I know exactly what you mean Blake. I dont have a family member or anything with CF, but I went to a college where two other girls with CF actually ended up going with me. I began to get close to one of the girls, Kathleen, in our Senior year and she was very sick. I regret not talking to her before that, but it was a dangerous situation for both of us. We were never really NEAR each other, we saw each other in the halls and talked on IM and I will never forget the conversations I had with her. Her mom called my house the summer before our Junior Year and broke the news that Kay had cepacia and it hurt so bad. <img src="i/expressions/brokenheart.gif" border="0"> I didnt really know what that meant at the time, I just knew it was bad news. It was so hard for me to see her and not be able to just hug her. I wanted to sit down and have lunch with her, compare stories, PICC scars and everything else that goes with CF. It sucked royally and I find that is one of the hardest things I have had to mentally deal with. Sometimes you just want to talk to others and be near others with the same issues.
Thats why I think that this site is so wonderful. I joined in November and I have been able to talk to many others who have had to endure so much, like me. It helps to bring us together in a community where we can voice our own opinions and sympathize with others and feel normal. No its not the same as a 'CF Camp' like there used to be, but at least its something and thats what we are here for. We are here to listen and compare, we are here for you Blake! Anytime you need to chat, please PM me. I would love to get to know you better! Have a good weekend! <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">