Hi, everyone.
I rarely post on here because I just had a crappy crappy day, but feel the need to vent, so I hope no one minds my pitty pot...
Well, today I had CF clinic and went feeling pretty ok.... I had had a clean out in November that brought my FEV1 up to 68%, which was about 4% above baseline for me. Well, I've been doing ok since then... of course, the usual "downward trend" after IV meds... my gunk I'm coughing up is green and thick again and I'm a BIT shorter of breath, but not NEAR what I had been when I went on the IVs, and I'm still able to run and cook and clean and do things like "usual" for me.
... So, today I was completely shocked when I got to clinic and blew a 53% FEV1 on my first try and 2 consecutive 59%! I couldn't believe my eyes or believe how hard it was to continuously blow into the PFT! So, really, I've now gone from a baseline of 64% about 8 months ago to 59% 4 months after agressive antibiotics. I have NEVER had such a huge decrease and am completely devastated cause I just don't FEEL that bad! I feel like I'd for sure be back to baseline, but not 5% below that. I feel so totally hopeless tonight. I was exercising and everything and thought I was keeping my lungs in ok shape until this.
The other weird thing is that I've actually GAINED 5 lbs., which is usually VERY difficult for me. The docs thought it was weird that I gained weight if it is in fact a CF infection, as that usually causes weight LOSS if anything. I also haven't needed extra insulin or anything, which is another sign of infection.
So, does anyone know what could be going on here? Why could I feel good and have FEV1 lower than its been in 5 years?! Why would everything else point to "good" health except this huge drop? I'm just totally overwhelmed and terrified. For once, I feel I really don't have any control over this disease. I mean, I always thought I could fight fight fight and "go down trying" with exercise and doing treatments religiously, but apparently not. And, apparently my body doesn't even do a good job telling me when it IS sick....
I also know they're upping my prevacid since I've been getting terrible terrible heartburn for the past month or so. Not sure if that could be the main factor in the FEV1 dropping, but I just really want to be able to blame it on something OTHER than what it probably is.
Please, if anyone could share their experiences or offer me some words, I would really appreciate it. I'm feeling so low right now. Its like I'm in shock or something....
Thanks,
I rarely post on here because I just had a crappy crappy day, but feel the need to vent, so I hope no one minds my pitty pot...
Well, today I had CF clinic and went feeling pretty ok.... I had had a clean out in November that brought my FEV1 up to 68%, which was about 4% above baseline for me. Well, I've been doing ok since then... of course, the usual "downward trend" after IV meds... my gunk I'm coughing up is green and thick again and I'm a BIT shorter of breath, but not NEAR what I had been when I went on the IVs, and I'm still able to run and cook and clean and do things like "usual" for me.
... So, today I was completely shocked when I got to clinic and blew a 53% FEV1 on my first try and 2 consecutive 59%! I couldn't believe my eyes or believe how hard it was to continuously blow into the PFT! So, really, I've now gone from a baseline of 64% about 8 months ago to 59% 4 months after agressive antibiotics. I have NEVER had such a huge decrease and am completely devastated cause I just don't FEEL that bad! I feel like I'd for sure be back to baseline, but not 5% below that. I feel so totally hopeless tonight. I was exercising and everything and thought I was keeping my lungs in ok shape until this.
The other weird thing is that I've actually GAINED 5 lbs., which is usually VERY difficult for me. The docs thought it was weird that I gained weight if it is in fact a CF infection, as that usually causes weight LOSS if anything. I also haven't needed extra insulin or anything, which is another sign of infection.
So, does anyone know what could be going on here? Why could I feel good and have FEV1 lower than its been in 5 years?! Why would everything else point to "good" health except this huge drop? I'm just totally overwhelmed and terrified. For once, I feel I really don't have any control over this disease. I mean, I always thought I could fight fight fight and "go down trying" with exercise and doing treatments religiously, but apparently not. And, apparently my body doesn't even do a good job telling me when it IS sick....
I also know they're upping my prevacid since I've been getting terrible terrible heartburn for the past month or so. Not sure if that could be the main factor in the FEV1 dropping, but I just really want to be able to blame it on something OTHER than what it probably is.
Please, if anyone could share their experiences or offer me some words, I would really appreciate it. I'm feeling so low right now. Its like I'm in shock or something....
Thanks,