Hi GordonsGirl,
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<br />I've been reading your posts and I am so very sorry to hear you have gone through this!
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<br />Hope you don't mind me saying this...but on different level I can kinda of understand the deep longing for a baby, just praying and hoping that...the "ONE day" it'll happen feeling, will evenually con to fruition :/
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<br />I'd like to share a little about my story to you if that's okay..my husban and I have been married for nearly 3 years and from the moment I got married all I/we ever wanted was to have a baby, i'm so clucky right at this point in time, that being a 27yrs old cfer and all I feel like I'm ready to be "a mother" and for the next chapter in my life to start. But when we started TTC, it seems that my body/C.F... had other ideas, then that's when things got kinda tough. Like every month I'd been thinking "okay, this is going to happen this month for me!" and then come my period and it was back to square one. Evenually it got to the point that I was so depressed, frustrated and fearful that I was going to miss out on motherhood- that wasn't going to happen for us!
<br />So out of desperation we contacted my C.F specialists and told him we had been having trouble from the time we got married. So he referered us to a fertility service and now we are on a waiting list to see a fertility clinic, trouble is...it's another "6 months" waiting which is kinda very very frustrating for us cause it's not like we have all the time in the world to wait right?!!
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<br />Anyway I've given up trying to think too much of anything now these days, b/c it's just not WORTH all the ENERGY it takes out of me when I'm crying and getting angry with the TTC situation...So (recently)I've thrown caution to the wind in the hope that ONE DAY our "Baby 2b" will happen when the time is right... and maybe on another level that is less stressful for us. I guess that's all anyone can do right...?
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<br />I mean it's only natural that if any other women (who did not have C.F) was in OUR shoes and they suddenly found themselves facing the same situation, that they would be depressed and frustrated too!
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<br />Just want to say don't give up! Because timing is everthing! And I will keep you in our prayers. Please keep us posted on things with you <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
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<br />Loads of Hugs, and love your way,
<br />Sarah <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">