyssa had her picc removed that I was telling random strangers things I shouldn't have. Like I was at the post office and my mail got backed up, so I went to pick it up and instead of getting it and saying thanks, I went into this long diatribe about how she had been in the hospital and just got off the IVs. Like they cared?!! I think its just another part of how we cope. There is too much to this all to take it all in in one fell swoop. But then some reality will come crashing in and you are eventually forced to accept it into your reality. And the reality of these things, like alcohol preps and saline flushes, being totally a normal part of your life, is overwhelming and sad too!! HUGS!! I'm glad you are feeling better tonight.

 

[Mommafirst]

There are so many facets to dealing with this disease or parenting any child with a chronic illness. I remember after Alyssa had her picc removed that I was telling random strangers things I shouldn't have. Like I was at the post office and my mail got backed up, so I went to pick it up and instead of getting it and saying thanks, I went into this long diatribe about how she had been in the hospital and just got off the IVs. Like they cared?!! I think its just another part of how we cope. There is too much to this all to take it all in in one fell swoop. But then some reality will come crashing in and you are eventually forced to accept it into your reality. And the reality of these things, like alcohol preps and saline flushes, being totally a normal part of your life, is overwhelming and sad too!! HUGS!! I'm glad you are feeling better tonight.

 

[Mommafirst]

There are so many facets to dealing with this disease or parenting any child with a chronic illness. I remember after Alyssa had her picc removed that I was telling random strangers things I shouldn't have. Like I was at the post office and my mail got backed up, so I went to pick it up and instead of getting it and saying thanks, I went into this long diatribe about how she had been in the hospital and just got off the IVs. Like they cared?!! I think its just another part of how we cope. There is too much to this all to take it all in in one fell swoop. But then some reality will come crashing in and you are eventually forced to accept it into your reality. And the reality of these things, like alcohol preps and saline flushes, being totally a normal part of your life, is overwhelming and sad too!! HUGS!! I'm glad you are feeling better tonight.

 

[Mommafirst]

There are so many facets to dealing with this disease or parenting any child with a chronic illness. I remember after Alyssa had her picc removed that I was telling random strangers things I shouldn't have. Like I was at the post office and my mail got backed up, so I went to pick it up and instead of getting it and saying thanks, I went into this long diatribe about how she had been in the hospital and just got off the IVs. Like they cared?!! I think its just another part of how we cope. There is too much to this all to take it all in in one fell swoop. But then some reality will come crashing in and you are eventually forced to accept it into your reality. And the reality of these things, like alcohol preps and saline flushes, being totally a normal part of your life, is overwhelming and sad too!! HUGS!! I'm glad you are feeling better tonight.

 

[Mommafirst]

There are so many facets to dealing with this disease or parenting any child with a chronic illness. I remember after Alyssa had her picc removed that I was telling random strangers things I shouldn't have. Like I was at the post office and my mail got backed up, so I went to pick it up and instead of getting it and saying thanks, I went into this long diatribe about how she had been in the hospital and just got off the IVs. Like they cared?!! I think its just another part of how we cope. There is too much to this all to take it all in in one fell swoop. But then some reality will come crashing in and you are eventually forced to accept it into your reality. And the reality of these things, like alcohol preps and saline flushes, being totally a normal part of your life, is overwhelming and sad too!! HUGS!! I'm glad you are feeling better tonight.

 

[Jane]

Its almost like having jet lag. When the kids are on IVs, we parents are on auto-pilot. DOing everyhting we can to make it all work and keep everything as normal as possible. When its over, we are tired and find ourselves with empty time. That's when we have time to think about where we've just been. Of course where we will go always creeps in too. It takes us several days to recover after a clean-out.

It is a weird thing. Hang in there. Getting ready for Christmas sounds like a good thing to focus on now!

 

[Jane]

Its almost like having jet lag. When the kids are on IVs, we parents are on auto-pilot. DOing everyhting we can to make it all work and keep everything as normal as possible. When its over, we are tired and find ourselves with empty time. That's when we have time to think about where we've just been. Of course where we will go always creeps in too. It takes us several days to recover after a clean-out.

It is a weird thing. Hang in there. Getting ready for Christmas sounds like a good thing to focus on now!

 

[Jane]

Its almost like having jet lag. When the kids are on IVs, we parents are on auto-pilot. DOing everyhting we can to make it all work and keep everything as normal as possible. When its over, we are tired and find ourselves with empty time. That's when we have time to think about where we've just been. Of course where we will go always creeps in too. It takes us several days to recover after a clean-out.

It is a weird thing. Hang in there. Getting ready for Christmas sounds like a good thing to focus on now!

 

[Jane]

Its almost like having jet lag. When the kids are on IVs, we parents are on auto-pilot. DOing everyhting we can to make it all work and keep everything as normal as possible. When its over, we are tired and find ourselves with empty time. That's when we have time to think about where we've just been. Of course where we will go always creeps in too. It takes us several days to recover after a clean-out.

It is a weird thing. Hang in there. Getting ready for Christmas sounds like a good thing to focus on now!

 

[Jane]

Its almost like having jet lag. When the kids are on IVs, we parents are on auto-pilot. DOing everyhting we can to make it all work and keep everything as normal as possible. When its over, we are tired and find ourselves with empty time. That's when we have time to think about where we've just been. Of course where we will go always creeps in too. It takes us several days to recover after a clean-out.

It is a weird thing. Hang in there. Getting ready for Christmas sounds like a good thing to focus on now!

 

[izemmom]

Wow. As much as I hate being in the "CF MOM's Club," I just have to say that this is a damn fine group of women!

Tonya, I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. I'm better in a crisis that I am at waiting for t he next bomb to drop, too. You are a great mom. We all are.

I"m just so impressed by how much we care about and support each other. We are so lucky to have each other.

 

[izemmom]

Wow. As much as I hate being in the "CF MOM's Club," I just have to say that this is a damn fine group of women!

Tonya, I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. I'm better in a crisis that I am at waiting for t he next bomb to drop, too. You are a great mom. We all are.

I"m just so impressed by how much we care about and support each other. We are so lucky to have each other.

 

[izemmom]

Wow. As much as I hate being in the "CF MOM's Club," I just have to say that this is a damn fine group of women!

Tonya, I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. I'm better in a crisis that I am at waiting for t he next bomb to drop, too. You are a great mom. We all are.

I"m just so impressed by how much we care about and support each other. We are so lucky to have each other.

 

[izemmom]

Wow. As much as I hate being in the "CF MOM's Club," I just have to say that this is a damn fine group of women!

Tonya, I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. I'm better in a crisis that I am at waiting for t he next bomb to drop, too. You are a great mom. We all are.

I"m just so impressed by how much we care about and support each other. We are so lucky to have each other.

 

[izemmom]

Wow. As much as I hate being in the "CF MOM's Club," I just have to say that this is a damn fine group of women!

Tonya, I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. I'm better in a crisis that I am at waiting for t he next bomb to drop, too. You are a great mom. We all are.

I"m just so impressed by how much we care about and support each other. We are so lucky to have each other.