Suicidal

[ClashPunk82]

I was just wondering does anyone ever get the feeling of just wanting to be over. I am on depression meds and would never actually hurt myself but sometimes I get so fed up and so overwhelmed I just think it would be better if I died. Does anyone else feel this way and how do you cope?

 

[ClashPunk82]

I was just wondering does anyone ever get the feeling of just wanting to be over. I am on depression meds and would never actually hurt myself but sometimes I get so fed up and so overwhelmed I just think it would be better if I died. Does anyone else feel this way and how do you cope?

 

[Lilith]

I've felt like that many, MANY times. I'm not on antidepressants (at least not yet), so the only thing I find that helps is to just ride it out. Once you get to your lowest point, you can only go back up. I've come to the brink of taking my own life a few times, but I've always come back to the idea that there is a purpose for me, even if I feel completely useless and alone. If I died, it would devestate my family, my boyfriend, and my best friends, and that's enough to make me keep pushing forward. I couldn't do that to them, even for my own sake.

The important thing when you feel like this is to get up and do something. Anything. Watch a movie, play a game, something to take your mind off of the mess in your head. Can't do it at home? Go out. Force yourself to get up and go somewhere. The mall, the movies, whatever. Go out with a friend for some coffee, and talk about how you feel to someone you trust not to jump you and put you in a mental ward. My boyfriend has been subjected to many of my suicidal thoughts, but each time he doesn't judge me. He just gives me reasons not to give up. Basically, he picks me up and dusts me off and sends me on my way again. Doesn't have to be a boyfriend, either. It can be your best friend, or even a sibling (if you trust them not to freak out).

Just try not to think about it too much. Distract yourself, and eventually, you'll get to being your old self again. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[Lilith]

I've felt like that many, MANY times. I'm not on antidepressants (at least not yet), so the only thing I find that helps is to just ride it out. Once you get to your lowest point, you can only go back up. I've come to the brink of taking my own life a few times, but I've always come back to the idea that there is a purpose for me, even if I feel completely useless and alone. If I died, it would devestate my family, my boyfriend, and my best friends, and that's enough to make me keep pushing forward. I couldn't do that to them, even for my own sake.

The important thing when you feel like this is to get up and do something. Anything. Watch a movie, play a game, something to take your mind off of the mess in your head. Can't do it at home? Go out. Force yourself to get up and go somewhere. The mall, the movies, whatever. Go out with a friend for some coffee, and talk about how you feel to someone you trust not to jump you and put you in a mental ward. My boyfriend has been subjected to many of my suicidal thoughts, but each time he doesn't judge me. He just gives me reasons not to give up. Basically, he picks me up and dusts me off and sends me on my way again. Doesn't have to be a boyfriend, either. It can be your best friend, or even a sibling (if you trust them not to freak out).

Just try not to think about it too much. Distract yourself, and eventually, you'll get to being your old self again. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[bgchastain]

I don't ever want my life to be over, but there are times where I wish I could just take a vacation from CF. I think everyone has those moments, even the ones that just love us CFers, but that's not life and no one ever said it would make since or be fair. I try to stay focused on the positive. The great people God has put into my life, and my relationships wouldn't be the same with them if I didn't have CF. Try to stay focused on your blessing and enjoy your time here while you have it.

 

[bgchastain]

I don't ever want my life to be over, but there are times where I wish I could just take a vacation from CF. I think everyone has those moments, even the ones that just love us CFers, but that's not life and no one ever said it would make since or be fair. I try to stay focused on the positive. The great people God has put into my life, and my relationships wouldn't be the same with them if I didn't have CF. Try to stay focused on your blessing and enjoy your time here while you have it.

 

[coltsfan715]

Hey I went through a phase in H.S. where I wanted to kill myself - I think that comes with H.S. for a lot of people looking back on it. I never acted on any of my thoughts though.

I do on occassions just get physically exhausted and think to myself - ugh it would so nice to not have to breathe anymore. Not that I want to die, just that my muscles throughout my chest and back get so sore from coughing and breathing sometimes that it would be nice if I didn't have to use them lol - I hope that makes sense.

Anymore I wish on an almost daily basis I could get rid of CF or take a break - I tell my fiance I am ready for an upgrade all the time. He just laughs and says yeah I can understand that .. but then you wouldn't be you. My response - I have been me long enough I am ready to try being someone else - of course that wouldn't work I would miss the people I love to much but who knows.

When I do get down and wish I just didn't have to go through this crap anymore I think of all the things I would miss if I did "just stop breathing", that usually helps get me out of the rut that I am in. It works for me because I hate being left out of fun things. As soon as I think oh - then I wouldn't be going on our next trip to WDW or then I wouldn't be going to TN or to Jersey next month - I start thinking well that isn't cool I want to do those things and it gives me the energy and the kick in the butt that I need to get up and do what needs to be done, so I can be healthy enough to go and do those things.

I hope if you are feeling down you start feeling better.
When I was in H.S. and having a hard time I started trying to live by this saying
"Focus on the Positive and the Negative won't seem so bad"

I know it is simple and kind of elementary, but sometimes we need to be reminded of the most common sense/obvious things in life.

Take Care,
Lindsey

 

[coltsfan715]

Hey I went through a phase in H.S. where I wanted to kill myself - I think that comes with H.S. for a lot of people looking back on it. I never acted on any of my thoughts though.

I do on occassions just get physically exhausted and think to myself - ugh it would so nice to not have to breathe anymore. Not that I want to die, just that my muscles throughout my chest and back get so sore from coughing and breathing sometimes that it would be nice if I didn't have to use them lol - I hope that makes sense.

Anymore I wish on an almost daily basis I could get rid of CF or take a break - I tell my fiance I am ready for an upgrade all the time. He just laughs and says yeah I can understand that .. but then you wouldn't be you. My response - I have been me long enough I am ready to try being someone else - of course that wouldn't work I would miss the people I love to much but who knows.

When I do get down and wish I just didn't have to go through this crap anymore I think of all the things I would miss if I did "just stop breathing", that usually helps get me out of the rut that I am in. It works for me because I hate being left out of fun things. As soon as I think oh - then I wouldn't be going on our next trip to WDW or then I wouldn't be going to TN or to Jersey next month - I start thinking well that isn't cool I want to do those things and it gives me the energy and the kick in the butt that I need to get up and do what needs to be done, so I can be healthy enough to go and do those things.

I hope if you are feeling down you start feeling better.
When I was in H.S. and having a hard time I started trying to live by this saying
"Focus on the Positive and the Negative won't seem so bad"

I know it is simple and kind of elementary, but sometimes we need to be reminded of the most common sense/obvious things in life.

Take Care,
Lindsey

 

[JazzysMom]

I never had wanted to take my life due to CF & the aspects surrounding it. But I have been in a depressive state. Not caring about anything or anyone. Going thru the motions of my day, but not really living. I would cry uncontrollably because I didnt know how to fix it. I eventually would force myself to something that would feel prodictuve. Do a project around the house I have been putting off, get in touch with people I have been neglecting. Anything to make me feel better. I hope it eases for you. Its terrible when your brain works one way yet it knows at the same time it should be working/thinking a different way!

 

[JazzysMom]

I never had wanted to take my life due to CF & the aspects surrounding it. But I have been in a depressive state. Not caring about anything or anyone. Going thru the motions of my day, but not really living. I would cry uncontrollably because I didnt know how to fix it. I eventually would force myself to something that would feel prodictuve. Do a project around the house I have been putting off, get in touch with people I have been neglecting. Anything to make me feel better. I hope it eases for you. Its terrible when your brain works one way yet it knows at the same time it should be working/thinking a different way!

 

[nocode]

I've been throught a depression that lasted about 3 years and it is impossible to put into words how it felt. Anyone who has been through a depression knows what im talking about. And some people say, with the best intentions, that maybe talking to someone or trying to do something to distract themselves helps, but it doesnt. If one is really depressed,just talking to others wont help. I've tried to commit suicide once, almost 5 years ago. Then i went through a very though phase that lasted a couple of years and then, at 21, it passed. I hope it will stay like this.. peaceful.

 

[nocode]

I've been throught a depression that lasted about 3 years and it is impossible to put into words how it felt. Anyone who has been through a depression knows what im talking about. And some people say, with the best intentions, that maybe talking to someone or trying to do something to distract themselves helps, but it doesnt. If one is really depressed,just talking to others wont help. I've tried to commit suicide once, almost 5 years ago. Then i went through a very though phase that lasted a couple of years and then, at 21, it passed. I hope it will stay like this.. peaceful.

 

[littledebbie]

yah, I've thought about it more than once and rather seriously too. Sometimes I just get really sick of being sick...how's that saying go "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired". Besides it's all going to end the same way sooner or later...we die. But I think about the people I love and that love me, I have a neice and nephew that are not old enough to remember me yet if I were to die and let me tell you I'm worth remembering so i have to be around a little longer to be sure to help mold their young minds <img src="i/expressions/devil.gif" border="0"> And my Mom has worked at least as hard if not sometimes harder to keep my here, it would seem rather rude to go and trash her efforts. besides when I think of people who kill themselves I get angry at them and think that it was very selfish and I think of all the little kids I used to see in the hospital fighting so hard to stay alive and I think it just would be so disrespectful to all of my fellow soldiers - so to speak to - throw in the towel like that. So that was a long way of saying yes I feel like ending it all sometimes but than I think....I wonder how the Harry Potter series is going to end, and isn't there a sale at Macy's this Saturday and I keep going.

Keep your head up and feel free to e-mail if you ever want to chat

 

[littledebbie]

yah, I've thought about it more than once and rather seriously too. Sometimes I just get really sick of being sick...how's that saying go "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired". Besides it's all going to end the same way sooner or later...we die. But I think about the people I love and that love me, I have a neice and nephew that are not old enough to remember me yet if I were to die and let me tell you I'm worth remembering so i have to be around a little longer to be sure to help mold their young minds <img src="i/expressions/devil.gif" border="0"> And my Mom has worked at least as hard if not sometimes harder to keep my here, it would seem rather rude to go and trash her efforts. besides when I think of people who kill themselves I get angry at them and think that it was very selfish and I think of all the little kids I used to see in the hospital fighting so hard to stay alive and I think it just would be so disrespectful to all of my fellow soldiers - so to speak to - throw in the towel like that. So that was a long way of saying yes I feel like ending it all sometimes but than I think....I wonder how the Harry Potter series is going to end, and isn't there a sale at Macy's this Saturday and I keep going.

Keep your head up and feel free to e-mail if you ever want to chat

 

[thelizardqueen]

I would rather live a very long life with CF then die. Death to me is incredibly frightening, and I don't ever want to die. Its not so much death that scares me, but having to tell people that I love that I'm dieing, and leaving them behind.

 

[thelizardqueen]

I would rather live a very long life with CF then die. Death to me is incredibly frightening, and I don't ever want to die. Its not so much death that scares me, but having to tell people that I love that I'm dieing, and leaving them behind.

 

[anonymous]

Hey,

Just wanted to say that I think almost everyone experiences that at some point in life. Even 'normal' people without illness, without major baggage. Eventually people go through something that makes them at least wonder about it.

So, don't think that you are an exception. Depression, and even thoughts like that are fairly common with chronic illness. I think it's great that you are receiving medication, and some form of help.

I have felt that I wanted to die many times in the past. I never hurt myself, but at my worst I really wanted to feel pain. Therapy has helped me tremendously. Perhaps adding that to your treatment could help with the feelings. I don't know if you are a spiritual person, but for me, when the feelings came, praying immediately helped them to pass. Or at least be managable. Even if you're not sure in the heat of the moment of what to say, I really think just looking to a higher power and saying 'help!' can do some good.

But, of course all the faith in the world can't cure depression, so maybe you should seek a counselor and talk it out.
Just remember, what you 're feeling is common, and you don't have to succumb to it.

Christian

 

[anonymous]

Hey,

Just wanted to say that I think almost everyone experiences that at some point in life. Even 'normal' people without illness, without major baggage. Eventually people go through something that makes them at least wonder about it.

So, don't think that you are an exception. Depression, and even thoughts like that are fairly common with chronic illness. I think it's great that you are receiving medication, and some form of help.

I have felt that I wanted to die many times in the past. I never hurt myself, but at my worst I really wanted to feel pain. Therapy has helped me tremendously. Perhaps adding that to your treatment could help with the feelings. I don't know if you are a spiritual person, but for me, when the feelings came, praying immediately helped them to pass. Or at least be managable. Even if you're not sure in the heat of the moment of what to say, I really think just looking to a higher power and saying 'help!' can do some good.

But, of course all the faith in the world can't cure depression, so maybe you should seek a counselor and talk it out.
Just remember, what you 're feeling is common, and you don't have to succumb to it.

Christian

 

[Noam]

I always think of this.... "If Life Was Easy, Nobody Would Do It ... It Wouldn't Be Worth It... We All Want A Challenge"

Think about your life. Every day you do the things you do because you strive to better yourself and your surroundings (Includind the people around you). We do what we do because OUR challenge is to live with something that nobody else knows how to. We do what we do because we care for our mothers, fathers, siblings, and other loved ones who have helped us get this far... Without them it would not have been possible and we owe it to them, and to ourselves to fight. Every day we fight.

I have had several times in my life where I thought... Why should I bother to continue? I will tell you what it all boils down to... the people YOU care about. Whenever I think about how horrible this disease is, that my parents may have to watch their son be put into the ground, that I wont be able to spend as much time as I want with people who care about me and I care about I realize that is the EXACT reason we keep going. Our time may be limited (and more limited then others) but that does not mean we can't make the best of it.

 

[Noam]

I always think of this.... "If Life Was Easy, Nobody Would Do It ... It Wouldn't Be Worth It... We All Want A Challenge"

Think about your life. Every day you do the things you do because you strive to better yourself and your surroundings (Includind the people around you). We do what we do because OUR challenge is to live with something that nobody else knows how to. We do what we do because we care for our mothers, fathers, siblings, and other loved ones who have helped us get this far... Without them it would not have been possible and we owe it to them, and to ourselves to fight. Every day we fight.

I have had several times in my life where I thought... Why should I bother to continue? I will tell you what it all boils down to... the people YOU care about. Whenever I think about how horrible this disease is, that my parents may have to watch their son be put into the ground, that I wont be able to spend as much time as I want with people who care about me and I care about I realize that is the EXACT reason we keep going. Our time may be limited (and more limited then others) but that does not mean we can't make the best of it.