Saying good bye to a loved one.

[snowcone200]

Well it is about end stage cf. I am very considering ending treatment of my cf and diabetes. I just wanted to close any ties I had with people. But when it came to her she didn't want to just leave it at I love you. Like I really want, I already decided to talk to her and tell her why I want to stop treatment of my cf. She knows about my depression,cf and diabetes. So she knows about me being sick, but I guess you and everyone can tell including her that stopping treatment will only bring death on faster.

 

[snowcone200]

Well it is about end stage cf. I am very considering ending treatment of my cf and diabetes. I just wanted to close any ties I had with people. But when it came to her she didn't want to just leave it at I love you. Like I really want, I already decided to talk to her and tell her why I want to stop treatment of my cf. She knows about my depression,cf and diabetes. So she knows about me being sick, but I guess you and everyone can tell including her that stopping treatment will only bring death on faster.

 

[snowcone200]

Well it is about end stage cf. I am very considering ending treatment of my cf and diabetes. I just wanted to close any ties I had with people. But when it came to her she didn't want to just leave it at I love you. Like I really want, I already decided to talk to her and tell her why I want to stop treatment of my cf. She knows about my depression,cf and diabetes. So she knows about me being sick, but I guess you and everyone can tell including her that stopping treatment will only bring death on faster.

 

[snowcone200]

Well it is about end stage cf. I am very considering ending treatment of my cf and diabetes. I just wanted to close any ties I had with people. But when it came to her she didn't want to just leave it at I love you. Like I really want, I already decided to talk to her and tell her why I want to stop treatment of my cf. She knows about my depression,cf and diabetes. So she knows about me being sick, but I guess you and everyone can tell including her that stopping treatment will only bring death on faster.

 

[snowcone200]

Well it is about end stage cf. I am very considering ending treatment of my cf and diabetes. I just wanted to close any ties I had with people. But when it came to her she didn't want to just leave it at I love you. Like I really want, I already decided to talk to her and tell her why I want to stop treatment of my cf. She knows about my depression,cf and diabetes. So she knows about me being sick, but I guess you and everyone can tell including her that stopping treatment will only bring death on faster.

 

[Alyssa]

Are you currently end stage? or even close? bringing "death faster" by stopping regular treatments might just make you more miserable for many years rather than bring you "death faster" unless you are very close to end stage already.

If you don't mind sharing - what are your PFT's now? Are you colonized with anything? Has your doctor talked to you about hospice care? What treatments are you doing that you want to stop? Do you want to close all ties with all people or just this one person in particular?

Are you really quite certain your feelings center around your CF or is it more about unresolved hurt/anger from this person? You have said that she has hurt you very badly several times in the past, telling this person you want to stop your treatments and you no longer want her around is a pretty powerful (and could be construed as a hurtful, spiteful and manipulative) thing to do.

 

[Alyssa]

Are you currently end stage? or even close? bringing "death faster" by stopping regular treatments might just make you more miserable for many years rather than bring you "death faster" unless you are very close to end stage already.

If you don't mind sharing - what are your PFT's now? Are you colonized with anything? Has your doctor talked to you about hospice care? What treatments are you doing that you want to stop? Do you want to close all ties with all people or just this one person in particular?

Are you really quite certain your feelings center around your CF or is it more about unresolved hurt/anger from this person? You have said that she has hurt you very badly several times in the past, telling this person you want to stop your treatments and you no longer want her around is a pretty powerful (and could be construed as a hurtful, spiteful and manipulative) thing to do.

 

[Alyssa]

Are you currently end stage? or even close? bringing "death faster" by stopping regular treatments might just make you more miserable for many years rather than bring you "death faster" unless you are very close to end stage already.

If you don't mind sharing - what are your PFT's now? Are you colonized with anything? Has your doctor talked to you about hospice care? What treatments are you doing that you want to stop? Do you want to close all ties with all people or just this one person in particular?

Are you really quite certain your feelings center around your CF or is it more about unresolved hurt/anger from this person? You have said that she has hurt you very badly several times in the past, telling this person you want to stop your treatments and you no longer want her around is a pretty powerful (and could be construed as a hurtful, spiteful and manipulative) thing to do.

 

[Alyssa]

Are you currently end stage? or even close? bringing "death faster" by stopping regular treatments might just make you more miserable for many years rather than bring you "death faster" unless you are very close to end stage already.

If you don't mind sharing - what are your PFT's now? Are you colonized with anything? Has your doctor talked to you about hospice care? What treatments are you doing that you want to stop? Do you want to close all ties with all people or just this one person in particular?

Are you really quite certain your feelings center around your CF or is it more about unresolved hurt/anger from this person? You have said that she has hurt you very badly several times in the past, telling this person you want to stop your treatments and you no longer want her around is a pretty powerful (and could be construed as a hurtful, spiteful and manipulative) thing to do.

 

[Alyssa]

Are you currently end stage? or even close? bringing "death faster" by stopping regular treatments might just make you more miserable for many years rather than bring you "death faster" unless you are very close to end stage already.
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<br />If you don't mind sharing - what are your PFT's now? Are you colonized with anything? Has your doctor talked to you about hospice care? What treatments are you doing that you want to stop? Do you want to close all ties with all people or just this one person in particular?
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<br />Are you really quite certain your feelings center around your CF or is it more about unresolved hurt/anger from this person? You have said that she has hurt you very badly several times in the past, telling this person you want to stop your treatments and you no longer want her around is a pretty powerful (and could be construed as a hurtful, spiteful and manipulative) thing to do.

 

[snowcone200]

My PFTS are up and down mostly when I do them, I sometimes am very disappointed when I actually try me best but get a low score. It's gotten hard for me to reach 60FEV now, when 60 use to be the normal. Lowest was in the 40's I think, I was just too exhausted to really try. The only reason why I still take to this girl even though she has hurt be bad before is because I love her. That and she stuck around even after seeing me sick, I met her in the hospital. Most of the time when I went in the hospital she would come visit me. From her doing that I started to really care about her but then there were times where she would hurt me. But you know how love can make you blind. Now I am just really confused about all of this, after seeing peoples replies to me wanting to stop treatment. It make me feel frightened to tell my doctor, I don't wanna be criticized for my decision. I have been before by a doctor and my mom when I was a minor. It frustrated me a lot, I really don't know how this will all go really.

 

[snowcone200]

My PFTS are up and down mostly when I do them, I sometimes am very disappointed when I actually try me best but get a low score. It's gotten hard for me to reach 60FEV now, when 60 use to be the normal. Lowest was in the 40's I think, I was just too exhausted to really try. The only reason why I still take to this girl even though she has hurt be bad before is because I love her. That and she stuck around even after seeing me sick, I met her in the hospital. Most of the time when I went in the hospital she would come visit me. From her doing that I started to really care about her but then there were times where she would hurt me. But you know how love can make you blind. Now I am just really confused about all of this, after seeing peoples replies to me wanting to stop treatment. It make me feel frightened to tell my doctor, I don't wanna be criticized for my decision. I have been before by a doctor and my mom when I was a minor. It frustrated me a lot, I really don't know how this will all go really.

 

[snowcone200]

My PFTS are up and down mostly when I do them, I sometimes am very disappointed when I actually try me best but get a low score. It's gotten hard for me to reach 60FEV now, when 60 use to be the normal. Lowest was in the 40's I think, I was just too exhausted to really try. The only reason why I still take to this girl even though she has hurt be bad before is because I love her. That and she stuck around even after seeing me sick, I met her in the hospital. Most of the time when I went in the hospital she would come visit me. From her doing that I started to really care about her but then there were times where she would hurt me. But you know how love can make you blind. Now I am just really confused about all of this, after seeing peoples replies to me wanting to stop treatment. It make me feel frightened to tell my doctor, I don't wanna be criticized for my decision. I have been before by a doctor and my mom when I was a minor. It frustrated me a lot, I really don't know how this will all go really.

 

[snowcone200]

My PFTS are up and down mostly when I do them, I sometimes am very disappointed when I actually try me best but get a low score. It's gotten hard for me to reach 60FEV now, when 60 use to be the normal. Lowest was in the 40's I think, I was just too exhausted to really try. The only reason why I still take to this girl even though she has hurt be bad before is because I love her. That and she stuck around even after seeing me sick, I met her in the hospital. Most of the time when I went in the hospital she would come visit me. From her doing that I started to really care about her but then there were times where she would hurt me. But you know how love can make you blind. Now I am just really confused about all of this, after seeing peoples replies to me wanting to stop treatment. It make me feel frightened to tell my doctor, I don't wanna be criticized for my decision. I have been before by a doctor and my mom when I was a minor. It frustrated me a lot, I really don't know how this will all go really.

 

[snowcone200]

My PFTS are up and down mostly when I do them, I sometimes am very disappointed when I actually try me best but get a low score. It's gotten hard for me to reach 60FEV now, when 60 use to be the normal. Lowest was in the 40's I think, I was just too exhausted to really try. The only reason why I still take to this girl even though she has hurt be bad before is because I love her. That and she stuck around even after seeing me sick, I met her in the hospital. Most of the time when I went in the hospital she would come visit me. From her doing that I started to really care about her but then there were times where she would hurt me. But you know how love can make you blind. Now I am just really confused about all of this, after seeing peoples replies to me wanting to stop treatment. It make me feel frightened to tell my doctor, I don't wanna be criticized for my decision. I have been before by a doctor and my mom when I was a minor. It frustrated me a lot, I really don't know how this will all go really.

 

[sue35]

You said you do suffer from depression but I don't remember if you are seeing someone? I will not criticize your decision. I do want to say that I have been in your shoes. It was very hard for me to adjust to 40FEV1 when I was used to higher. I wanted to give up also. But then I read how painful it is to die like that so I didn't. It can take a long time and if you are not in the hospital then you just have to suffer at home, which can be hard.

It takes time but soon you will adjust to a new normal of 40 lung function. Sometimes I really only do my medicine because of the painful death I have heard of. Good luck with everything.

 

[sue35]

You said you do suffer from depression but I don't remember if you are seeing someone? I will not criticize your decision. I do want to say that I have been in your shoes. It was very hard for me to adjust to 40FEV1 when I was used to higher. I wanted to give up also. But then I read how painful it is to die like that so I didn't. It can take a long time and if you are not in the hospital then you just have to suffer at home, which can be hard.

It takes time but soon you will adjust to a new normal of 40 lung function. Sometimes I really only do my medicine because of the painful death I have heard of. Good luck with everything.

 

[sue35]

You said you do suffer from depression but I don't remember if you are seeing someone? I will not criticize your decision. I do want to say that I have been in your shoes. It was very hard for me to adjust to 40FEV1 when I was used to higher. I wanted to give up also. But then I read how painful it is to die like that so I didn't. It can take a long time and if you are not in the hospital then you just have to suffer at home, which can be hard.

It takes time but soon you will adjust to a new normal of 40 lung function. Sometimes I really only do my medicine because of the painful death I have heard of. Good luck with everything.

 

[sue35]

You said you do suffer from depression but I don't remember if you are seeing someone? I will not criticize your decision. I do want to say that I have been in your shoes. It was very hard for me to adjust to 40FEV1 when I was used to higher. I wanted to give up also. But then I read how painful it is to die like that so I didn't. It can take a long time and if you are not in the hospital then you just have to suffer at home, which can be hard.

It takes time but soon you will adjust to a new normal of 40 lung function. Sometimes I really only do my medicine because of the painful death I have heard of. Good luck with everything.

 

[sue35]

You said you do suffer from depression but I don't remember if you are seeing someone? I will not criticize your decision. I do want to say that I have been in your shoes. It was very hard for me to adjust to 40FEV1 when I was used to higher. I wanted to give up also. But then I read how painful it is to die like that so I didn't. It can take a long time and if you are not in the hospital then you just have to suffer at home, which can be hard.
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<br />It takes time but soon you will adjust to a new normal of 40 lung function. Sometimes I really only do my medicine because of the painful death I have heard of. Good luck with everything.